It takes time, take it in little steps. It can be quite a rollercoaster, and a bit of a shock to find it takes longer than we might have expected before we experienced a loss.
There are different stages and emotions but they dont follow a simple path, and at times I really thought I was losing my mind. Be gentle with yourself, keep talking. Ive always found writing helped me, I have kept a diary for years. You might find writing helps you, whether here or in private
Its painful, but it will get easier to cope in time
xx