Hello Vee, I understand only too well how you are feeling. My husband died in July. I can only pass on to you the advice that has helped me and hope it will help you too. The most important thing is to just take one day at a time. Just concentrate on getting through each day and being kind to yourself. Don't expect too much. My neighbour suggested I put up the happiest photos of myself and my husband around the house and do you know that really helped. It is not easy, I know but I am in your corner. Jill x