Hi Lisa,
Same here. August was my mother's birthday. September was when she fell ill. My dad too, years ago. October was the month when I lost my nan, my dad and my mum, so lots of unpleasant memories will be coming back and October has become a month I am afraid of, as a result.
All we can do is try to remember the good times and focus on those rather than the bad memories of those last times. Celebrate the gift of the time you did have with those you have lost and not on the loss itself. You can't change it, so no good dwelling. Isn't it wonderful that you had so much time with the wonderful people they were? That time they spent in your life if their legacy to you. Stay strong...xx