My goodness you have got up to some pranks! You mentioned 6'5" and your motor bikes, my partner was 6'6" but the motor bikes went long ago by my prompting. I have found lately that I am mostly 'stable' at home without any hassle of going out to meet people, so that's what I will do for a while. I can't talk to anyone about my partner it is just too hard and am going up and down like a yo yo. I get very panicky in the mornings but by going out in the garden it helps to relieve it, I like being outside but within my castle. I have cut out those people causing problems and I remember that once I said to my Mother so and so had upset me over something and she said quite forcefully, well don't let them. She was a down to earth Edinburgh lady and she is quite right, why should I let other people upset me. She still amuses me even though I miss her very much and she died seven years ago. True to her Scottish roots, after she died, my sister and I were clearing out her bedroom and kept coming upon various boxes with money in them. She had been hoarding them, in fact some of the notes had to be changed at the Bank as they were so old. She was very shrewd and careful, no lights left on unnecessarily, heating only went on when it was practically freezing and she even took out the bulb of an outside light I had fitted for her. I am taking his name off docs now and did copy any documents I took into the Sols - thanks for that suggestion - just in case. I have done practical things like sorting out his clothes but can't seem to want to find new homes for them just yet, I'm reluctant to let them go.