Well I had one of my worst crying sessions late last night, I was just deep in thought about Ann, I've been trying to mix more socially in recent days, and though it does help, albeit only temporarily, deep down I think I'm merely kidding myself, those dark thoughts returned really strong last night too...and still with me this morning...not good.
I'm trying, I really am, but the reality is I'm struggling to see any future, there is nothing any more. I feel really depressed today and I know what my wife would be saying now "Come on you Wimp"