MY wife died last week and was buried on the 14/03.2019, totally unexpected she had a cold which turned to sepsis, we had been together for 40 years, and grew up together, after various calls to the emergency services it was too late to save her. I have only me to rely on now.I do not know if you believe in an after life, but i have seen her and heard her call my name, my first thought was to end my miserable existence, next thing I knew the police were round my house asking me how i intended to do it, and they removed all the pills and potions i had (all vitamins). This they tell me is part of the natural process of grief,but there can be no process to the pain that we feel only time will tell, It may help a little if you sleep with a body pillow so if you turn over at night,it will feel like there is someone there, try not to be alone as i am,talking will get you through a large portion of the day, although it feels like your lights are on but there is no-one there.Feel free to talk at any time day or night, and i will try to answer because as a community we are strong.