It is 6 months today since my life changed forever and I lost my Mum. Feeling very tearful and lost tonight. Saturdays were spent with her and my sisters and we do still get together as siblings which I enjoy. Feeling like going to bed and not facing tomorrow. I have pictures in my living room and a cushion on my bed that has my profile picture on and I am trying not to look at them tonight. What I wouldnt give to wrap my arms around her and tell her that I love her. She was only 66 and even though we knew she was ill, we didnt expect her to leave so soon. I wish I had known that the last time I talked to her she would fall unconcious not 5 minutes later and never wake up again. I would have held her so tight and told her how much I loved her. I did have the opportunity to do both the day before and for that I will always be grateful. Sometimes I cant believe she has gone.