Hi Pam and Monster Bear,
Yes Pam it takes some time, keep thinking I'm doing ok and then for no reason I get up in the morning and just feel down all day. In the beginning I used to say 'I'm not stupid, I know he's gone' But honestly sometimes now I have to remind myself that he has gone. Grief can play tricks but I also believe our own inner self protects its self.
Monster bear (9 children) how wonderful, my husband had liver and lung cancer, fine one week diagnosed terminal the next, I think that was a blessing in disguise for both of us, as some face the inevitable for months and months, though at the time I prayed for more time with him now I am pleased he didn't suffer to long.
Hope you both keep in touch, I'm still finding my way around the forum but do feel like its helping, don't feel so alone.
Love and hugs to you both x