My name is Laura, I have two brothers,and we lost our Mother on 6th November. As she lived on the same street as me, I'd seen her pretty much every day for the last 25 years. When she was diagnosed in May, with Colon cancer, we were there for her when she needed us. Her partner of the last 16 years, doted on her, and when she got to a point where she couldn't be left alone, he stayed with her, and we , her children & grandchildren, took turns to be with her when he needed a break. She went downhill, and went into hospital on 22nd October, and we lost her two weeks later. We all knew it was coming, but as anyone who has been in this situation knows, it still doesn't prepare you for that finality. As she was in a rented house, we all had to swing into action, to get it cleared in the time we had, and I got on with sorting out her financial estate. I collected the death certificate, and arranged the funeral. It all went very smoothly, and I was proud of myself for having managed to do all that by myself. Then one morning, not long before the funeral, I woke up in terrible pain, unable to move. It was like I'd seized up overnight. I felt like I'd aged 30 years. My mobility was affected, and it felt like my muscles were aching all over. I am still suffering with this problem, and I get to a point in the day where I've had enough, and I just want it to be over...like I want to die, simply to get rid of this pain. (Has anyone else suffered from this, and if so, how long did it take to get better?) Once I am up and moving, it gets a little easier, but if I sit for too long, I find it hard to get up. Bending down and kneeling down are completely out. I cry a lot, mainly because of the pain, but also because I've lost my Mum. I don't know where to start to get my life back. I read last week, that grief and stress, can cause this kind of pain. The stress hormones flood the body, and affect the muscles. Knowing this helps, as it's something that shouldn't be permanent, so it gives me hope. But every day I wake up in this pain, it just drags me further down. I don't know where to start to get my life back. If anyone can offer any advice, I'd be so grateful. I can't go on like this.