Grief is an odd thing at times, it doesnt move tidily through expected stages, or proceed in an orderly time specified route. It can often be a rollercoaster, takes each of us our own time and can be delayed. Big events in our lives, even positive big things, can trigger grief we havent dealt with previously
Our brains are still forming when we are children, so perhaps loss as a child is processed a bit differently. Perhaps now you are older, there are more unresolved feelings and thoughts.
Talking things through helps us process our loss and you may find that helps you to make sense of things now. You may find counselling would help to explore your feelings, otherwise we will do our best to support you here, from our experiences xx