Hi Steve, my husband died six weeks ago and like you I feel alone even though I have family and friends who have supported me, but they don't live with me. I dreaded the funeral, I wanted it over but didn't actually want it to happen, it even crossed my mind briefly not to go, but I couldn't do that, I owed it to him and all the people who loved him. In the end, it all passed very smoothly, we were all upset, but so proud of the send off we gave him. I know it's not for everyone, but I used a herbal product called Rescue Remedy, it's supposed to have a calming effect and surprisingly it did work for me. I felt calm and dignified, had a few wobbles when I met certain people who set me off, but in the end I felt proud of myself for getting through it. I will also be thinking of you tomorrow and wishing you strength.