Thankyou emz. It means a lot that people understand. I was writing the following before seeing your reply to my last post.
Sorry to go on but I'm using the forum as a sort of diary.
Bit of a mixed morning. No sleeping pill last night so I woke early and couldn't get back to sleep. Postman brought letters from insurance and the likes that set me off for a bit then I got a call from the council (we had been having some dealings with them) saying they had issued a temporary exemption till I get stuff sorted so that was good.
Decided to take a trip to the local market with my daughter. Lots of clothes my wife would have loved but we bought treats for the dog and some clothes for our grandson that my wife would have leapt on. My wife is now in the local chapel of rest and I am not going to see her. I prefer to try and remember her as she was and cannot face going in. I did have a bit of a cry outside the chapel of rest which is alongside the market. A few people stopped me and offered their condolences and I had my first awkward "How's your wife?" Conversation. That hurt.
I've hoovered up and then had a sausage roll for lunch and got crumbs all over where I had just cleaned. Margaret would have known to hoover after eating the sausage rolls. Just one of a million things I have to learn.
God bless her. She did everything