I remember being upset by couples My first day back at work one of the managers was moaning he and his wife couldn't agree on kitchen cupboard colours,and just wanting to scream at him,it doesn't matter,just let her chose and be grateful sh,s alive,I didn't but I wanted too.Also a couple of women in a charity shop talking and one saying she was glad hubby had decided to stay home,because he always got in the way when she was shopping,again I wanted to yell at her,and didn't,but at least in that situation I was able to walk out.I don't notice it so much now,except in a situation where there couples,then me .Staff Xmas dinner for example,I just feel like a spare part,the leftover bolt from a flatpack.
Julie unfortunately I lost the desire to cook and lost weight initially,but then started comfort eating,and because I wasn't cooking it was all junk,Eating alone is awful,and for me I was so down I didn't think I was worth feeding properly. i never eat in the kitchen but opt for the coffee table and tv,but at lleast cooking gives you back some control of your life,how much bad stuff goes in,and because I don't eat meat veggie choices in microwave meals are limited so nutrition levels were bad,which in turn makes you feel even more unable to cope.My daughter gave me a cook book called the cake the Buddha ate,really simple recipes and not all the trendy unobtainable veggie foods,but it also has writing that makes you think about the food,who would have thought peeling potatoes could be therapeutic,but it can,like the colouring books you teach yourself to focus on that and nothing else for a while.
