Today, believe it or not, I had quite a good day.
After a bit of a shaky start I went to work, did my stuff, came home, did the necessary things and a few extra little jobs then had a relaxing bath all without any serious upset. I even went to the stonemasons to see when the headstone would be engraved.
It really confuses and annoys me how I can be so down one day and a day or two later be managing OK. It makes it impossible to plan anything. I just don't know from one day to the next how things are going to be. I know there will be ups and downs but not when.
How much easier would things be if we started grieving at rock bottom and got a tiny bit better each day rather than it all being jumbled up.
Anyhow's that was my day. I'll still have my little bedtime cry of course but that is predictable.
Hope your all doing a little better today.