Hi my name is Shirley, I lost my three month old son to cardiac complications on 20/07/14, OK so I gave birth to my son two years ago on bank hol Monday and I thought I was doing 'fine' but today I've spent in bed crying and to be pretty frank thinking why I bothered carrying on! I have another son who's now 5, and I haven't been able to even hardly talk to him today... I feel terrible, my husband just makes me so mad when he tries to talk to me.
I'm not entirely sure how to get myself out of this hole I feel I'm in, I've had swings (ups and downs) since my son Passed but this feels so raw again. My baby boy was born with an undiagnosed heart defect, at two months I was rushed into A&E with him. I lived with him for a month at the hospital whilst he had operations and do on, then he died of a sudden cardiac arest one Sunday afternoon. The whole experience was hopefully the most horrific thing I will ever experience, I lost a lot of local mummy friends after too as some people found it to awful to even talk to me.
