Just poping back to say hello to friends I have never met but are there when I need them, it will be 7 years this year since my soul mate left this earth, I still miss her everyday and think about her constantly. I am in another relationship now with a lovely woman and count myself lucky she found me and saved me from a life of darkness and emptiness. The reason I am writing this is to show when the time was right I found another reason to go on living, and it can happen to anybody. The lovely people on this forum saved my sanity and encouraged me to go on when all I wanted to do was lay down and die. I come back every year about this time as its my weepy time, Carolyn died on the 23 of November nearly 7 ago so I like to stay close to the mothership at this time for support just knowing you are there. Its not been easy but I kept plodding on, blindly sometimes but in the early days the lovely people on here picked me up brushed me down and sent me off again. My heart goes out to all our members who have recently lost love ones, does it get better? for me I just manage the grief differently now, I know I will never get over it but I will do my very best to make amends in life whenever I can and try to be a better person.