Hi Hubby. I lost my Dad 3 weeks ago and my Mom lost her husband of 46 years... It is so hard and I totally get you... each day is filled with zero joy, just the huge loss... The feeling that we will never see them again. My Dad died suddenly. No time to say goodbye or a final I love you.... vanished. Like you, I feel dead, numb, my head is fuzzy, I cannot focus.
You will get through the funeral arrangements... you will get through the funeral/memorial etc. I did. I arranged the memorial and read the Eulogies and through some invisible strength I held it together for my Mom and my 12 year old son.
Now the real pain, loss and bereavement begins.... we do not want a life without him in it.... How do you continue feeling like this? I am sure you are asking the same questions......
Mornings and nights are the worst too.. yes.
I am sorry. I am in the same boat.