Six months since I lost mum and three weeks ago yesterday since I lost Harry my dog, I reached my lowest point yesterday and today I phoned cruse bereavement care, the lady on the phone is going to pass my details on to the group leader for the Newquay area ( she feels that group might be best for me) I’m feeling so lonely and I know I have support at work but I have nobody else outside, my brothers are no help at all and tbh I don’t want their help, they clearly don’t give a rats *ss about me. I’ve used alcohol the past couple of days just to numb the emotional pain, but a bottle of wine of an evening isn’t the best way to go about this. I cant swim at the moment because my feet have got worse ( I’m seeing the doctor next week as nothing is helping and they’re so sore I’m having to wear cushioned dressings so I can walk without pain)
I’m sorry this is such a dismal post a,d all me me me. I just don’t know how to go forward, I need help I took myself off out for the day yesterday but seeing other people with their families etc just reinforced the feeling of loneliness, I miss my mum and Harry so much, nothing else seems to matter