I’m new to this forum way of communicating so please bear with me.
I’m 40 years of age and a Paramedic who has just lost the love of my life to Cancer. She leaves our 2 children who are now 17. She died in my arms comfortably but i’m heartbroken and i can’t remember the good times, just haunted by the visions of her taking her last breaths with me stroking and kissing her. I can’t refocus on the good memories, i just hope it all comes back to me xx