I think you're right. When I made decisions, subconsciously I knew I had someone to turn to if it turned out not to be the right one. Now, it's just me, no one to talk it through with or to bail me out, no other opinion to balance mine so the pressure is greater. I'm impulsive, he was always calm and thought things through carefully before acting on anything. I do try and think, what would he say or do and that helps but some times I just don't know what he'd think particularly when it comes to decisions about what on earth I do now without him as this whole situation is not one either of us has faced before.