Hello Andrea - my sympathy to you. As Norma says, it's very early days for you. Everybody has a different experience when they lose half of themself but from conversations I've had with others in the same boat I've realised that we all have the same emotions but at different times. I'm almost 6 months down the line now and only just getting myself together. Give yourself time, be kind to yourself and don't be surprised at the bewildering feelings and emotions you'll go through. When you can, talk to people who truly understand what you're going through. It's painful but I believe it helps.