Hi Noelle -
Even when some-one is really ill it is still a huge shock to lose them, and even while others are around, you still feel alone.Its a wretched roller coaster of a journey and all of us are on it at different stages. I lost my husband 7 years ago, and even though i have found some peace with that,he is still part of my life everyday, and sometimes the lonliness still prevails, but finding this place back then was a lifeline. I think we learn to live with grief so it becomes much less overwhelming but always carry them with us. In the early days all we can really do is get through each hour and each day as it comes and be kind too yourself.
As well as talking about our grief here we do have an everyday chat section, and sometimes thats what we really need too, just to share that ordinary stuff -it helps with the lonliness, and along the way we do often find we have things other than our grief in common and so real friendships develop.