:hug:Hi and welcome. Dont worry about not being used too the site its easy once you find your way round and even if you did post something in the wrong section we could move it for you.
I think the first few months we often do seem to manage well - acombination perhaps of shock, it taking time to sink in,andbeing busy sorting all the paperwork and stuff out.As Emz says it is a roller coaster journey so you feeling worse now is not something you are alone in doing.Sometimes i think we try to look too far ahead,and that makes it even more difficult to see a way through -so take it one day at a time, it really is still early days yet - even though i know it doesnt feel like it.