Welcome Stephen.
I lost my husband 7 years ago and Emz is right Februry is very early days.Bereavement counselling helped me so hopefully it will you too,and its refreshing to hear friends and familly are saying take a day at a time as often they dont understand and make some very unhelpful comments instead, they are right,and it is a roller coaster of a journey -sometimes you find the carriage feels like its rolling back down the hill you just climbed, but the drops are not so steep and it happens less further along the way.
I did find being here a life-saver -not just somwhere to talk (write) about your grief -but also as a kind of extended familly -we are all strangers with one thing in common when we come here,and we support each other, but we also find there are other things in common, and the world feels just a little less lonely, -which is why we have an everyday chat section -because sometimes what we miss, as well as the big stuff of course, is the moments we would turn to say something -tell some-one what happened at work whats for tea, what film you saw and when no one is there that increases the hurt and solitude.