Hi Dawn
I'm so sorry to hear what has happened to you. I lost my husband 14 weeks ago, I woke up to find he'd died in the night completely unexpected, he was 50. The shock is so horrific and I recognise the feelings you describe. I felt numb, desperate for him to come home and completely lost. However, as the weeks have passed, the moments of feeling completely and constantly suffocated by grief have eased and more recently I seem to be able to manage a little better each time the waves of grief come. I guess it's just a time thing. It's all something we never expect to have to deal with and feelings we've never experienced or indeed want to. Hang in there, take all the help offered and be kind to yourself. Kim X