Hi Claire
So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner of 10 years to cancer too. He died on New years eve last year so its still pretty raw for me too. I hope you have friends/family around to help as you will need them and take any help that is offered. You will be feeling numb at the moment and everything will come in waves. It does help to know that there are others who share your feelings and understand. It is very difficult to adjust after losing ones partner to an illness, one minute its hospital appointments, home visits, everyones there. You are trying to care for them, thats stressful, getting them to eat and making sure they have everything they need and are cared for. I feel for you but try to take each day as it comes, don't fight the emotions, they will win. Take each hour or even minute as it comes.
People on here understand your pain and it can be a comfort to know that even when your heart is broken.
Sending you peace of mind if I could. Please take care.
Pam