Hi Pambo
So sorry you have to go through this, there's no rule book, no instructions and no time limit. It can help just knowing that you can vent and no one is going to judge. Most of us are in the same boat just at different points. Ten weeks for me and I am definately struggling this week after thinking I was getting a bit better. It will come in waves, if it helps just write, anything even if it only makes sense to you.
Wishing you peace tranquility and strength.
Pam