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Name: Jo
E-mail address: zppymonkey@aol.com
Comments:I lost my partner on Sunday, Dec 1st, 2013 between 0022 and 0900. 10 days, and I know it hasn't begun.
I'll miss you to my core, Horse. My spirit and my soul with cry for your loss, even though I know you have the one thing you needed more than anything. Peace.
Many love you, more than you could no. On 01/12/2013 (your 44th birthday), you were taken by an ulcer. An ulcer. You battled 20 years and more to be taken by an ulcer. You wouldn't have approved. No flashing wheels of light (or maybe there were, I think I hope), regardless, my life will be less without you. I will go on as I can.
I love you, D.
I always will.

Goodnight and be blessed xxxx
Wednesday, December 11th 2013 - 06:57:59 PM
Name: kerry harding
E-mail address: neilharding91@talktalk.net
Comments:I first lost my sister now I have lost my brother I don't think I can go on I miss u so much it hurts.I cant sleep I think of you all the time its my brothers inquest in a weeks time.The pains gets worse not better.They say times a healer I don't think so.When does it get better?
Sunday, November 10th 2013 - 10:42:56 PM
Name: kerry
E-mail address: neilharding91@talktalk.net
Sunday, November 10th 2013 - 10:34:55 PM
Name: paul oshea
E-mail address: pauloshea66@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:hi i lost my son september 3 2013 really missing him
Tuesday, November 5th 2013 - 12:11:10 AM
Name: Paulo defreitas
Comments:My mother died today 19th October 2013 at 10:20am in Madeira Island main hospital. She have been battling with pancreatic cancer for 2 years which was unknown to us until her last 30 days of live . I went there for 8 days to see her at the hospital and I spent all those days at the hospital by her bedside from 12pm till 10pm.Now I have been back for about 1 week and I can't afford to get back for her funeral but I don't want to go because all of those people that never gave a 'damn' about her life. Mum, I love you very much wherever you are, wherever you go!!!I saw you suffer for most of my 38 years of age: poverty, beatings,ilness etc All of this because you stood by my alcoholic psychotic father and you left six of us (sons and daughters) ALL LOOKING FOR LOVE WHEREVER WE GO! GOD BELSS YOU MUM,YOU HAD THE KINDEST HEART AND YOU NEVER SPOKE BAD ABOUT ANYBODY!I LOVE YOU FOREVER!Paulo
Saturday, October 19th 2013 - 09:30:33 PM
Name: chloe
Comments:17th February 2012.. the day I lost you nan:( you were one in a million and I will never forget everything you did for me! You were a nan, mum, dad and the greatest friend anyone could have wished for. I love you with all my heart I hope your enjoying yourself up there! Good night and god bless.. never say goodbye its merely see you later.. because one day I will see you again:) love you and miss you x
Tuesday, September 17th 2013 - 12:54:56 PM
Name: Lynne
E-mail address: lynne.bate@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:After a long battle with cancer ..my husband Colin passed away on the 7th July 2013. Words cannot express the loss i feel...there are just no words.
Saturday, August 10th 2013 - 02:19:01 AM
Name: lolli
Comments:For my dad Barry, suddenly gone 5 weeks ago.
Ours is a greif that can't be spoken, and our pain will go on and on. I'll miss you every day Daddy, all my love.
Tuesday, August 6th 2013 - 07:51:21 PM
Name: sandra gill
E-mail address: littlelemondrops@virginmedia.com
Comments:Well not sure I can say a lot at the moment, my husband was buried 15 jan 20013 it would hae been his birthday that day.

My regards go out to you all who are grieing also.


Saturday, January 26th 2013 - 10:56:00 PM
Name: Beth
E-mail address: bill.beth@ntlworld.com
Monday, October 15th 2012 - 09:26:24 PM
Name: kirstie edwards
E-mail address: kirstie.123@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:my darling husband sean, so quickly taken from me on 05/08/12.
Not a minute goes by when i dont think of you i love you with all my heart and will never forget you my munchkin man. Life is so strange without you. I think it is finally hitting me that you have gone and left me. I dont know were to turn. I just want you back if only for 5 minutes for a one last luv.
I love you with all my heart today, tomorrow and always
your loving and lonely wife kirstie xxxxx

I will try and make you proud with everything i do.
Till we meet again my darling sleep tight my special angel xxxxxx
Friday, September 14th 2012 - 12:31:18 AM
Name: Stephen
E-mail address: s.linsey@ntlworld.com
Comments:My loverly wife Susan (30 June 49 - 12 May 12) miss you so honey together for 41 years, my 'Best Friend, My true love. Though think and thin, troubles and lifes triels. You was always there.
One day we will be togeather agin. Till then spleep well and watch over me.
Stephen
Tuesday, September 11th 2012 - 04:10:26 PM
Name: Hayley
E-mail address: leatherlands@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:To my darling husband, Rob.
Words can never express the horror of you being taken away from us, my heart is broken without you, you were gone within a flash & all my body can do right now is breath, i feel like my world has stopped without you in it & cannot wait for the day when we are together again, the one & only love of my life who was taken so soon, without warning, i will miss you every day & will love you for eternity, yours forever xxxxxxx
Wednesday, August 15th 2012 - 08:37:42 PM
Name: Alan
E-mail address: 2m0txy@gmail.com
Comments:Mum, I am so sorry that I left you for a few hours to get some rest. I know that you were scared but the medical staff assured me that you were doing ok and that we should get some rest while we could. If I had known that you only had a few hours I would never have left you, I would have been happy to see you into the afterlife and reunited with Dad. I will forever regret not staying with you and listening to the medical staff, you knew what was happening and I should have listened to you and ignored the rest, you always knew best.

Please forgive me, I was only doing what I thought best with the information I had at the time. I would have never left you alone when you needed me most if I had known.

I will love you always and forever,

Alan.
Monday, August 13th 2012 - 03:37:34 AM
Name: mandypoppy
E-mail address: Mandypoppy
Comments:My dad you were here them gone so suddenly. My life has changed so much since you went. I treasure the time that I spent with you when we found out you were dying. We were all so shocked, and then you were gone three days later. I feel lost without you dad I want to be strong for you but I am really struggling. I don't know what to do without you. I feel like I have lost my mum since you went too. She is doing her own thing - I know she misses you but it's hard dad. I miss you so much I wish I could be with you now x
Paul smith 1/9/45 -16/5/2012
Tuesday, August 7th 2012 - 10:10:02 AM
Name: linda
E-mail address: lindamanson58@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:oh l wish l had found this site before, my wonderful husband clive died of cancer 6th june 2010. I was married 34 years and the pain is still unbearable but l know he is waiting for when we will be together again, his dying words were l;ll walk halfway round the moon and wait for you there.
Tuesday, June 12th 2012 - 09:46:32 PM
Name: dwayne
Wednesday, June 6th 2012 - 04:16:49 PM
Name: Anon1988
E-mail address: Anon19881
Comments:Andy,we miss you.

You were taken too suddenly.
I can never adjust to you not being here, we love u so much,our lives are so dark without u,

Please look after Mum.
Our sunshine, Andy. Come back .
Please,
JCB
Sunday, March 18th 2012 - 02:56:52 AM
Name: Deanne Asamoah "D.D"
E-mail address: kyla-asa@hotmail.com
Comments:To my little sister, u wer just 13 when u died right next to as I was doing my hair with mum, we thought u wer just sleeping but u didn’t wake up, ever!! They tried to bring u back but it was too late!! U wer gone, I cant bare not having u here we wer meant to do so much now u wud be 18, but Ur not here wiv me I’m on my own now sis but mums wiv u now.
I love all of u mum sister my nanny my aunty and my uncle R.I.P I will see u all one day!
Friday, March 16th 2012 - 12:04:11 AM
Name: Trudy pearl mackenzie
E-mail address: kyla-asa@hotmail.com
Comments:My mum oh how I miss u, my best friend! U struggled 9yrs to fight off the cancer that slowly destroyed Ur body, I watch u change over the years, and slowly become so strange I can barely believe my eyes.
You fort hard all them years for Ur kids and I thank u for dat mum, because I no u where in so much pain all day everyday and all of the op u had u where so brave!

I am so blessed to have had such a special, strong, and selfless MUM, I miss every moment of everyday since u went to heaven, u went wiv such dignity and peace.
I love u mum and miss u I want u back so much!!!!
Thursday, March 15th 2012 - 11:51:42 PM
Name: Audrey
E-mail address: roauraro@aol.com
Comments:Honeybunch, we spoke in the wee small hours about your night out, you told me to have a wonderful birthday and that you loved me very, very, very much, and that you would catch up on me later on my birthday, Good Night mum you said as you went up the stairs in the early hours of my birthday, you were upset, your boyfriend had cheated on you for the umpteenth time, I spoke to you on my birthday twice and you were tired but fine, so you decided to have a long lie in, but God wanted you as one of his angels and you went to sleep that afternoon never to waken up again, you passed away - 'Adult Cot Death' - they said to us, you died on my birthday and took my heart with you that day, it was the 22nd July 2011, I saw you lying there with tubes everywhere, they obviously thought that they could revive you, but by then you had become one of God's Angels, touch their hearts and leave an impact the way that you did for everybody here, God obviously thought it was your time, you were only 18 years of age, just beginning out in life, starting to spread your wings, your sister Rachel cant talk about you, Dad and I find it painful to look at your picture, we just wait on you walking tnrough the door, I know that you will make a wonderful angel for God and his family in Heaven, you have a heart of gold, a heart that was too large for your body, your body lived inside of your heart instead of your heart living inside of your body, We Luv You Baby Girl, you gave us 18 wonderful years of happiness, some days we shall never forget. Wait for me my darling honeybunch, till the day that we meet again, God Bless My Darling Rowena, Muah, Mum xxx
Saturday, March 3rd 2012 - 07:57:16 AM
Name: Lauren
Comments:I can't believe that my nan has gone, only been a few weeks and the funeral is on Tuesday. Not quite sure what to expect; only been to 1 cremation and that was my dad's cousin, didn't even know him & Grandad's was when I was 4 and dad didn't let me go. I hope that she's happy and safe where she is and for Grandad to look after her wherever they are. Nan's husband, my other grandad, is still alive and he is devastated and my mom is crushed from the loss of her mother. I want to send my love to all who knew my nan. xx
Saturday, December 3rd 2011 - 08:21:33 PM
Name: Dawn
Comments:Only just found this site, lost my best friend,husband and soulmate in a motorbike accident hit by a lorry died instantly on June 2011. Miss him like crazy, cry and talk to him every day, best thing since sliced bread he always used to say. Feel so alone and empty but carry on for our son and work.When can i wake up from this nightmare? Is there any light at the end of the tunnel?
Tuesday, November 22nd 2011 - 08:48:54 PM
Name: Rachelle
Comments:My dearest darling Dave we were meant to be together forever now I`m here alone, I want to thank you for all the years we had together and for all the wonderful memories we made, I so wish I could have one more day with you but I know that would`nt be enough, On the 16th Feb2011 my whole life changed for the worse, It was the day he decided it was time for you to go with him, I just just hope he can see what he has done to me as I`m broken darling and miss you with every part of my body, Please be waiting for me darling when its my turn, I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER XXXXX
Thursday, October 27th 2011 - 04:49:45 PM
Name: Julie Haime
E-mail address: juliebrookhouse@hotmail.com
Comments:Dear son you left my side on march 30th 2011, that day will be etched in my mind forever, I can remember the day you were born, the love I felt was powerful, that love will remain with me forever, I will never forget you son, Love you loads Mum xxxxxx

P.S Thanks to everyone on this site for getting me through the tough times xxx
Wednesday, October 26th 2011 - 09:09:53 AM
Name: Charmaine Bode
E-mail address: charmainebode@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:My wonderful boyfriend, so troubled and so alone. Although you were not alone, you were surrounded by those who loved you and yet you didn't think to turn to anyone, you decided to sleep forever. I thank you every day for being the one you said goodbye to, the one you told you loved and the fact that you called me your angel. You took your own life far too young, you had a future that you planned with me. It may not have worked but I was willing to try. I wish I could have cured what was in your mind, to be your saviour. Save a bar stool up in heaven for me baby boy. Love you forever and miss you every day xxx
Austen Wilson 08.02.90 - 27.08.11
Monday, October 24th 2011 - 11:10:22 PM
Name: Sonia
E-mail address: sdefreitas@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:My beautiful teenage son went to heaven, aged 16 on the 1/1/11 after fighting cancer on and off since he was 2. I struggle every second of every day to understand and i get angry at people who disregard their gift of live. My son loved life more than anything, yet he could stay on this earth. I know this feeling of anguish will never leave me, but i hope one day i can laugh without feeling guilty. My son was my life and my 3 poor girls have now got an incomplete mum. Pedro, mummy loves you so much!!!
Wednesday, October 12th 2011 - 09:34:46 PM
Name: jen
E-mail address: jenthejedi@wimple.zzn.com
Comments:My mum passed away suddenly on 1st June 2011, due to her doctor misdiagnosing a heart condition with a Vitamin deficiency! I just can't get over it- i'm told time heals but it feels as bad today as it did 4 months ago. I'm trying to be strong for my dad but struggle daily. I miss talking to her, shopping with her, spending time with her- i just miss her, i miss her. my heart is broken. I can't imagine spending the rest of my life without her. everythings a reminder, a memory. i'd love to chat to anyone grieving like me; maybe we could help each other through it! xx
Sunday, October 9th 2011 - 11:06:06 PM
Name: Lisa Hogg
E-mail address: lisamhogg@fsmail.net
Comments:Dad, It's been a month now since you happily went to bed and to sleep, none of us ever realising you would not wake up again. We miss you SO very much it hurts and the reality is - it does not seem like reality. You were taken too soon (64yrs), you had so much you still wanted to do and see, hope and dreams. Samuel misses you terribly, you were an inspirational Grandad and a loving and supportive Dad. Please be happy and to quote your last words "Be Lucky" Dad + I love you and miss you more than I ever thought would be possible xx
Tuesday, September 27th 2011 - 12:51:20 PM
Name: Janine
E-mail address: nenec@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:My beloved nan passed away 3 weeks ago. She practically raised me so I feel like I have lost my mother/nanny/friend all in one. Can't sleep, I keep having panic attacks. I miss her terribly...what do I do now?
Saturday, September 24th 2011 - 01:51:40 AM
Name: SammiBear
E-mail address: samjbates@hotmail.com
Comments:I was the girl
Who loved the wooden mouse
I was the girl
That shared your house
You were the man
I turned to in need
You were the man
I wanted to please
We lost, we found
Made up
Made ground
And somehow you went too soon
And I'm all at sea
I just know that you
Are not there
That you have moved on
To that place with no name
You are confused too
All will be cool
Like they said in your time
And mine
I LOVE YOU
Saturday, July 2nd 2011 - 10:47:02 PM
Name: DARLENE GRANT
E-mail address: dgrant518@yahoo.com
Comments:COURTNEY DARSHAE FERRELL
BORN: NOVEMBER 2, 1990
PASSED: DECEMBER 27, 2008.
Thursday, June 16th 2011 - 05:20:11 PM
Name: colette
E-mail address: colette@colette62.fsnet.co.uk
Comments:my dream is to wake up from this nightmare
Sunday, May 29th 2011 - 10:12:39 PM
Name: Colette Cresswell
E-mail address: redgirl10@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I have only just found this web site, so I can't comment on anything. I lost me wonderful Husband just 17 weeks ago, it was so sudden that it shocked even the paramedics. My life has changed so suddenly and I feel so lost and alone. I have a wonderful family and we have a beautiful little Grandson, but they have no idea of the pain I am in. We all grieve differently, so I don't know what anyone else who has lost their Husband or Wife is feeling, we all love differently too. I know that I adore my Husband and I know that he adored me, he told me. I don't want to go and see a councillor, I would, however, like to talk to Women who are going through the same as me, maybe not to talk to, but just knowing that you are there may help with the depression and lonliness.
Thanks.
Tuesday, March 22nd 2011 - 02:24:38 AM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: ctermeulen@peacemail.com
Comments:To everyone who has participated in this site, thank you. My husband, Winifred ter Meulen, has been dead for three years now and I first found this site when I was looking for him on the internet because I couldn't believe he was gone (grief makes you a little crazy). It was a comfort to be able to express my feelings but also to see how many other people were suffering in the same way, that I was not alone.
I want to tell everyone that it does get easier as time moves along, you don't forget and you don't have moments of extreme grief but it is best to focus on the fun and good times with the one you have lost. Blessings and comfort to you.
Friday, March 18th 2011 - 05:32:55 PM
Name: Martine
E-mail address: martinekoten@hotmail.com
Comments:Daddy its reaching the 1st year anniversary of your passing, I miss you more and more each day so much so that it hurts me....I dont know how I am going to get through the rest of my life without you? You were only 62 why is life so cruel? I do know that where ever you are, your now happy and free from all pain. We all miss you so much - Layla is such a big girl now, and Baby K number 2 will be here in a few weeks.... never did we think you would not be here to celebrate Gav and Gemma special time, next Sunday is going to be SO hard, but I will get through it.
I miss you love your Me Me x
Friday, March 4th 2011 - 02:24:31 PM
Name: paula
E-mail address: pdavis25177@live.co.uk
Comments:missing mum very much taken too soon and suddden,life is never going to be the same again.lost my mum jan 8th 2011.i cant imagine life without my mum.the pain is unreal
Sunday, February 6th 2011 - 01:20:00 PM
Name: paula
E-mail address: pdavis25177@live.co.uk
Comments:i lost my mum 8th jan 2011,life is so cruel right now.im missing my mum very much she were just 52 taken so sudden and tragicly.the pain is unreal im so ssd.i want to call her like i did every day.
Sunday, February 6th 2011 - 01:15:55 PM
Name: paula
E-mail address: pdavis25177@live.co.uk
Comments:very warm and comforting
Sunday, February 6th 2011 - 01:11:05 PM
Name: chuckles
Comments:I lost my mum on the 9th June 2007. I never had a chance to speak to her she was ventilated and in intensive care for a month where i spent every day with her holding her hand begging, pleading, praying for her to get better. There is still not a day goes by when I do not cry and miss her. She loved her family and christmas she believed in god and believed that she would see her mum and dad and my baby brother again. I wish I could talk to her hear her voice have her call me on the phone and hear the rustleing on my mobile because she had caught the buttons of her mobile and called out. I LOVE YOU MAM I WANT YOU HERE but That cant be so will cry every day and miss you every day and hope that we will see each other again xxx
Monday, January 31st 2011 - 12:38:07 AM
Name: sandra
E-mail address: lckhrtsndr@aol.com
Comments:yet again this time of year brings much sadness. 3 years ago my famliys greiving began. tomorrow i will be yet again remembering and celebrating someone dear. please give me the strength to deal with yet another very sad and dark day.
Thursday, January 6th 2011 - 12:00:39 AM
Name: Audrey
E-mail address: audreysim@iol.ie
Monday, January 3rd 2011 - 11:01:59 PM
Name: Debbie
E-mail address: debbiesmith81@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:my name is Debbie I was five months pregnant with our son Xavier he was born on the 29th nov 2010 and died on the 29th nov 2010, i have asked many questions on why this has happened and why he took our son from us so early, and i didnt get an answer on any, maybe our son was to special for this world, god had better plains for our son, everyday is a struggle but everyday i get stronger , nothing can describe how empty i feel inside , and how empty my arms feel not holding my child, being pregnant is ment to be the most amazing thing that god gave to a women but he can so easily take that back when he feels, but now he is in the arms of an angel and one day i shall be reunited with my son, he is dearly loved still and very much missed R.I.P Xavier love mummy and daddy and ur sisters and brothers xxxxxxxx
Monday, December 20th 2010 - 07:28:56 PM
Name: Asha james
E-mail address: Ashjames@hotmail.com
Comments:It was my Dads birthday on the 8th December.
I feel so down especially during this time,as my dad was in hospital 4 days after his birthday.
I can't enjoy Christmas just like a lot of people who do, it's just full of sad memories, being in and out of hospital until the 5th of February, as my dad died of lung cancer.
I miss you Dad so much, your energy strength and courage you've given me, keeps me going and I feel stronger.
Love Asha
Saturday, December 11th 2010 - 02:58:16 AM
Name: Angie
E-mail address: angiebyrne@ymail.com
Comments:My beloved Bill who passed on October 19th 2010 at 12.22am after an 8 month fight with bowel cancer. You stayed strong and positive throughout, we never spoke of what might be, but you never gave up, even up to the night before you was sitting up and laughing and joking with the family. Our 3 children and our grandsons you will always be with us, watching over us and guiding us through life. You went so young at 48, I miss you so much which I cannot put into words, but I know you hear me every day. Godbless my soul mate, our love will grow stronger every day xxx
Friday, December 10th 2010 - 04:11:55 AM
Name: carol
E-mail address: belch842@aol.com
Comments:i lost my best friend my soul mate my husband on 5/3/20002i never felt so lost with out you del my world just so a mess you was only 57 i know you out off pain and that i should be happy for that but i just wish my heart was not borken i miss you so much it hurt's keep looking over me love love you alway
Wednesday, December 8th 2010 - 04:53:21 PM
Name: Amanda
E-mail address: croydesurfchick@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:In loving memory of my mother "Zoe" who passed to spirit 30-08-09 afer a 13 year battle with breast cancer, aged 63. She was an inspiration to all who met her. Glad your suffering is over for you but I miss you more each day. Forever in my heart. Love never dies.

Love Manda
x
Sunday, October 10th 2010 - 01:04:00 AM
Name: Elaine
E-mail address: elaine1505@btinternet.com
Comments:To my partner Mark, my soulmate who was taken away in August this year, he was knocked down by a car and died instantly. I miss him so much. I do not know how to carry on without him. We had amazing plans for the future and they have been taken away so suddenly with no warning. I love you so very very much Mark. All my love Elaine xxx
Friday, September 17th 2010 - 07:03:26 PM
Name: Chrissy
Comments:My beautiful, strong, amazing and wonderful mum has gone I have lost the person who gave me everything, my best friend, we lived together, we laughed together, we watched life together, we loved together and now I am empty without her.
I miss you always
I need you always
I love you always
Big hug mummy
Always xxxxxx
Saturday, August 21st 2010 - 07:17:28 PM
Name: amanda
E-mail address: catpinkshop
Comments:for dad...who died on 24/10/2007and for olwen who died on 16/8/2010 and for faye who took her life in devastating circumstances on 03/08/2010 and died on 16/08/2010...my heart is with you all...i pray for you all,my pain for faye is raw as so sudden xx
Saturday, August 21st 2010 - 04:55:05 AM
Name: Natasha aged 19
Comments:In loving memory of my darling little sister Sophie aged 15 who never woke from her sleep. You were never without a smile on your face. You were a picture of health, taken so suddenly from us that sunday morning and still we have no reason why. Never did I think you wouldn't be here with me Sophie, its been four week and each day just seems to be getting harder. I cant describe how much my heart breaks for you and how life just isn't the same without you. I know we use to fight and argue but I just need you to know that I love you more than anything in the world. I would give everything I have just for one last moment with you, just to make sure that that night you didnt go to sleep, so that you would still be here with us. I cant even go in our room Soph because I can feel that your not there. My heart breaks so much. I love you more than words can describe and always will. Sleep tight my angel x x x
Sunday, June 6th 2010 - 05:59:09 PM
Name: Jane
E-mail address: jane.mala@yahoo.com
Comments:In memory of my dear mum who passed away with cancer last year. I'll never forget you Mum. Thank you for being my mum. You will always be my mum. I love you very much. I wish I could see you and hear your voice again. I miss you. God bless you. With hugs and kisses and lots of love from your daughter Jane. XXX OOO
Saturday, May 8th 2010 - 04:23:26 PM
Name: Hannah
Comments:In memory of a wonderful father.
I miss you a little, i guess you could say,
a little too much
a little too often
and a little more each day.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Saturday, May 1st 2010 - 05:20:06 PM
Name: Tasche Lewis
E-mail address: tasche.lewis@gmail.com
Comments:To my dear husband, Jon.. William will be 2 on Thursday. I can't believe you only had 2 christmases and 1 birthday together. He knows somehow that you're not coming home again and he's sooo difficult at the moment. I am struggling without you, your support and love. My mum tells me I'm still young and fortunate that I can start over again, but I didn't only commit myself to you for the duration of your life - also mine. I need you to know that I wait for your call everyday and it does not come. That I smell your skin, even in your absence. That I hear your humor and laughter, although it's not there. That I cannot believe that God could've created my perfect mate and tear him away from me so soon. I need you to know that however difficult I may have been at times, I loved and love you with my entire being. Your devastated wife and widow, Tasche
Monday, March 8th 2010 - 08:55:30 PM
Name: Kayleigh
Comments:Words cannot express how heartbroken i am right now. I lost my dear nana in october who meant the world to me and then in the early hours of saturday morning my lovely cousin was tragically killed in a car crash. He was only in my town for the scattering of my nanas ashes on the friday which got postponed due to bad weather. I had only been speaking to him 10 minutes beforehand, taken so young at 31 you were so happy and touched many lives as did nan. I hope your both up there with grandad, grandad ron and Ry's grandad bob. Miss you both so much, just hoping i can get through this xxxxx
Tuesday, March 2nd 2010 - 11:11:49 PM
Name: Asha James
E-mail address: asha.James@hotmail.com
Comments:I still find it hard to come to terms with the loss of my dad.It has been a year since I last signed this book.
My dad's birthday was on the 8th Dec and I always did give him a card,present. I can't believe that I can't do that anymore.
I miss him so much, having father daughter chats, listening to his advice.
I still have flash backs of the last moments my sister and Mum had with my dad. I don't want to have memories of my dad in this way, but it happens.
My only wish is that in the next life that I will be back together with my dad. Ashax a prayer to everyone.
Friday, February 26th 2010 - 12:28:13 AM
Name: Ryan Curtis, 18
Comments:My uncle Hal died on 2/03/10 he was 57 I had a special bond with him. Four summers ago, my dad sent me to live with hime for two weeks, he died 3 years ago on my mothers birthday July 13.He sent me in hope to change me into a better man.I was 14 and I was very rebelious this was life changing for me I will never forget it.It has only been two days but I'm starting to feel a little better because I know he's up there in heaven playing baseball with my dad.I love you Hal I'll never forget you.You wre my only true friend other than my dad.
Friday, February 5th 2010 - 04:05:58 PM
Name: Hana
Comments:My gorgeous little cousin, died so suddenly.
he was so tiny and so sweet.
i miss you every single day Michael
and i will miss you forever
goodnight baby boy
xx
Sunday, January 17th 2010 - 09:39:50 PM
Name: krystal
E-mail address: krystalgooch@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:hi ya people i have read all ur heart felt comments and al the lost you have all been through i have also lost important people from my life too i lost my niece suddenly due to suddden death of epilepsy jan 22nd she was only nine bless her my sweet little niece whos watching me form up above peacefully sleeping love you tilly xxxxx also lost my dear dad jul 22nd from a subaquiod brain hemmorage suddenly and i had a little boi this year which i was so gutted my baby son could not meet them both which is causing me with bad depresion at the moment im taking everyday one day at a time but its hard thinking what my dad and niece would of thought of my lovely baby boi and also gettin married next april and could not even get married in a church as i wanted my dad to give me away but he is not present on my big day just hope that my life can look a lil more bright for the future insted of all this doom and gloom xxxx
Wednesday, December 9th 2009 - 07:17:45 PM
Name: michelle hicks
Comments:i lost my precious little boy when i was three weeks from my due date,and i went for a scan and my poor little boy had passed away,stolen from me before i even got a chance to say hello.its been 10 months and every day my heart hurts.my little boy mikey was so perfect and ive got no answers of why he was took from me.all i know is the day he died a part of me died too, and i love him so much and i can never show him.my precious mikey sleep peacefully mummy loves you forever.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, November 30th 2009 - 02:43:11 PM
Name: Rachel
Comments:My father was tragically killed in a road accident on 04/10/09. He was travelling in his car with my mother on the way home having dropped me back to college when a jeep crossed onto their side of the road and caused a head on collision. My dad was killed instantly and my mother suffered a broken sternum and massive bruising to her lower body particularly. One of the hardest things to deal with, apart from the fact that my mother, brother and I have to live without dad, is the fact that both driver and passenger of the jeep fled the scene. It is said the driver of the jeep had been drunk. They were caught after 15 hours but failed to show any remorse. And to make things worse, the night after the accident my dads dog, Prince, was stolen. We were told 3 men with 2 pitbulls had been in the area skulking but we have heard nothing since. RIP daddy we are thinking of you always, and wherever you are, look out for poor Prince xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Friday, November 27th 2009 - 09:27:34 PM
Name: Anon
Comments:In loving memory of someone truly amazing, who had a long battle with cancer and sadly passed away mid November. We are all missing you lots, you were an inspiration to all
Monday, November 23rd 2009 - 07:15:54 PM
Name: david
E-mail address: collinson86@btinternet.com
Comments:Carol. my lovely wife of 43 years, died of cancer on 7th May 2009. She knew what was happening and asked to come home to die where she did in my arms. I love and miss hurt and hurt every day. She was a lovely, beautiful lady, elegant and nice, hard working and has a lovely smile. I miss her so.

'Oh for the touch of a vanished hand and the sound of a voice that is still'
Monday, November 2nd 2009 - 03:23:04 PM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: ctermeulen@peacemail.com
Comments:My husband Winifred ter Meulen died suddenly at 56 on January 26 2008, now on 14th October 2009 our border collie Jessie has had to be put down due to Lymphoma at 13 years and 9 months. Winifred used to weep at the thought of losing Jess, so at least he is spared this suffering. I have never felt so alone in my life now she has gone as well, it doesn't help when people say, "Well she had a long life", I knew time was running out for us but I am devastated. I am lucky to have three children from a previous marriage and two grandchildren I adore but living alone is hell!!
Tuesday, October 27th 2009 - 01:58:21 PM
Name: Suezie
E-mail address: mssuezie@yahoo.com
Comments:I have a feeling,

There will be one more Star up in the sky tonight.

And even though it's far away,

It will be the brightest & the warmest Star in flight.

~~~OUR ANGELS IN HEAVEN~~~

When somebody dies,

a cloud turns into an angel,

and flies up to tell God,

to put another flower on a pillow.

A bird gives the message back to the world,

& sings a silent prayer to make the rain cry.

People disappear,

but t...hey never really go away.

The spirits up there put the sun to bed,

wakes up grass,

and spins the earth in dizzy circles.

Sometimes you can see them,

dancing in a cloud during the day-time,

when they're supposed to be sleeping.

They paint the rainbows & the sunsets,

make waves splash and tug at the tide.

They toss shooting stars,

and listen to wishes.

And when they sing windsongs,

they whisper to us,

Don't miss me too much.

The view is nice and I'm doing just fine.

May the beauty of Precious Memories become Our comfort.
Sunday, October 18th 2009 - 08:03:58 PM
Name: Darlene Grant
E-mail address: dgrant518@yahoo.com
Comments:My daughter born 11/2/1990, and passed 12/27/2008, just turned 18 years old, and ready to celebrate the christmas holiday with family, once she hookup with friends she was on her way home, three blocks from home when a speeder hit and killed her while crossing the street in Miami, Florida.Her life was just starting, from attending college and graduating to become a juvenile judge, was her dream. Missing her dearly is so hard for a mother and siblings, noone could ever imagine the everyday pain, and constant hurt you have everyday, to keep strong and smiling only covers this temporarily sadness and pain, a mother's pain remain like this forever, what do you call a mother who lost a child, except a grieving mom, is the only title i come up with, so moms stay strong, and lean on yourself, because there is really noone that wants to hear our painful feelings and stories, for some reason, people become scare to approach us, can it be that scary, not knowing what to say to us moms, just continue to read poems from mothers like us, or start your own journal of letters to your lost ones. Read the dos and don't that you say to moms. Missing my baby forever, 2009
Wednesday, October 14th 2009 - 06:45:53 PM
Name: Jemma Chantelle Charlee
E-mail address: tellelacey1994@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:Dear Beloved,
I Tragicly Lost my grandad who was 70 and died of 4 different cancers.
RIP ur now with nan you willl neva be forgotten i lovee youu soo much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, October 12th 2009 - 12:55:07 PM
Name: Hannah
Comments:ill miss you forever my darling, the love i felt for you will always go on, i could never explain to you what a difference you made to my life, i am a better person because of you. Watching you go though the pain you went through... nearly ripped me apart, i didnt think id ever cope.But i know your still looking over me, always, my love. we will never truely be parted. ill see you again one day. in gods arms
i will love you forever
i miss you
Monday, September 28th 2009 - 10:01:47 PM
Name: DARLENE GRANT
E-mail address: dgrant518@yahoo.com
Comments:to sign dreambook, 2009
Monday, September 21st 2009 - 04:04:05 PM
Name: michelle
E-mail address: michelledawson5@gmail.com
Comments:my beautiful husband died a year and a half ago from cancer. He was 43. Thomas. Such a beautiful person.
We were only married 2 months when we were parted. I thought I was going to die the pain was so bad. Its so hard and the pain is still in my heart.

I miss you more now babe than ever. I love you. Always will. Rest with the angels my darling. I know you are with me. I just can't see you...

xxxx

Your Michelle.
Saturday, September 12th 2009 - 10:55:50 PM
Name: mr a
Comments:Be strong guys. Although im only 18, ive lost very close loved ones, my dad, cousin uncle on separate occasions, i would like to say that there is a light for all of us at the end of our tunnels, no matter how long they are

Light will always shine
Friday, August 21st 2009 - 01:43:51 AM
Name: john
E-mail address: johndoyle2008@aol.com
Comments:my darling pat im so sorry i still miss you every second of every day i love you more each second of every day i think of you nearly all the time of every day i hurt all the time every day because i love you so much after 38 years together its nearly a year now my patty and im still lost in sadness and grief as im alone without you my darling please remember me and love me every second of every day just as i remember and love you my darling wife pat. love you forever my special love JOHN xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, August 3rd 2009 - 02:41:15 PM
Name: Devon
E-mail address: xxx_sxc_minx_xxx@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my dad through to cancer oct 2007, it was a painful process to watch me and my older sister helped care for dad while he was unable to do anything, it was a tough time for both of us with our mom leaving us to deal with his death alone as she felt the need to f**k off and move to blackpool for another man. I was there when my dad passed and it was the happiest point for me because I knew he was finally in happiness. You are all very strong people for still being here and being able to live their memory on, I applaude all of you and we can all hope in time the pain heals because in the end, it can only make us stronger.
Monday, July 13th 2009 - 12:09:43 AM
Name: paul bright
E-mail address: brighty1960@aol.com
Comments:love you still my sweet pea
Wednesday, July 8th 2009 - 05:07:52 PM
Name: Sonya
E-mail address: mozza53@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:In memory of my beautiful Sister Kirsty Grabham who was murdered. Her husband is awaiting trial for her murder. Kirsty you were only 24 I am heartbroken now you are not here with us. My world stopped the day your heart stopped beating. I can still hear your little voice in my head calling my name. But you are not here I am devastated you are loved so much. Pink Princess beautiful dreamer xxxxxx
Tuesday, July 7th 2009 - 01:31:40 PM
Name: christy
E-mail address: steven.jones38@btopenworld.com
Comments:Miss you nana granda and aunty violet missing you every day i just wanted to say a realy big thankyou for looking after cameran and making sure he got to us safe and well he's very much like you grandad Thank you sooooo much xxxxxx Also flake our beloved dog and alice our cat miss you love always christy and camrean xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Saturday, June 27th 2009 - 04:27:14 AM
Name: christy
E-mail address: steven.jones38@btopenworld.com
Comments:To Alice my best friend who was there for me no matter what she would always come running when i called out her name she would always greet me with a kiss and a meow she would sleep in my bed with me in all weather's my girl was 1 week away from her 19th birthday when she snatched away from us by the f**king dog the night befor she died she lay next to my 3 week old baby boy and licked his hand she would lay in my arms and sleep for agaes.people say she was only a cat but to me she was much much more she was my rock my baby girl god i miss her so much. ALICE 14/05/91 to 07/05/09 love you for ever and always love you baby girl xxx lots of love christy and cameran xxxxx
Saturday, June 27th 2009 - 04:17:57 AM
Name: Asha James
E-mail address: asha.james69@googlemail.com
Comments:15.6.09


My died of cancer in February this year.
We found out that he had lung cancer in December, he had his 68th birthday on the 8th Dec,then was admitted on the 12th Dec.
At the time i was running my own business,and taking christmas orders.I wasn't in right frame of mind,and i just wanted to be with my Dad every minite of the day,but i was tied down to this business,i still went to see him no matter.
Now its Fathers day,and im feeling quite emotional at this time, as i would always visit my Dad without fail choose a special card.
My Dad was always over the moon when i visited him.I have my Mum now,who i feel so protective towards.
We should make the most of this life,with our families because time is short,and we should express how we feel and tell those close to us that we love them,and spend time together more often.
This wesite has helped me a lot, this is the third time ive signed.
Good luck to every one Asha
Monday, June 15th 2009 - 05:30:01 PM
Name: russ
E-mail address: s.software89@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:thanks iam really pleased i came across your website
Tuesday, May 26th 2009 - 10:03:17 PM
Name: Barry.
E-mail address: sonnyboy@ntlworld.com
Comments:Today is week 21 since my wife was taken from me after a three year battle against cancer. I am still counting the weeks and watching the clock every Friday. I really can't see a future for me, instead I am living just one day at a time. I'm told that things will get better, but I believe that time will only allow me to think of my wife without becoming emotional, and that time has not yet arrived.
Friday, May 15th 2009 - 09:50:11 PM
Name: lynda
Comments:I lost my mum suddenly 3 weeks ago, she died the day before her 46th birthday, i feel i will never get through this sad and lonely time, nice to see this page and to read all of your thoughts and to know im not alone at this time.

I cant believe your gone,
It just seems so unfair,
I will never forget,
How much you did for me,
And how much you cared,

My heart feels like its breaking,
My worlds been turned upside down,
Words just cant begin to express,
How much ill miss having you around,

Ill miss watching you dance,
To your favorite CD,
Ill miss all the Saturday,
Dinners you did for me,

I cant imagine life,
Without you in it,
MAM ill think about,
You every minute....
love always lynda
Thursday, May 14th 2009 - 10:36:51 PM
Name: Michelle
E-mail address: wba_2003@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my Mum 6 weeks ago and i miss her so much. She meant the world to me was such a happy go lucky person that lived life to the full. All i can do is take the strength she had and use it in a positve way to help me overcome my sadness.
Friday, May 8th 2009 - 11:48:52 AM
Name: sheniz
E-mail address: Shenizm@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my wonderful father on 19th Feb 2001 it was sudden.I have never got over it and I know I never will. They say time heals but all it does is make you cope better with the loss. Whenever I think of my father I always choke up and my eyes fill with tears the pain is evident and will always be constant. I will always love you dad rest in peace
your devoted daughter Sheniz
Thursday, May 7th 2009 - 12:16:12 AM
Name: Diane
E-mail address: WilsDragon@aol.com
Comments:I lost my mum on thursday 30th april at 3.30pm. I was with her at the time. im still in shock i think. she was 84 and her name was mary.
Monday, May 4th 2009 - 05:04:55 PM
Name: valerie rees
E-mail address: valerierees@msn.com
Comments:ive just lost my brother .im really raw at the moment ,will be back here soon xxxxxxxxxxxx
Thursday, April 30th 2009 - 07:12:23 AM
Name: Asha James
E-mail address: sales@inacrysta.com
Comments:27.4.09
The last time I signed in the Dream book was in March almost a month since my Dad died.Since then my sister and I have been doing our best to help my Mum with all the legal documents that follow.
I had so much anger in me at that time,when my Dad died but I will always have the pain,I would just want to try and keep my Dads memory alive.I would love to go on a Pilgrimage with my Mum some day,finding some peace.
We had so much help,support from family and friends,during this hard time which we are greatful for.Now after 3mths my sister and I have to organise the arms giving for the memory of my Dad,which is a Buddhist tradition we follow.
My dad had planned to go back home for a holiday with my Mum 2 weeks before he was admitted.I managed to go with my Mum last month where they have a house.
We didn't go for a holiday,but it so happened that my Dads home abroad was burgled the day after the funeral.What a shock that was for us,so I helped my Mum with all that to deal with when I was there.
Dad had so much pride about his house,the last room he had newly fitted was the 2nd bathroom,so he kept saying how he was looking forward to using it.
We took some of my Dads ashes in an urn with us back home,but we couldn't bear leaving him alone there so my Mums bringing them back with her, we may probably place them in an area of the garden with some lovely flowers,by a tree a peaceful place in the garden we can visit any time.My Dad loved his garden.
My wishes are with you all. Asha
Monday, April 27th 2009 - 05:30:09 PM
Name: kelly winterbottom
E-mail address: kellywinterbottom@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:in loveing memory of my dear grandma.

if i could have a single wish,
id visit heaven up above,
to see my special grandma
whom with all my heart i love.

you were always understanding
when i had lost my way,
and your kindness and your wisdom
are still with me everyday.

I'll miss you always and forever,
and when i see the stars that shine,
i'll think of my special grandma,
whom im proud to say was all mine.

Wednesday, April 15th 2009 - 05:15:17 PM
Name: LINDA
E-mail address: LGILLIE51@YAHOO.CO.UK
Comments:COME ACROSS THIS BEUTIFUL SITE BY ACCTDENT OR MAYBE I WAS GUIDED TO IT AS I AM FEELING VERY LOST AND ALONE BUT REALIZE LOOSING MY BEUTIFUL BRAVE HUSBAND TO CANCER MADE ME WANT TO STOP TN AND SCREEM THAT I WANT HIM BACK IT HURTS SO MUCH AND ITS LIKE A OPEN CUT .BUT TODAY I AM NOT ALONE AND HAVE TO REMEMBER YOU ALL WHEN I CANT SHAKE THIS DEPRESSION OFF.WHAT HEARTFELT MESSAGES THAT CO INCIDE WITH MINE AND DONT FEEL LONELY READIG THEM.THANK YOU FOR SUCH A WARM WELCOMING CARING SITE.I WILL VISIT YOU ALL OFTEN.XXXXXXXXXX
Wednesday, April 8th 2009 - 02:38:47 AM
Name: sandra
E-mail address: sandradeans@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:What a wonderful site, it has brought me great comfort having a memorial in the garden of tranquility for my mum.Thanks to the host for all the hard work put into this for the good of others.
Tuesday, April 7th 2009 - 07:11:09 PM
Name: Michele
E-mail address: michelebailey@tiscali.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://thedoggerelsbollocks.wordpress.com
Comments:I lost my husband Steve in August 2008. He had been ill with an undiagnosed gut problem that left him at the end unable to walk, sleep or do much without pain. He died of an arrythmia which I'm told he would have known nothing about. He died in bed next to me. The 15-20 minutes it took the ambulance/police to get to me were the longest and hardest in my life. Telling his parents and grandmother that their beautiful son had died was awful. He was and will remain my soul mate. The website was his blog. He was a very intelligent and talented man. He trained as a scientist, became a great gardener and when he felt his life was nearly over due to illness he took up writing poetry and doggerel. I'm plodding on but often with little enthusiasm. Reading the entries here has made me cry with recognition of the pain I myself feel. There are far too many of us suffering alone at home. At some point the rest of the world sees you as single and not widowed and grieving. I'm struggling to create a new life for myself. Steve would be desparately unhappy if I were to lose all interest and love of life. I know when I pass away I'll be going wherever he has gone but that is little comfort when you want to hug, smell and kiss them.
Saturday, March 21st 2009 - 03:48:50 PM
Name: Paul
Comments:Have just been to my mother in laws funeral today, she died on the 8th march 2009 age 67. The service was ok with some readings from my wifes family, very touching indeed and a lot of people attending which was nice too. Unlike a lot of people with their inlaws I got on with her very well, she was very much to the point, which was not unlike my mother, so I was used to mothers saying what they thought and in a way liked it that way, you never needed to ask if you had offended her because she would tell you before you had chance to ask.
In the week before she died, we visited her often and on the last day I told her she was a good mother in law and that I would miss her.
At the moment I feel cheated in that I feel I wanted to know her for longer than I was allowed.
Best Wishes to you all.
Wednesday, March 18th 2009 - 11:47:56 PM
Name: Elizabeth
E-mail address: cuppie-cake@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:My Uncle died last week and I am still struggling to cope with every day life. This is particularly difficult for me because as a university student it's the time of year where all the deadlines fall. I keep telling myself to 'be strong' and do well because he was nothing, if not a hard working professional. But it's not that easy. I find myself crying uncontrollably at the slightest trigger and getting very angry.. again over nothing in particular. I hate being on my own and constantly feel lonely and anxious, but at the same time I can't face big crowds of people. A normal student night out has turned into my worst nightmare and I would rather avoid people than let them see me like this. Today is my birthday. It doesn't feel like it though. I couldn't really feel less excited if I tried. If anything, I feel worse than a normal day. I don't feel like celebrating or doing anything remotely fun. All I feel like doing is being on my own and crying. I can't believe my Uncle died - especially seeing as he only went into hospital with a broken leg but contracted pneumonia. Sometimes I think hospitals do more damage to people than good. I know he was old and ill (he had parkinsons too) but he didn't deserve to die yet. I worry about my Aunty and my Grandmother (his sister) as they will feel the effects the most. My Grandmother lost her husband only a few years ago and I remember how hard it was for her to get through that, so I can't imagine how much worse it must feel to loose her brother on top of everything. She is quite a private person and it's often hard to support her because she always wants to put on a 'brave face' and I have only every heard her crying once in my whole life. I'm worried about the funeral in a couple of day's time because I'm useless at things like that. Instead of being there for my family I'll probably be crying and not talking an awful lot.
Monday, March 16th 2009 - 10:12:33 AM
Name: Emma Hall
E-mail address: e.hall693@btinternet.com
Comments:Loosing my brother-in-law to cancer on the 14th of January 2007 was one of the hardest things I have ever endured. Until my beautiful Sister Julie (his wife) died exactly 11 weeks later on the 1st of April also of cancer. The pain of loosing my big sister was immense I didn’t think I would ever get over loosing them. I helped her older children through the worst of it & became legal guardian to her youngest one. It took me a long time to start the grieving process, organising 2 funerals, looking after her children and my husband and work let me escape from reality. But eventually it did catch up with me & I was finally starting to come to terms with it and was able to talk about the good times and bad without ending up in tears.
Then the ultimate hammer blow happened. My mam suddenly passed away on the 26th of February 2009. She was my mam my best friend my nurse & my confider with never having a father she was everything, I told her things I have never told another living soul. She might have been 72 years old & some insensitive people can say she had had a good innings. She hadn’t! She had angina from the age of 38 after getting pregnant with me, for the last 9 years she has been wheelchair bound riddled with osteoarthritis. I miss her so much I know that when our ju died that took all of her will to live. & I know that she is with her beautiful daughter but I want her to be here with me im the baby of the family I need her more than anything. I miss her smile, her smell her floppy ear lobes that I always played with as a child. The way she got me & my sister mixed up & called me lemma (a mixture of Lynn & Emma). & again I have to be the strong one organising the funeral & sorting out her estate, believe it or not I have got 2 older sisters that should be doing this but hey I guess it’s down to me again. What I really want to do is lock the door and crawl into a corner & be left in peace just for a little while to let me deal with my loss in my own way and do not have to be strong for others. Three deaths in 22 months is about as much as any one can take.

Im sorry for going on & im so sorry for sounding angry especially towards Mam I know I shouldn’t be but just at this moment I am so mad with her for leaving me. Selfish I know but she knows I don’t mean it

Thanks again for listening

Emma

13/03/09 6.34pm
Friday, March 13th 2009 - 07:44:29 PM
Name: julie, maureen, kathy
E-mail address: bowbub@hotmail.uk.co
Comments:To our dearest pat (our sister) its nearly ayear now. We never knew how much we loved you, until you were gone. What pain......thankyou so much for being part of our family. We miss you so much, but you know, dont you kid. you are truly one special lady and we will always love you for always and forever. keep watch and shine brightly.
Tuesday, March 10th 2009 - 04:30:55 PM
Name: ian
E-mail address: ian.harmer@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:My darling wife Wendy and I met on 23rd October 1999, both having previously been unlucky in love. Both of us were deserted by our partners,in her case leaving her with an 18 month old son and a 6 week old daughter. She spent the next 18 years working at 2 and sometimes 3 part time jobs to make sure that they never went without and that their home was a place of fun and happiness. She even managed to buy them both their first cars when they got to seventeen years of age !
They went on to make her so proud by her son becoming a police officer and her daughter graduating from university with a B.A.Hons.
By the time I met Wendy the kids were 20 and 22 so not really kids anymore. We met through a lonely hearts column in a local paper, and we hit it off straight away. It was as if we had known each other all our lives. Were truly made for each other and destiny had at last brought us together.
The shadow of cancer entered our lives the day before her 52nd birthday on 17th January 2005. I remember the consultant taking us into a side room and saying 'I'm afraid it's not the news you want to hear'. The rollercoaster ride had begun. She underwent surgery, radiotherapy and chemotherapy and it seemed for a while as if she had beaten it. 2006 was a good year for us and apart from regular check ups, hospital free.
On 21st October that year we marrried and it was the happiest day of our lives. Our happiness was to be shortlived as early in 2007 we were told that the cancer had come back again in the breast. Further surgery followed and more chemotherapy, with the added complication that during the surgery her arm became paralysed and would remain so for nearly 6 months. Again the cancer appeared to shrink but in 2008 we were told it was back for a 3rd time and this time in the lung as well. Wendy bravely started her 3rd regime of chemo and although in constant discomfort from previous surgery put up with all that was thrown at her. She never wallowed in self pity and never said 'why me'. She just carried on with the most amazing courage. A few months ago whilst at home, she started to have trouble finding words and constructing sentences. We returned to the hospital to be told that the cancer had spread to her brain. She said to the Doctor,' I take it I'm not going to make old bones then?' and she replied 'I'm sorry but probably not'.
She underwent whole brain radiotherapy in an attempt to shrink the tumours and initially thinks looked successful.
On 17th November this year, she was suffering a lot of back pain and thinking the cancer may have spread to her spine we returned for further tests. Although CT scans showed nothing sinister she was in a lot of pain so was admitted to hospital for pain relief. We were not to know that Wendy would never leave the hospital again. The cancer had travelled to the lining of her brain and although she was able to talk to us off and on as she slipped in and out of drug induced sleep, she slowly became more and more paralysed and more and more sleepy.
After the Sunday night she slipped into a deeper sleep and did not move again.
On the Wednesday night as the kids and I sat in the room with her, I noticed a change in her breathing and called the nurse who said 'It won't be long now'. I told the kids to hold her hands and I took her in my arms and told her how much I loved her and how much she was loved by so many people. I told her that she had fought long and hard enough and it was OK to let go, but inside I was screaming for her not to leave me.
As I watched her she took two or three gentle gasps and then she stopped breathing. At that moment my whole world fell apart and I haven't been able to cope since.
I have so many doubts and worries.....did she hear me telling her I loved her as she slipped away ? Is she now with her loved ones ? Will I ever see her again? Is she really close to me or am I just trying to fool myself ?
At her funeral on the 8th December 225 people attended to say goodbye to my darling wife. She touched so many people in her life and was such a good person. Why did she have to suffer like this ? I just can't reconcile myself with the thought that there is a benevolent God when He can make such a good person suffer like this.
Sorry I have rambled on for so long but I just needed to get this down to try and make some sense of it all and to try and find a way to stop my tears and this feeling of pain inside.
Please stay close to me my darling, give me your strength and courage to carry on and please help me to come to terms with being without you. I miss holding your hand and stroking your beautiful face. I miss your lovely smile and the sound of your laughter. You were one in a million my darling and the world is a colder place without you in it.
God Bless you my darling, I will love you forever until the day we are reunited and our love will last for eternity.
Your husband,

Ian

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Saturday, March 7th 2009 - 08:41:02 PM
Name: Asha James
E-mail address: sales@inacrystal.com
Homepage URL: http://books.dreambook.com/davlyn/main.html
Comments:My dad died on 5th Feb 09 (He went into hosp 12.12.08)
They say he died of lung cancer,or could it be pneumonia? unfortunately it was too late for a biopsy to get a diagnosis for any treatment.
My dad booked two tickets to visit back home,for a holiday with my mum. he complained of a chesty cough for which he was given an inhaler,also the (flu Jab)that i believe with my mum killed him. He couldn`t lie down on a bed for weeks so, he had to sit and try to sleep on a chair . The Dr`s said to my dad "Mr Cooray" its X`mas. Which I understand mean`t the doctors are on leave for christmas, you will have to wait. I feel angry because my dads health care was DELAYED & NEGLECTED and he was not given a chance for any treatment,they should have taken a biopsy earlier when he was well. But we rely on the professionals for help!
I have never felt so helpless in my life,I could`t do anything.I had to watch my dad, the man that gave me life fade away, have his life taken away from him. We were not told the truth, but were told he was very ill."It could be this, it could be that".
I BELIEVE THE FLU JAB KILLED MY DAD (so please any one out there do not take it, if you have symptoms of illness even a cough or cold) My dad would be alive today. THE DOCTORS SHOULD PUT UP NOTICES IN THEIR SURGERYS ABOUT THE FLU JAB.
so people like you or me would know.The Doctors should know better.

My parents did not know that you can choose any hospital you would like to go to so he thought he had to choose the closest to his home .Unfortunately my dad chose Northwick Park hospt, people i spoke to said it was the worst hospt and that Paddington hospt & Hammersith hospt are the best.
My dad couldn`t speak to me, he had a traki on his throat, i know there was so much he wanted to say and tell us, and unfinished things he wanted to do.
My mum & dad were pen pals since they were 13yrs & 15yrs my dad was 68yrs when he died.

Dad we miss you so much,i feel so empty i just want to scream. i just wanted more time with you,so you could see your grandchildren graduate, see the children married, go on holiday with you, which you wanted.
I can`t wait to be with you one day soon.
I wish i could have done something to help you, i`m sorry i could`t.
I love you dad x
your daughter Asha x

Thank you for giving me the chance to express myself, there was no one who would take the time to listen to me. Thanks
Asha 4.3.09 - 500pm
Wednesday, March 4th 2009 - 05:28:11 PM
Name: Rob
E-mail address: robcopley2008@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:Yesterday - 3rd March, was our 2nd Anniversary
since my partner and I betrothed our love for each other on our 3rd meeting.

Barbara had scoliosis. She was diagnosed at 12, and had undergone many operations during her life. In 2008 she was told she needed major spinal surgery, or she would be crippled within a few years. There was a 50/50 chance she would be paralysed after surgery, but the operation went to plan and was a success.

Sadly, when resuscitating Barbara, she went into
cardiac arrest. She had a blood clot and a pulminary embolism. They tried for 1 3/4 hours to revive her, but to no avail. She died 7 weeks ago on the 13th January 2009. Barbara was 44 years old.

I was prepared for problems. I was prepared (mentally even) for Paralysis, but I was not prepared for this.

Barbara was my best friend, partner and fiance and we were inseperable since our 1st meeting. Barbara was warm, loving, caring, supportive and devoted to me. Everyone she met instantly liked her - she was quite simply - wonderful, and the best thing that
has ever happened to me.

Our wedding, was put on hold till after her operation, and that is my greatest regret. She wanted so much to marry me, and I her, and that has been stolen from us.

I am lost. I don't know what to do. All that occupies me is my pain and sorrow. I have read all your stories, and know I am not alone in feeling this way - but I feel so terribly alone. Barbara was too young and full of life and goodness to die.

Rob.
Wednesday, March 4th 2009 - 01:52:01 PM
Name: janetamara
E-mail address: jane.domain.ja@gmail.com
Comments:my darling mum died on 24 feb only 3 months after being diagnosed with secondary ovarian cancer. it was not the peaceful passing we had hoped for though friends assure me it was worse for us than for her and these memories will fade. she told me she would continue to live through us and i hope she is watching over me. i found this website by 'accident' and realise i am not alone in my great confusion at this loss but that while life has ended love will not. Ever.
Thursday, February 26th 2009 - 03:05:20 PM
Name: Francesca
E-mail address: mattnfran@comcast.net
Comments:My beloved husband Matthew, aged 42 by just a month, died Sept.'08. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and within 3 months, he died. We MUST find a cure for this cancer, which is the most difficult to diagnose because once the symptoms appear, it's already too late. There is a cancer foundation, STAND UP TO CANCER, in which all the proceeds go directly to research funding. If any of you have lost loved ones to cancer, this foundation is an excellent one. Their address is on line.

I don't want Matthew's death to be in vain. I miss him so much I can't breath, and I feel crippled and lost. I've lost my best friend, partner and lover. And I know this term is used quite often, but we were indeed true soulmates.

In Matthew's last days, he shared with me this philosophy. That is to love. Love the dog, cat, neighbor, friends, family and people in need. Even though your heart is shattered in a million pieces, eventually you will begin to put the pieces back together, and heal. Reach out to people in need, take in all the beauty that surrounds us. These things will make us heal and be better people. I will keep Matt's philosophy with me forever, and I think all of us should.

Remember this phrase which I keep with me always. When someone you love dies, your relationship with them doesn't end, it changes.

I will always adore you my darling.

Your loving wife
Monday, February 16th 2009 - 03:55:56 AM
Name: Jenny
E-mail address: Jblanks@sky.com
Comments:My Dad died on Sat 9th of Jan 2009. He had secondary cancer but it was pnemonia that was the final straw. I had been visiting Dad and it was only 20 mins after I left him that he died. Everyone said he waited for me his youngest child before he could die. I did a very personal reading at his funeral and it was the hardest thing and the proudest thing that I have ever done in my life. Im still grieving quietly, in my own way. Occasionally it sneaks up on me and takes my breath away....but I just am being kind to myself and I just let myself cry. My hubby is my rock my strength so thankful he is in my life...
Sunday, February 15th 2009 - 04:31:15 PM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: a-rch-i.medes@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:A year has passed since my husband, WINIFRED TER MEULEN, died suddenly. I still cannot believe it, I rush around and can cope as long as I am in company but I cannot even visit his grave more than once a year because he is buried with his mother in The Hague. I still feel he may come back one day, that he has just gone to Holland for a visit as he used to. He was not the father of my children who are grown up but they are devastated, and most of all my beloved granddaughter who had a special place in Winifred's heart, even when he was really depressed. Because of his depression in the last two years, I still doubt that he still loved me.
Tuesday, January 27th 2009 - 03:24:11 PM
Name: Imsosorry
Comments:My Dad was the best but died of terminal cancer. He held on for 2 years. The last thing he said was "dont go" He was the one that went, he is in a better place now. I MISS YOU DADDY, he won a MBE award 4days before he died. I MISS HIM
Friday, January 9th 2009 - 09:14:06 PM
Name: Imisshim
Comments:My Father passed away, he died of pancriatic cancer. He was ment to live maybe a month, but he held on and stayed with us for nearly 2 more years, as the weeks before his death came by he got weaker and less like him self. He died just before the summer, I was 11. I cry for him and miss him, about 4 days befor his death he was awarded a MBE for sheer bravery, all that met him loved him and he was the best Dad that I could of ever dreamed of, this website possibly saved my life THANK YOU
Friday, January 9th 2009 - 08:41:21 PM
Name: Iamsosorry
Comments:When someone you love dies you miss and love them more and more as time goes on. It will get easier as time goes on. Your loved one would hate to see you unhappy, so smile and remember the good things. They are still there, you just need to remember.
Friday, January 9th 2009 - 08:36:22 PM
Name: maria docherty
E-mail address: mariasteel@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:KATE MY FRIEND I REMEMBER THE DAY I HEARD THAT YOU HAD GONE.AND I SAID SOME THING STUPID LIKE IS SHE OK? TEARS FLOWED LIKE NO TOMORROW.I WALKED FOR MILES TRYING TO UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DIDNT TELL ME HOW YOU WERE FEELING? ASKING MY SELF WHY? COULD I HAVE SAVED YOU? IF I HAD KNOWN. IV BEEN ASKED BY PEOPLE... [IF YOUR WERE HER BEST FRIEND THEN WHY DIDNT YOU KNOW]... I TELL THEM I GO TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT AND WAKE EVERY MORING, ASKING MY SELF THE SAME QUESTION. BUT AS TIME GOES ON I THINK YOU DIDNT WANT TO BE SAVED AND I UNDERSTAND KATE .IM STILL RINGING AND TEXTING YOU PHONE BUT NO REPLY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, GOOD FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND. AND SO I THINK IV BEEN VERY PRIVLEGED TO HAVE MET YOU ALL THOESE YEARS AGO.AND I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER EVER REALLY BE GONE YOUR WITH ME ALWAYS.A PEACE OF ME WENT WITH YOU THAT DAY MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND.XXX MARIA
Friday, January 9th 2009 - 08:13:14 PM
Name: sandra
E-mail address: lckhrtsndr@aol.com
Comments:Lost my darling granny on 2nd january 2009. Cannot believe I will never see her again. She was a fantastic lady who her whole family adored and will miss greatly. I feel my heart is breaking and I am hoping I find the strength to cope with her upcoming funeral. This site has allowed me to express how I am feeling. Thank you.
Monday, January 5th 2009 - 09:32:46 PM
Name: Lindsay Kent
E-mail address: afuzzynavel@hotmail.com
Comments:My baby - what can I say. I told you I loved you more, always so much more and you left me so tragically on 2nd December 2008. Why baby why??? I cannot and maybe will never know why it happened but you will forever have a place in my heart. Sleep in heavenly peace baby and keep my side of the bed warm, I promise I wont be long. All my love for ever and and a life time more x x x Lins


Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I, and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray, smile, think of me, pray for me.

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was, let it be spoken without effect without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was; there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner.
All is well.

All is Well
Henry Scott Holland (1847-1918) - Canon of St. Paul's Cathedral

Sunday, December 21st 2008 - 02:11:53 AM
Name: patricia
E-mail address: trinityblue@hotmail.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://books.dreambook.com/davlyn/main.html
Comments:i lost my husband on the 25th sep 2008so very sudden from a heart attack i had only spoke to him a hour befor when he phoned me at work he was at home and was just going for his run along the cannel wich he did every day An hour later my daughter phoned me and sad dad had passed out and was unconsious on the kithchen floor i knew straight away my beautifull husband had died he was still there when i rushed home from work i miss him so very very much we had been together 33 years and had 5 children ad 3 grand children the pain you feel is unreal i call it the silent scream my heart my soul are constantly screaming for him to come back to me or for me i see him every where i go and i know every one who as lost some one they love the pain of this time of year every where you look it.s christmas christmas tree.s christmas carol.s turkey.s mince pie.s and none of it mean.s anything where only a year ago it meant everything i.v only dreamt of my husband ounce i.d love to see him every nigt in my dream.s i.m still on sleeping tablit.s i think may be there stoping me dreaming f him but i,m scered not to take them because i.ll just lye awake all night crying my rob was a beautifull man and i will lov him every day untill he come.s for me i send all my love and hope of a peacefull to you all that have lost some one you love god gless you all i love you robert your wife for ever as promiced pat xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Tuesday, December 16th 2008 - 02:40:30 AM
Name: Gill Briggs
E-mail address: gill112@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my husband Jack on the 8th November 2008, it was very unexpected. He had been having treament for colon cancer and had uncomplainingly enured 7 cycles of chemo, the last scan results were encouraging and we were looking forward to Christmas. He died of a blood clot on the lung,apparently a side effect of the chemo. We were together for 27 years he was 64.
Jack i miss you every minute of every day, it's only my promise to you, that should anything happen i would carry on, that makes me wake each day and go through the motions of life. Christmas is looming and i don't know how i'll make it, my family are all very good but they are not you. I will love you forever and pray each day that it will be my last anmd that once again we will be together. until then xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, December 15th 2008 - 08:36:14 PM
Name: Claire
E-mail address: c.allcock@fsmail.net
Comments:I lost my partner John on the 20th November 2008 age 44
he was only poorly for 3 weeks in intensive care, been together for 14 great years feel so lost without him,went back to work on the 8th december could only work 3 days too much to cope wih people talking about christmas and going out. My family and friends have been really great support but needing to talk to people that have been through the same as me.
Saturday, December 13th 2008 - 06:26:50 PM
Name: Pat
E-mail address: private
Comments:Came looking for support, so many of you are suffering also.
I met my soul-mate John in 1965, I lost him in March 2008.
He won't come and get me! I want to go to him, but fear I won't be able to find him.
I sit awake 5 out of 7 nights a week sobbing and begging him to come for me.
My heart has been ripped part. We were together 24/7 always.
For over 6 months we tried to get the doctor to believe he was ill, repeatedly we were told he was fine!
My pal, my love my life, I need you Beam! xxxxxxxxx


Tuesday, December 2nd 2008 - 05:57:58 AM
Name: Poppy James
E-mail address: no1defleppardfan@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:i miss you mum so much, you've bin gone just under 3 months now,:( i have so much guilt for the time i treated you badly and now i can never take that back. the house feels so empty. i always thought i would have a chance 2 show how much i loved you, but now i guess i will never have the chance. the onli thing i can think about is how you will never see me get married have children or finish college which makes it easy to just say i give up, but i no thats something you wouldnt have wanted. im finding it hard without you, and the thought that im onli 16 and without a mum i can't help but think this isn't far, you where taken so suddenly from us and its just so hard to move on with life, but im getting there i feel stronger now. i wil never.. ever forget you. </3xxxxxxxx
Sunday, November 23rd 2008 - 01:08:22 PM
Name: Alan
E-mail address: alan.tarrant2@ntlworld.com
Comments:My wife Beryl died on August 19th 2008 at the age of 62 after bravely fighting cancer. She always had a positive and jolly nature and didn’t let her illness get her down. The end came very suddenly as we both felt she was improving after treatment. We have no children and no close family so we very much relied on each other. Although people at the funeral were kind and supportive at the time I have not heard from any of them since the funeral two months ago. Three weeks after the funeral I was made redundant from my job so now I tend to spend my days wondering aimlessly around the house feeling very sorry for myself and not speaking to anyone for days and then only to the check out person at the supermarket and frankly not really wanting to as all I really want to do is hear her voice again. The one consolation I have is that we loved each other so very much and had 20 years of happiness together. I miss her so much and feel so very alone without her.
Saturday, November 15th 2008 - 05:43:31 PM
Name: sandy
E-mail address: sandra.norris@ntlworld.com
Comments:My husband john died very suddenly while at work in nov 2006.He got up for work like any other day,and didnt come home.He was 44 yrs old and his blood presure went too high ,and he died instintly.Two years on and i still cant belive hes not here.I cry nearly every night in my bedroom as i dont want my teenage kids to see me,as i feel i need to be strong for them .Ive just had my 25th wedding anniversry without him.I have a lot of friends and family that are really good to me but iam still so very lonely.i miss him soooo much and wish that i could just see him and hold him again.I do say to myself whats the point in living! my life is so depressing without him, he was my life my soul mate.Someone tell me please how to make it better,because i cant see it getting better.I keep thinking it could be 35/40 yrs till i meet him again,it seems too long to wait.dont worry iam not going to do anything silly ,its just how i feel.I LOVE YOU JOHN AND ALWAYS WILL ,YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN . LOVE ALWAYS SANDRA ,CRAL.AND JAMIE XXXXXXXXX
Monday, November 10th 2008 - 11:42:12 PM
Name: vicky bell
E-mail address: vicky-b-whyt-@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:i lost the love of my life on the 13th of may 2008, he took his own life due to his mental health illness. i just miss hi so much, mosts days seem like a week to me. just wish i could hol him!!
Sunday, November 9th 2008 - 07:10:28 PM
Name: John
E-mail address: johndoyle2008@aol.com
Comments:my life was devestated my patty passed away 13/09/08 all that i had is gone each day i miss her more and more cant cope much longer i miss you so much my darling only you can understand how i feel each day .......hopefully one day darling our special love john
Saturday, November 1st 2008 - 01:20:47 AM
Name: Justine
E-mail address: zenn_alj@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my mum on 13th July, she was 57 and had only known that cancer had taken over her body for 5 weeks so she didn't suffer for long. For us being left behind 5 weeks is not long enough to get your head round things. Mum's been gone for 3 months now and I still haven't got used to the idea that my mum's got cancer yet let alone that she's gone. When does it start to feel real?
I love and miss you so much mum, I smell you on something and it hurts more than I can bear, I don't know how I'm going to go through the rest of my life without out, I still need you so much! Your grandson misses you and talks about you all the time, he has so many happy memories "trot on" haha! I wish we could go back and just have one more chat there's so much more I want to say to you. I hope you're looking down on us and smiling, I miss your smile. I love you mum xxxxxxxxxx
Friday, October 31st 2008 - 05:53:48 PM
Name: Kayleigh
E-mail address: Bitch_88@msn.com
Comments:im not sure why i came on here, i think just to see if i could get any ideas as to how i should be feeling. my partner died just over 3 week ago in a accident on his way to work. we are both 20 and have a 4 year old son. im just not sure how im supposed to carry on after this.
i love u so much babe and i promise that we will make u proud, my only wish was that you would be here with me to guide me and help me. i will love u forever and hopefully we will meet again in another place.
all my love kayleigh x x x x
Friday, October 31st 2008 - 02:33:00 AM
Name: john doyle
E-mail address: johndoyle2008@aol.com
Monday, October 27th 2008 - 11:56:53 PM
Name: Rachel
E-mail address: krasnauk@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my soulmate, friend and husband last year in an unforgetable car crash. He was already gone when I managed to get out of the car and still can't beleive sometimes that this life is my reality. I wish and hopr for the day that I will wake from this nightmare and have back everything I ever needed and wanted from my life! My beautiful Luli how I miss your smile!xxx
Thursday, October 23rd 2008 - 11:38:52 PM
Name: andy
E-mail address: evilcanival11@hotmail.com
Comments:i lost my mum when i was 14 and even thow 4 years have only gone bye i still fill the pain from the day she took her life i had counciling for 2 years and met people with the same surcumstances as me. As we sat there and talked the pain got easyier knowing im not the only person.

Sunday, October 19th 2008 - 02:20:43 AM
Name: Neve
E-mail address: nieves.salazar@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Last Wednesday we have lost my Auntie. She had fought very hard wih her cancer. She was very stromg mentally til the very end. We will all miss her but at least she will longer be in great pain. Rest well and be at peace.
Wednesday, October 15th 2008 - 12:09:14 PM
Name: Angie
E-mail address: angiebabez33@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Id just like 2 say - My Heart goes out 2 u all xxx
I myself am grieving like u all r + it is so so hard 2 get on with life. Ive lost a lot of family + friends in the past few years + now on the 17th July 2008 my brother in law Chris who woz only 27 was suddenly taken by the Angels , he had an undetected Blood Clot that fatally found his Heart. My husband Matthew, myself + our kids Jamie,Jordan,Jack + Bethany miss him dearly + just wish we could turn back time. We think of u always Chris + will Love u forever. Ur safe with The Angels in Heaven . Goodnite xxx

Sadly + suddenly again on the 25th Sept 2008 my Uncle Junior who woz 51 , fell asleep at home , he had a Heart Attack + didnt wake up again. I saw him 2 days b4 he died , i woznt very well + he came 2 c me at my house. When he woz leaving he had a nasty fall down my front steps , he got such a fright , i did 2 but he insisted he woz fine , kissed me on the cheek , hugged me tight + told me he loved me + would c me on friday again - that woz the last time i saw him , he died on the Friday @ 2pm. Im so glad he came 2 c me + that day will stay in my heart forever , but i felt so guilty coz he fell at my house + died 2 days later , i woz reassured that the fall woz in no way connected 2 his death , but it still hurts , my heart is broken + i cry every day , i miss u so so much + wish u were here 2 hug me tight + tell me ur ok again. I love u with all my heart. Ur safe in heaven now. Goodnite xxxx
Thursday, October 9th 2008 - 06:42:00 AM
Name: Jude Stubbs
E-mail address: jnchotdogs@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:I lost my beloved Mum on my 40th birthday. I was never a good enough daughter. I never told my Mum what a wonderful Mum she was. I loved you Mum and feel so guilty about the things I said and the things I didn't say.

I then lost Dad just before I was 50. I missed my Mum so much Dad, I never gave you the right time to grieve.
I will never be free of the guilt.
But I will always remember the love you both gave us all.

Judexxx
Tuesday, September 30th 2008 - 10:13:26 PM
Name: Dani Robinson
E-mail address: DaniRobinson85@Gmail.com
Comments:I miss you mum. I knew you were sick but I never thought you'd actually be gone. Things are getting better day by day but I still can't write anything... hopefully it will come back soon... Miss you
X
Wednesday, September 17th 2008 - 08:44:51 AM
Name: Rose
E-mail address: rmslees@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:I lost my Mum on 23rd of January this year to Pulmonary Hypertension and then my Dad on 8th of August to Cancer. You can't describe the emptiness that you feel and nothing seems worth bothering about. I don't want to believe I'll never see their faces again or hear them laugh, I still pick up the phone and go to ring them. They were always there for me no matter what and I miss them so much. Even though I have my Husband it just doesn't seem enough somehow. They were my best friends and I'll never be complete again without them. The only good thing is that they're not in pain anymore. I love you both so much Mum and Dad and I'll never forget you xx
Tuesday, September 16th 2008 - 06:17:45 PM
Name: seana
E-mail address: seana_2t6@hotmail.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://!
Comments:my daddy died when i was 3 years old, i still have memories of him and will always luv him. im 16 now and a lot has happened in the past since he left, my uncle (his Brother Died And Then my granda died 2. i was also raped when i was 14.
i was serverly depressed and tried 2 end my life 3 times with the last overdose having been 118 tablets , i survived with no liver or kidney damage which the doctors said they just couldnt explain as they had told my family i could go into a coma and die any minute.

the point of me blabbering on lol , is that to tell people that i no hy hard it is 2 lose someone and 2 be hurting buh U CAN GET THROUGH IT!!!
people told me lots of times that id get through it buh i just didnt believe them at all. i though yes some people can get better but just not me, ive came 2 far and feel 2 bad, and most of the time i didnt want 2 even try to hang on.
2 huever is reading this,urve obviously came on this site while thinkin of someone urve lost and love and sometimes want 2 b with them buh just remember u can get through it..
i did .. and if i did then anyone can!!!

just keep hangin in there, it is possible , believe me

no matter whats happened in your life , u can b happy.

im sooo glad im still alive ,and im finally happy, i do have bad days but hu doesnt?

Just Keep Hanging In There , U CAN get better

please email me if your needing someone 2 talk 2 at anytime.. u never no it might just help..

P.S Nobody said it would be easy,they just said it would be worth it!!!

Favorite saying of all time!

GOOD LUCK

Seana xox
Monday, September 15th 2008 - 06:19:48 PM
Name: Anonymous
Comments:We lost someone very special nearly 14 years ago. The pain doesn't go awy, it just gets lost in the interference of life.

Although it was many years agoa, I still remember thinking would there be a day when I didn't cry.
Sleep well Adam
Sunday, September 14th 2008 - 11:50:51 PM
Name: Jason
E-mail address: withnail66@hotmail.com
Comments:I'm not even sure why I came here. you all seem to have such moving, poignant, raw memories of recent losses and I feel for every single one of you. I lost my best friend on the 5th October 2000 when he died suddenly in his sleep, without any warning or reason, aged 28. every September I start to dread the imminent anniversary. we were inseparable and grew up together and - totally honestly - there is not a single day that passes that I don't miss him and think about him. I still visit his parents and see his ex-girlfriend from time to time, but I suppose this book is somewhere where I could see my thoughts written down for once. I miss you mate. so much it savages me like screwdrivers rammed into my throat. I wish so many things. I wish you could have met my wife. I wish you could see how I'm doing these days. I wish you knew that I'm naming my son after you. time does not heal. it maybe gives you an option for coping with the pain but does not heal. life does not go on. it changes into a weaker, poorer life without you. I will never ever forget you or how happy I was with you around. save a seat for me at the bar, wherever you are. much love x
Saturday, September 13th 2008 - 08:30:12 PM
Name: katherine hughes
E-mail address: katherineihughes@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:For my beautiful husband David Hitchcock who i miss so much. Shine on.
Wednesday, August 27th 2008 - 08:47:06 PM
Name: jane mcguire
E-mail address: smane40@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage URL: http:/
Comments:just wanted to say i lost someone on the 24th april 2007 this day i will never forget his name was jay, he was a character in himself, he was a special wee boy to me and i miss him so much. he will never ever be forgotten, and will always be in my heart. miss you jay " OOR ANGEL " xx
Tuesday, August 19th 2008 - 10:25:08 PM
Name: Sammiie Lou
E-mail address: sam_elliott09@hotmail.com
Comments:My mum who i love so much past away on 21 December 2008 then sadly ten days later my nana passed away.
My mum died from a cardiac arrest so there was no final goodbyes i was 3 months pregnant at the time and 16.
My mum couldnt have done more for me and my brother she procteced us from everything and everyone she was a fantastic mother and i am proud to say she was mine.
Mum dad misses you more then i can say everyday we talk about the loving person you was i still dont want to say bye cause i dont want it to end love you always hopefully ill see you agian someday and dad always reminds me hes coming back to you one see you then.
ALL OUR LOVE YOUR HUSBAND JOHN DAUGHTER SAMMIE-LOU AND SON MATT XXXXXXX
Thursday, July 31st 2008 - 06:32:22 PM
Name: Sophie
E-mail address: little_fairy6@hotmail.com
Comments:My gorgeous boyfriend Dan was taken away from me on May 10th 2008 aged 22. I miss you so much and just hope i am doing you proud by being strong for myself and your family and friends. We will meet again someday and it was just your time to go. You taught me so much and i have so many great memories which will forever be in my heart.
Love you and miss you baba xx
Wednesday, July 30th 2008 - 05:30:04 PM
Name: JOHANN HOLLOBONE
E-mail address: jhollobone@yahoo.com
Comments:My beloved husband Greville passed away in March this year. I miss him so much & want him to know that I will always love him more than anything! He was only 57 & it was very sudden. I know we'd hoped to grow old together babe but cancer got in the way. I am trying to make you proud of me, trying to be strong. I want to thank you for the wonderful 14 years we had together, it wasn't long enough but it was the best years of my life. You taught me so much about love & life. "Have I told you lately?" every day. You are now out of pain but never out of my heart. Sleep peacefully babe I love you.xxx
Friday, July 25th 2008 - 06:46:22 AM
Name: Emmah
E-mail address: xx-Princess-x-Emma-xx@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:R.I.P Johnny. Taken From Us On 11th July 2008. Such A Tragic Loss. I Miss You So Much, And Always Will. Goodbye For Now, As It's Not The End. I Love You Johnny. xxxx
Tuesday, July 22nd 2008 - 08:47:08 PM
Name: Maureen Robinson
E-mail address: maureenrobinson@ymail.com
Comments:On Sept 6th 2oo6 (my birthday) I lost my husband and best friend to heart disease, a long standing illness. I miss him so very much and find life very difficult at times. I would like to include this poem.

I lit a candle in your name
A sweet soft light and gentle flame,
Just like your life when here on earth
No one can really count your worth,
It was a life not rich with wealth.
A life that suffered from ill health
And yet you gave to all you met,
A gentle spirit none forget,
Your love was like a light to me,
To light the way I could not see,
And so I send my love in prayer,
To one I love and life did share,
My prayer is when my life is through,
This light will guide me home to you.

Love always, Maureen xxx
Monday, July 7th 2008 - 11:55:37 AM
Name: irene colquhoun
E-mail address: irenecolquhoun@btinternet.com
Comments:The love of my life Tom died on the 29th August 2007.
We had only been married thirteen years when you were taken from me it is ten moths now and i still cry every day i miss you so much.
I know you are at peace now and that we will meet again.
I am trying to move on with my life because i know that you would want me to be happy because i know you loved me with all your heart
I will love you with all my heart for ever more.
love you always
Irene xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, June 23rd 2008 - 09:17:54 AM
Name: sally garret ne:planck
E-mail address: sallgarrett557@btiternet.com
Comments:TO MY DEAREST BROTHER GARY WHEN I GOT THAT CALL YESTERDAY I NEW, MAY YOU REST IN PEACE NOW. NOBODY CAN HURT ANYMORE GARY YOU ARE WITH MUM NOW AND SHE WILL LOOK AFTER YOU AS SHE ALWAYS DID LOVE YOU ALWAYS SALLY AND DEAN
Saturday, June 14th 2008 - 12:06:05 PM
Name: jb
E-mail address: jb
Comments:Mum

I think I have always been prepared to lose you but i never thought it would happen. just like me, you always fell on your feet and found your way. we though it would be the same with this adn you would have learnt to slow down and enjoy life more. people have since said to me 'god takes the best ones first' but i am at a loss with how to feel. i am heart broken that we no longer have you in our lives. i hope i will be your image on earth and that i can do the work you didnt have chance to. love you.
Thursday, June 5th 2008 - 09:12:40 PM
Name: Helen
E-mail address: fizzyshouse@talktalk.net
Comments:reading through its strange to think that so many people are feeling just like me, i'd only been with my lovely Keith a short time, long enough to know we had a rosey future ahead of us, he died in his sleep aged 38 only 21 days ago, feels like a huge hole inside, i miss him so so much, keep forgeting and go to call him, then i remember, he's gone, and i can't believe i'm never going to see him again..i don't yet know what took my lovely special friend from me, but in fact it does'nt really change anything. i try really hard to be brave to not cry so much, because he would'nt want to see me sad all the time, the last thing he would want is to cause me upset and pain, but it's not easy, sorry Keith, i just miis you, wish you were back here, i really hope your ok, you promised you'd never leave without saying goodbye, i'm waiting for you to come and tell me!! i'll keep lighting the candles for you..guide you to me..home is where the heart is remember..xx RIP
Thursday, June 5th 2008 - 02:08:07 PM
Name: Becky
E-mail address: beci321@aol.com
Comments:Hi I came accross your website when I was in search for some help with greiving. I hope you dont mind I just wanted to say a few words to my partner. He died in a road accident aged 22. (April 1st 2008) We were together for four years. He was my life and my soul and right now I feel that there is no life ahead without him.

To my beautful blue eyed boy, I miss you more than ever. Life no longer feels safe now your gone. I never knew how much I loved you until you were gone. My life is showing so many roads to take at the moment but who knows where they lead. When you were hear i knew every path to choose. U were the reason I woke in the morning. My heart hurts so much without you here by my side. I never thought life could be so cruel. Why you?? You had your whole life to live. I will never no a love so strong as ours. Watching you leave me was the most painful time of my life. I dont know how im still here without you. I miss your every move and your beautful deep voice, your loving arms around me and your significant smell. Times will never be the same without you, but I know you will be here with me for the rest of my life. I was so used to my daily routine and now I dont have one. I never will. I cant wait to hold you in my arms again blue eyes. Please help the police find the man who killed you, I cant rest knowing he walks free.

I will say my final goodbyes to you now angel, until I meet you in heaven. Please wait for me.

I love you with all my heart and soul. My life.

Ill love you forever xxx
Saturday, May 17th 2008 - 11:36:23 PM
Name: Fallingfeather
Comments:For Lyndsey RIP
Let God wrap his arms around you and protect you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
God bless you little one.
xxxx
Wednesday, May 7th 2008 - 07:33:23 PM
Name: Audrey
E-mail address: audreysim@iol.ie
Comments:Sheila - I miss you so much I can't tell you. I want to be with you. Please help me to be with you. I feel I can't go on without you. I love you so much. I'm so lonely without you. Please help me.
Monday, May 5th 2008 - 08:53:23 PM
Name: John
E-mail address: themaestro023@aol.com
Comments:Dad,
You were always there for me, but when you went, I was away.
You will always be in my heart,

I love you.
Monday, May 5th 2008 - 05:46:27 AM
Name: John
E-mail address: themawestro023@aol.com
Comments:Dad
I loved you so much and never said so.
The care you gave to others exceeds any expectation,
I miss you so much,
Love John
Monday, May 5th 2008 - 05:40:26 AM
Name: Fallingfeather
Comments:Mum
I miss you so much.I will always love you.
Sleep peacefully my angel.
Michelle x
Thursday, May 1st 2008 - 05:16:09 PM
Name: heinz
E-mail address: rozisle@aol.com
Comments:i found your site by accident. in reading the e-mails, you realize how cruel live can be at times. i agree with all the comments of feeling lost, sad, angry and hopeless. my wife and i were married for 30 wonderful years until the cancer took her away / 25 january 2008/11.30am
i miss you so much,carmen. i hope we meet again.

to my love and my life

heinz

thanks for being able to express myself
Sunday, April 13th 2008 - 04:02:12 PM
Name: Anon
E-mail address: Anon@anon.com
Homepage URL: http://anon@anon.com/anon
Comments:Let it be known that for every tear that is shed due to bereavement, the Lord Jesus Christ sheds a tear also.

These are testing times. There is no magic wands. Nothing that can be said or done will ease the pain and suffering that is incurred on those left behind.

Have faith. Those you loved are not gone into nothingness.
That spark of life that was/is your loved one, now resides elsewhere.

One day, you will discover the truth in these words...
Tuesday, March 25th 2008 - 06:44:44 PM
Name: Dawn your partner
E-mail address: welshangel59@hotmail.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://HAPPY EASTER
Comments:Hello my darling Mel I love you so much and I miss you like crazy my sweetheart, you was and always will be the light of my life.

IF I FOUND THE GATES OF HEAVEN
I WOULD CLIMB UP EVERY STAIR
TO TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU
AND ONE DAY I'LL MEET YOU THERE

All my love for ever and ever
From Dawn your honey child

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Sunday, March 23rd 2008 - 12:09:15 AM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: ctermeulen@peacemail.com
Comments:I met my husband Winifred ter Meulen in Crete on 26th September 1990, we married on 14th December 1990 and he later left Holland and moved to live with me in England. It was a holiday romance and people said it wouldn't last, well they were right but not for the reasons they thought in 2000 Winifred had a heart attack and went to Holland to have stents inserted. He was never really the same and over the last two years he suffered from depression. He had made such a difference to my life and I was so happy when I married him. He died suddenly in bed beside me on 26th January 2008 and I miss him so much.
I feel he let himself die and that maybe he didn't care much for me, he resisted every pill, diet, exercise, everything he was supposed to do. He was so thin when died you would have thought he had starved to death. He had gone back to work and had cheered up, he hardly went out be came out on the Sunday before he died.
I feel that he may have regretted his decision to move to England in the last few years, he finally gave up his flat in Holland only 8 months before he died.
We had two funerals, one in England, and then we took his body to Holland to be buried with his mother as he wanted. I am even deprived of visiting his grave more than a couple of times a year and because of this I feel he is still alive somewhere.
Thursday, March 20th 2008 - 11:08:54 AM
Name: anna
E-mail address: celticgodess66@aol.com
Comments:i lost my sister belinda guthrie nee copland on 22/02/08 it happened in ameriaca took so long to find out missed her funeral feel so lost miss you so much belinda please rest in piece we will have your ashes home in scotland very soon

loved always ann
Wednesday, March 19th 2008 - 12:13:28 AM
Name: Lucy
Comments:I was searching somewhere to say something to my loved one and thankfully came across this site. So I hope it's ok if I use it to send my message and my thoughts to my loved one.

Tsz, it's been almost a year now and I just wanted you to know that I'm doing ok. I missed you so much at the start of the year, no longer seeing you everyday, and each new situation being that little bit more difficult without your safety and support being there always at the back of my mind.

The Memorial Service was so beautiful, I know you were there, listening to all of our recollections of how you became part of our lives, and ultimately part of all our souls. It struck me how your spirit still lives on - in the beauty of the world, and more importantly in the beauty of all the people you touched with your kindness.

Life is so different now, in a new city and in a new place, but it means I don't have to always compare it to the life we shared before, and I can start to think of you with true fondness, and to look back at our times together with joy in remembering.

Tonight, Gabriella had her first performance and I know you would have loved it. She was so great, I was so proud of her!

University is going well, I have met some wonderful people who have been taking good care of me, and like you, have let me be myself and have liked me for it.

There has been a lot going on and a lot of gossip for us to catch up on, but in short, my life is still as hectic and dramatic as ever, but have found it quite exciting really.

I miss you, and I hope you are living on happily, and have finally come to rest in realising how wonderful we think and know you are.

Love always.
Friday, March 14th 2008 - 12:47:13 AM
Name: Lyn
E-mail address: lyns919@yahoo.com
Comments:Lovely site - beautiful music.

I lost my beloved Dad August 2007. My 9 year old son witnessed his death as it was sudden and at home. Miss and love my Dad more than words can say.

Love you Dad

Lyn xxxxxxxxxx
Saturday, March 1st 2008 - 07:46:30 AM
Name: Margaret
E-mail address: dasilva5230@sympatico.ca
Comments:I lost my only child (age 22) on December 6, 2007. He died in his sleep of pneumonia and had no symptoms. The pathologist was 'surprised' since he was otherwise healthy and I am praying for more information when the final autopsy report arrives.

Oh Paul, my beloved and precious son, this is the worst thing in the world. I live for that moment when I can see and touch you again.
Tuesday, February 26th 2008 - 05:00:15 AM
Name: Dawn-Marie
E-mail address: hells-angel-on-earth@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:In Loving Memory of a Wonderful Dad.
We lost you so suddenly on 25/06/07 and my world fell apart. Life just isn't the same without you. Not a day goes by when the tears dont flow and the pain only seems to get worse and not better. I didn't know it was possible to miss someone so much, but i know now. I wish more than anything that you were still here with me, with us.
Behave yourself wherever you are, and look in on us from time to time.
With eternal love and respect for a fantastic Dad.
Your Dawny.xxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, February 13th 2008 - 08:24:45 PM
Name: fone
E-mail address: david_fone@hotmail.com
Comments:Janette something so hard
goes straight to the soul;
it seems impossible to get over
and my heart is left with a big hole.

Janette i'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile;
but I'm dying inside.
The world seems to be fading,
and I just want to run and hide.

Janette everywhere I go I see your face,
and realize how much I miss you;
and on the day you died
a piece of me died too
Wednesday, February 13th 2008 - 05:05:59 PM
Name: dawn
E-mail address: welshangel59@hotmail.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://books.dreambook.com/davlyn/main.html
Comments:i lost my wonderfull partner mel on 03.10.07 my angel was so suddenly taken away from me he was my best friend and my soulmate and i cant imagine my life without him.

if i searched the whole world over i know i'd never find a man who was so wonderfull so loving warm and kind.
and now that god has taken you with angels by your side you will be looking down on me and i will cherish our love wih pride.
28.01.08
Monday, January 28th 2008 - 11:36:19 PM
Name: mhairi mackenzie
E-mail address: nice_n_spicy69@hotmail.com
Comments:i lost my dad suddenly on 9th december 2007 and not a day goes by where i dont miss him.when he died he took a part of me with him too.it still hasnt sank in properly,i dont think it ever will,i still expect the fone to ring and it be him,but i know that that will never happen.Life will never be the same again without him in it.i love and miss you so much dad.please come home.love always.your broken hearted daughter x x x
Monday, January 28th 2008 - 02:35:28 PM
Name: Emy Randall
E-mail address: Emy2@dialstart.net
Comments:For Mike Garrad who died unexpectedly on 16/01/08. He lived life to the full and will be missed by all whose lives he touched.
Monday, January 21st 2008 - 10:30:16 AM
Name: Sarah Mace
E-mail address: misssarah106@aol.com
Comments:i lost my mum on the 10th aug 2007, i still cant take it all in, she had cancer for 4 years and didnt tell me or my brother, we only found out the week she died. That week seems like a blur, we were at the hospital every day, then on the 10th at 8am my step father called to say she didnt have long, we sat with her all day until she passed away at 7pm, i sat with my mum and held her hand, she looked like she was sleeping, i was so sure she was going to wake up i sat there for an hour. I still wait for the phone to ring at 5pm every day like normal, but it never does, i miss her so much, she was my mum and my best friend. Sarah
Wednesday, January 16th 2008 - 01:48:25 PM
Name: Lauren
Comments:In loving memory of Marie. I miss you more than words could ever say. It broke my heart to lose you but you didn't go alone, for part of me went with you the day God called home.
I love you with all my heart. xoxox
Friday, January 11th 2008 - 03:41:30 PM
Name: Carolyn Hall
E-mail address: carolynclyn@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Tribute to my grandmother who brought me up as though I was her daughter. I love you to bits, and I will never forget you.

MARGARET MCKINLEY 18/02/38 - 30/12/07
Sunday, January 6th 2008 - 09:15:56 PM
Name: julie logan
E-mail address: julie.logan74@yahoo.com
Comments:My wonderful partner Paul died suddenly in APril at the young age of 32, he died in his sleep so the shock was unbelieveable, me and our 2 kids miss him more than words can say, i dont think we will ever get over this. MISS AND LOVE YOU FOREVER PAUL FROM JULIE, LEAH AND DEAN XXXXXX
Saturday, January 5th 2008 - 01:18:37 AM
Name: Sandi Smith
E-mail address: j.friend13@btinternet.com
Comments:My darling Jimmy, my heart and soul went with you when you passed away. memories of wonder and magic of our beautiful short time together are what keeps me going from day to day until its time for me to be with you once more. this time painfree and forever. sleep in peace
your beloved Sandi
Tuesday, January 1st 2008 - 11:25:45 PM
Name: Victoria Mendoza
E-mail address: vickieemendoza@hotmail.com
Comments:If tears could bring you back you would be standing with me now! I miss you so so much, you are my best friend, for always and forever, and I will never forget a moment. My darling cousin I love you with every inch of my heart and I don't know how I will keep going but I will because you would want me to be strong! I love you Kerrie, I love you so much, and I miss you even more! My angel, my darling keep smiling! xx
Friday, December 21st 2007 - 11:01:55 PM
Name: Chrissy
E-mail address: uncledean1@verizon.net
Comments:I lost my husband on February 20,2007,at the young age of 42.He passed away only 4 days after diagnosis of pancreatic cancer.I had no time to digest the news or tell and prepare our 8yr. old daughter of his diagnosis. Days don't get easier they seem to get longer.We miss him more and more with each passing day.Dean,until we meet again at the gates of paradise,continue to stay around us and keep giving us signs.All my love always.My lonely heart still aches for you.
Sunday, December 16th 2007 - 03:20:16 AM
Name: David fone
E-mail address: david_fone@hotmail.com
Comments:i hope i will meet you again soon i miss you so much
i find it hard to be without you all this time i will be there soon
Wednesday, December 5th 2007 - 08:32:20 PM
Name: Linda
E-mail address: hayes;83@yahoo.com
Comments:I lost my beautiful and funny soulmate in May 2005 and I am still grieving badly for him. I am told time is a great healer - but I hurt so much. He died so suddenly I didn't even say goodbye. He leaves behind two good sons who try and help but we all miss Alfie so very much. He was only 57 and was getting over a bad car crash. It just seems so cruel.
Tuesday, December 4th 2007 - 11:53:27 PM
Name: David fone
E-mail address: david_fone@hotmail.com
Comments:

IN LOVING MEMORIE OF JANETTE FONE
HOW PAST AWAY ON THE 04/10/07 AFTER
A SHORT ILLNES YOU WILL BE MISSED
A THOUSAND WORDS WON'T BRING YOU BACK
I KNOW BECAUSE I'VE TRIED
NEITHER WILL A MILLION TEARS
I KNOW BECAUSE I'VE CRIED
THEY SAY MEMORIES ARE TOTREASURE TO SOME THAT MAY BE TRUE
I NEVER WANTED MEMORIES I ONLY WANTED YOU

Thursday, November 29th 2007 - 05:46:30 PM
Name: Karen
E-mail address: karen_mclaughlan@msn.com
Comments:I lost my angel baby boy in Nov 2005. I love and miss him so much. You'll never be forgotten my darling. In my thoughts and my heart forever. All my love Mummy xxxxx
Wednesday, November 28th 2007 - 02:45:39 PM
Name: Mandy Davison
E-mail address: mandybacc@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:In 2000 I met the most wonderful man, I loved him instantly we were best friends and sole mates. This summer we found out his cancer was terminal, they gave him one year to live. We brought our wedding forward to 14/09/07 it was a truly magical day. On 3rd of October 2007 Graham lost his fight. I don't know how I feel, it dosen't feel real and I feel guilty that I get up every moring and do normal things how can I do this when someone I loved so much has gone. I feel that I have transported into a new life that I didn't want to be in, I was so happy with my old life. We have four teenagers from previous marriages and without them I would simply not get through. For their love and strenght I am eternally grateful.
Sunday, November 25th 2007 - 10:57:29 AM
Name: Josephine Joseph
E-mail address: jojoseph09@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://://dreambook.com/davlyn/main.html
Comments:Although I lost both my parents in the 80's and early 90's I still think of them every single day. I often dream of my beloved parents and I know they are with us and guiding us. Dad I watched you go from a strong man to a child, that terrible Dementia! Mam we lost you to the big C and though you were in so much pain you were so brave. Im so proud of you both and proud to be your daughter. I love you both. Jo (and family).
Monday, November 19th 2007 - 11:55:50 PM
Name: evelyn
E-mail address: racheljames@BLUEUONDER.CO.UK
Comments:I lost my husband on the 22april 2007 and i miss him so much always in my thoughts he was only 63years
Saturday, November 17th 2007 - 09:10:40 PM
Name: evelyn
E-mail address: racheljames@BLUEUONDER.CO.UK
Comments:I LOST MY HUSBAND OF 39YEARS ON THE 22APRIL 2007 HE DIED OF HIGH GRADE LYMPHOMA I MISS HIM SO MUCH MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME I HAVE A LOVING FAMILY 3 GRANDCHILDREN ONE WHO NEVER MET THEIR PAPA GOD BLESS JIM
Saturday, November 17th 2007 - 04:28:49 PM
Name: Rosanne Hosken
E-mail address: rosannehosken@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my mother to colon and liver cancer on 27th May 2006 at the age of 60. She was my best friend and since then I have been lost without her.
Saturday, November 3rd 2007 - 11:41:24 PM
Name: david fone
E-mail address: david_fone@hotmail.com
Comments:i lost my wife on the 04/10/07 i miss her so much i whant to go with here now . i have had the best years she was only 56 and i was her toyboy at 43
Sunday, October 21st 2007 - 07:23:53 PM
Name: Graham
E-mail address: lowradiationmpr2@gmail.com
Comments:Lost my wife and soul mate 7th October 2007 to cancer. Horrible degrading disease. Feel better, twisted, cheated and extremely lonely, married for 24 years and the only friend I ever needed is gone.
Saturday, October 20th 2007 - 07:43:45 PM
Name: George
E-mail address: gumba66@webtv.net
Homepage URL: http://www.georgiestevensonmemorialfund.com
Comments:Hi I enjoyed my stay in your beautiful website. I lost my son in 1979. He was just 12. Visit my humble site and visit with my MEMORIAL ANGELS. God Bless.. George
Saturday, October 13th 2007 - 08:47:10 PM
Name: Lana McGarry
E-mail address: lana.mcgarry@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:My dear dad passed away 28 years ago aged 43, i miss and love you, then my precious nan an angel in heaven as she was on earth. My dear brother 3 years ago we as a family still mourn your passing. You will never be forgotten you all live on within us. Till we meet again, goodnight godbless my angels.xx
Saturday, October 6th 2007 - 07:31:45 PM
Name: Philomena
E-mail address: pbbb99@yahoo.com
Comments:My husband and soul mate passed away on 6 May 2007 from cancer, he was 48 yrs old. We never had children and now I feel alone in this empty world where my routin is the same but nothing is ever going to be the same again. It is now over four months since he passed away but the heartache increases by the day.
I'm snot sure where or how to go from here?
Tuesday, September 25th 2007 - 04:05:33 PM
Name: Danielle Marshall
E-mail address: dannii417@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:i lost my beautiful baby daughter Ruby Morgan on new years eve 2005, she was just 3 days old. some times i just feel so angrey with life, life gave me my daughter then after just a fews days took her away again. she never moved she never cried she only opened her eyes to say goodbye.
Your love is like the wind
i can't see it
but i feel it
always and forever in my heart
mammy
xxxx
Monday, September 24th 2007 - 01:13:45 AM
Name: kay johnson
E-mail address: kayvj@shaw.ca
Comments:I lost my beloved 21 year old daughter Jemma in a hot air balloon accident August 24th 2007. Soar high my precious Angel til we meet again one day.
Saturday, September 22nd 2007 - 11:38:03 AM
Name: kay johnson
E-mail address: kayvj@shaw.ca
Saturday, September 22nd 2007 - 11:36:21 AM
Name: Louise Prevost
E-mail address: lprev@btopenworld.com
Comments:In the past three and a half years I have gone through seven bereavements. The key one being my Dad who died aged 58 suddenly on 11 May 2004. I still cannot believe it and know in my heart I will never get over it. Today feels worse than yesterday because it is one more day than the day before and time just moves on from when I last spoke to him. My Dad was everything to me and still is. Very few people get to experience the kind of relationship I had with him and it is very hard trying to explain to them how I feel when they expect me to be getting better.
Dad, if you are listening I am still waiting for your message. Love always.
Friday, September 21st 2007 - 10:52:31 PM
Name: nanette copping
E-mail address: x-hurricane-of-emotions-x@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:hi i lost my daughter on 29 november 2005 who i miss so much she was only 11 years old & no matter how i try i am still finding it very hard to come to terms with her not being here anymore, some days are worse than others.
Friday, September 21st 2007 - 09:50:57 PM
Name: sue julian
E-mail address: sue.julian@hotmail.com
Comments:my husband died 18 june 07after 23 years together im very glad i found this page the music told me it was right my husband was a liverpool fan!! and the footprints were what we believed, i still talk to him i miss you so much my darling love you forever sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Friday, September 7th 2007 - 09:50:04 PM
Name: sue julian
E-mail address: sue.julian@hotmail.com
Comments:i lost my husband on the 18 june this year we had been together 23 years and i miss him so much i talk to him still!! love you my darling phil his name is phil julian aged 42
Friday, September 7th 2007 - 09:39:52 PM
Name: sue julian
E-mail address: sue.julian@hotmail.com
Friday, September 7th 2007 - 09:31:30 PM
Name: sharon
E-mail address: sharon_john_2000@yahoo.com
Comments:I lost my precious husband on 7th February 2007. They say time heals but it just gets worse especially when first birthdays and anniversaries comae along without him. My anniversary is on 13th September, we would have been married 32 years. Happy anniversary my wonderful husband.

All my love always,
Sharon xxxx
Friday, September 7th 2007 - 05:44:02 PM
Name: shell
Comments:my darling dad died 4th august 2007 i was looking for a breavment site and this one came up i could not belive it when i heard the music. It was what my dad wanted to be played at his funeral.
Tuesday, September 4th 2007 - 05:04:56 PM
Name: John
Comments:Thanks for this. My partner was killed & I was numb. I cant get over it but I have got a new life, and that is possible. Love is the only thing worth anything, and I had to give up hating and find my humanity and affirm it over & over.

Good luck
John
Friday, August 31st 2007 - 12:37:16 AM
Name: Alison Edwards
Comments:My beloved mother passed away on 5th August only 27 days after she was diagnosed with lung cancer. My life will never be the same and I miss her dreadfully.
Saturday, August 11th 2007 - 01:10:24 PM
Name: Charlie East
E-mail address: c.east@rl.ac.uk
Comments:Ilost my wife, Jane in June 2006 to cancer and still miss her so much.This is the second time in my life this has happened to me as my first wife died in 1979 aged 25 with Leukaemia. It seems much harder this time but I have been going to group therapy sessions which have been a great help and would recommend to anyone
Friday, August 10th 2007 - 02:11:06 PM
Name: sharon mclean
E-mail address: sharon.mclean@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I LOST MY SON KEVIN ON THE 28TH SEPTEMBER 06
KEVIN WAS 20 YEARS AND HAD SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR
HE PASSED AWAY IN HIS SLEEP FOR NO REASON IT WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE
MISS AND LOVE YOU MILLIONS
MUM
Thursday, August 9th 2007 - 10:08:16 AM
Name: Tracey Ruddy
E-mail address: tracey.ruddy@nhs.net
Comments:We lost our mam on 15 March 2007, after a long illness, i have 4 brothers and 1 sister, we thought we had prepared ourselves, but we hadn't, we miss her so much , not able to phone or visit, we all love and miss you mam, god bless,
love Tracey, Julie, Wayne, Paul, Craig and Scott. xxxxxxx
Tuesday, August 7th 2007 - 08:24:45 AM
Name: myra.gibson
E-mail address: myra.gibson@btinternet.com
Comments:many thanks dave
Tuesday, July 31st 2007 - 09:42:36 PM
Name: julie (malcolm normans cousin)
E-mail address: juliemills219@btinternet.com
Homepage URL: http://books.dreambook.com/davlyn/main.html
Comments:i lost my cousin mala norman. they say that time is a healer but it never seems to get any easier. i miss him so much he was too young but i know he will be with our nanna looking after each other. god bless. always in my heart and thoughts xxxxx julie xxxxx
Monday, July 30th 2007 - 12:30:44 AM
Name: vero
E-mail address: verouandji@hotmail.com
Comments:TIME PASSES AND IT STILL SEEM LIKE WE ARE IN DREAMLAND, HOPING IT IS NOT TRUE
Thursday, July 26th 2007 - 07:21:08 PM
Name: lisa orrgarde
E-mail address: lixeni@hotmail.com
Comments:i lost the best dad in the world on the 23rd June this year, he was 47 years old. he has left behind 4 kids, my brother who is 21, my self (i am 19) and my 2 sisters who are 6 and 8 years old. His wife and the rest of the family also miss him so much. I love my dad so much, we all do - i just want 2 speak to him and see him like normal. i dont understand why i cant speak to him. dont know how to move on, i cant move on. i just want my dad.......i just really want my dad back!
Thursday, July 26th 2007 - 06:02:54 PM
Name: Julie
E-mail address: Juliewh007@aol.com
Comments:I lost my wonderful hubby Brian on the 7th May 2007 - the worst day ever. After 31 years together its hard to know how I will live without him - although everyone says I will - it doesn't seem possible.
Friday, July 13th 2007 - 07:09:12 AM
Name: Cara Osborne
E-mail address: cara.osborne@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my dad on 15th February 2007 following a short illness COPD and operation to cure it. My sister died when she was 26 of a bad epileptic fit just two weeks before I gave birth to my son. My mum was killed whilst on her pushbike aged 29 when I was 8 years old. I am now orphaned aged 32 years. Life sucks. Even though I have a wonderful husband and two gorgeous children sometimes life doesn's seem worth living, whats the point, everyone I've ever loved are dead and at such a young age. I don't know why I feel this way. I should be grateful for my 'new family' is it because I'm worried something will happen to them, am I jinxed. I have good days and bad days but if I'm feeling down I remember all the good times I had with my dad.and what I can remember about my sister and few memories of my mum.

I
Saturday, July 7th 2007 - 09:50:56 PM
Name: james palmer
E-mail address: jameslizzman@aol.com
Comments:Hello from Augusta, GA it is sickingly and humid hot here.
Winter will raise my spirits.
Saturday, June 30th 2007 - 04:17:43 AM
Name: Donna
E-mail address: donna.harvey@westcountryha.org.uk
Comments:I lost my grandad a few years ago now but am still finding it hard to come to terms with. My mum was an only chid who brought me up on her own with my nan and grandads support.
I remember the weekends spent at my grandparents why my mum worked to make a living. Going up the allotment on a sunday morning and the britsh legion in the afternoon with my grandad why my nan made a roast for the evening. The small things that my grandad used to do to make me laugh, singing my way by Frank Sinatra will never leave me and counting his loose change and making out it was left for me. I am finding it hard to not smell a jumper that he used to wear that has his scent, i am about to move on with my life i have met a great man who is in the forces who i know my grandad would like. I just wish he was here to see it all for himself. I love you Grandad so so much and i miss you now more then ever as my life is changing. Please keep looking down on me. I love you grandad x x x x
Tuesday, June 12th 2007 - 04:33:59 PM
Name: myra.gibson
E-mail address: myra.gibson@btinternet.com
Comments:thanks so much Dave i can express my feelings about my son i have more to say but i can't concentrate just yet, thank you so much x
Tuesday, June 5th 2007 - 10:25:36 PM
Name: vero
E-mail address: verouandji@hotmail.com
Comments:It is comforting to be able to click my computer and GET REASSUARING WORDS FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION AS YOU ARE.
Tuesday, June 5th 2007 - 08:02:05 PM
Name: mam
E-mail address: myra.gibson@btinternrt.com
Comments:my son mal died on the 29 dec at marie curie hospice, he was 26, he didn't have cancer, he was so ill with ulcerations in his legs his pain was unbearable, he was admitted to get his pain at (bay)thats what i was told, then he would be coming back home to me, to me and all concerned he was given too much morphine to keep him out of pain, finally his life ebbed away, he fought for his life but it was not to be, we love and miss him so much, an angel in heaven son till we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sunday, June 3rd 2007 - 09:44:21 PM
Name: MC
E-mail address: squifflet@hotmail.com
Comments:I am 28 years old and lost my Dad suddenly on 21st January 2007. He was 55 years old. He had a heart attack and died instantly whilst out driving in the car with my brother. He was a fit and healthy man and so influential on all of our lives; we are all devastated. My Mum is struggling to accept a life without him; my brother, sister and I are so upset about all the things yet to happen that he'll never see/be a part of. Dad was a very intelligent man, always reading/thinking/talking and so I hope that being part of this group allows me to do the same.
Monday, May 28th 2007 - 04:48:15 PM
Name: LESLEY BETTS
E-mail address: l.betts826@btinternet.com
Comments:Mum, left us so suddenly on the 21st April, how I wish that I could speak to her just one more time. Mum was my only friend, she always knew instintively what to say or do to make things better for us all. Since Mum died my time has been taken up with Dad, my siblings, Mum's garden and pets. This helps a little but what do I do now?
Thanks for this dreambook, thanks for giving me the space.
Saturday, May 26th 2007 - 03:43:28 PM
Name: Denise
E-mail address: denise1evans@btinternet.com
Comments:I lost my husband Gary really suddenly on 13th April 2007. He was only 46 and we have two children aged 14 and 12. We are all devastated. I am struggling not knowing if I am looking after our childrens emotional wellfare right. I feel lonely and lost as we had been together for 30 years. Why did this have to happen to us?
Tuesday, May 22nd 2007 - 11:01:24 AM
Name: Janice Godfrey
E-mail address: kenjan4@aol.com
Monday, May 21st 2007 - 02:32:13 PM
Name: Robin Tedder
E-mail address: robintedder_goldleaf@msn.com
Comments:I lost my dear Mum on 19th April 2007. I can stop thinking about her not being on the end of a phone or to visit. Her cheery personality made her a friend to so many. She will be sadly missed.

I feel that a part of me has gone forever and that there is nothing i can do to heal this wound in my soul. I cant even talk about how i really feel even with my wife as i get so upset.

God bless you mum.
Friday, May 18th 2007 - 03:05:08 AM
Name: Lyn
E-mail address: lynmcardle@btinternet.com
Comments:i lost my dad 15 years ago but it still feels like yesterday, he was taken very suddenly at 61 and the man eho helped me to get through this my uncle has just died at 69 life seems to very unfair, i know i should be greatful that they reached this age but it doesnt make it any easier
Monday, May 14th 2007 - 08:54:28 PM
Name: ann
E-mail address: anne102@nlueyonder.co.uk
Comments:i lost my dad on october the 11th 2006.
he was 56 and very sudden he had a heart attack while playing golf. Although im still hurting as he was my life, at least i know he would not wanted to go any other way.
i just wish i could have said my goodbyes before he had to go.
Sunday, May 13th 2007 - 06:12:37 PM
Name: Clair
E-mail address: justhurryuk@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://www.lee-anthony-jones-gonetosoon.co.uk
Comments:My partner committed suicide in april this year, he leaves behind his two beautiful daughters, please visit their website. How are children expected to deal wiv this. Let god help him rest in peace
Friday, May 11th 2007 - 02:27:02 AM
Name: letty
E-mail address: letitiamorello@msn.com
Comments:I JUST LOST MY HUSBAND MARCH 14,2007 AFTER 20 YRS
HE HAD MULTIPLE SICKNESSES,IVE NEVER FELT SO ALONE. I DONT NO WHAT TO DO, I MISS HIM SO MUCH, HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND, I STAYED WITH HIM TILL THE END, AND STILL WONDER WHY HE WENT,YOU REALLY DONT KNOW UNTIL THIER GONE,WHAT A TERIBLE LOSS, CANT EXPLAIN,I WISH HE DIDNT GO. HE WAS 61YRS OLD IM 54YRS.LIFE DONT HAVE THE SAME VALUE TO ME ANYMORE,IM SO SAD ALL I DO IS THINK OF HIMAND CRY, MISS YOU ROCKY, LOVE YOUR WIFE LETTY XOXOXOXOXO SEE YOU AGAIN SOMEDAY.
Friday, May 4th 2007 - 02:20:44 PM
Name: cat
E-mail address: cat_kyle.ellie@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:my mum is at the end of her terminal illness and i dont know where to turn, there is plenty of places to go to get help for loosin someone but what about when they are still here but in a matter of days wont be?
Wednesday, May 2nd 2007 - 07:14:47 PM
Name: Lezah
E-mail address: embracelife1@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost the love of my life ,my darling husband aged 55 years,
life is so empty. I never felt pain like this before.
Friday, April 27th 2007 - 08:06:27 PM
Name: vicky
E-mail address: k.bostock3@ntlworld.com
Comments:i lost my mum May 2006, it was a sudden death, i miss her so much more now, but time is a good healing, while here hoping
Wednesday, April 25th 2007 - 09:35:29 PM
Name: John Washington.
E-mail address: washy1@ntlworld.com
Comments:Remembering my loving sister Kathleen, we are always thinking about you, with loving memories your brother John Joan Gerard John and Maria.
Monday, April 23rd 2007 - 08:13:50 PM
Name: John Washington.
E-mail address: washy1@ntlworld.com
Comments:KATH, WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU, FOR THE LOVELY LADY YOU WERE..YOUR LOVING BROTHER, JOHN&JOAN.
Wednesday, April 18th 2007 - 04:11:14 PM
Name: Stephen Padden
E-mail address: stepad@aol.com
Comments:Thinking of you always,

all my love,

Stephen xx
Monday, April 16th 2007 - 01:32:41 PM
Name: John Padden
E-mail address: Stepad@aol.com
Comments:Still sadly missed.

All our love John, Tina, William & John. xx
Monday, April 16th 2007 - 01:30:47 PM
Name: Rose Padden
E-mail address: Stepad@aol.com
Comments:A little thought,
A silent tear,
Wishing that you where still here.

Missing you loads,
Rose & John xx
Monday, April 16th 2007 - 01:25:48 PM
Name: Peter Washington
E-mail address: pjw23444@blueyonder.co.uk
Saturday, April 14th 2007 - 12:50:34 AM
Name: Christine Lindsay
E-mail address: christine_lindsay@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my husband on 30th June 2006 to cancer. I have had lots of support from my family,my mother was a great support as she was the same age as me 54 yrs when we lost my dad.But sadly we lost our mother on the 9th Jan this year.My mother was 77yrs when she died of cancer, plus we didn't know that she had it when i lost my husband. I now feel very alone as the rest of my family are grieving as well, they do still care but like you said the phone calls do not come so frequent. I now feel that i need to talk to other women that have and are going through the same trauma as myself
Friday, April 13th 2007 - 10:20:44 AM
Name: Jan
E-mail address: janstevepaige@btinternet.co.uk
Comments:Thanks Dave for doing the tribute to my darling daughter Paige.
Wednesday, March 28th 2007 - 05:39:03 AM
Name: Charles Pocklington
E-mail address: cp130738@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:Excellent site,----well worth the visit,should have music in the back ground like some of the American sites that I had been browsing around,--- and they add that little bit of tranquil affect.
Saturday, March 24th 2007 - 07:15:23 PM
Name: Dave (Site Owner)
Homepage URL: http://bereavementuk.co.uk
Comments:Today I lost a friend to cancer. It was diagnosed at Christmas and it took his life this morning. He was only 58 and he gave me many happy times that I will hold in my heart forever.

Rest in peace Keith.

Dave

Bereavementuk site owner.
Friday, March 23rd 2007 - 03:44:08 PM
Name: jackie crozier
E-mail address: jaxcroz@msn.com
Comments:I lost my sister and nephew to a drunk driver in tenerife on 31st August 2001. I will never get over their deaths and it has resulted in me having stays in my local psychiatric hospital about every 7-10 months. I do not know what to do and find it very hard to cope at times. I have tried ending my life in the hope that i would be closer to my loved ones but that obviously did not work. My sister was 31 and my nephew was 6 I often imagine what they would be like now.
Friday, March 23rd 2007 - 02:51:22 PM
Name: Rich Swart
E-mail address: richswart1@hotmail.com
Comments:I am a bereaved parent and facilitator of meetings for a support group of bereaved parents. The topic of dreams has frequently come up over the years. I thought it would be helpful if bereaved people had a chance to share their dreams with others as a means of positively dealing with grief. Please check the following website, and if you think it might be helpful, kindly share the URL with others.

Thank you, http://healingdreams.blogspot.com

Rich Swart
Thursday, March 22nd 2007 - 12:06:31 AM
Name: paula whybrow
E-mail address: paulawhybrow@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I have just lost my husband, my only love since i was 14. He died from a brain tumour, a horrible disease that cruelly robbed him of his sight, his personality, and his life in 7 months. I cant believe this has happened to us!
Tuesday, March 20th 2007 - 11:05:16 PM
Name: Rita Smith
E-mail address: ritajean2006@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:MY HUSBAND WAS KILLED BY A DRUNK DRIVER IN THAILAND ON THE 29TH DEC 2006
ALTHOUGH I SAW HIM IM STILL WAITING FOR HIM AS IF HE HAS JUST GONE SOMEWHERE.
WONT GRIEVE FOR HIM CANT DONT WANT TO BE ALONE.
Tuesday, March 20th 2007 - 08:01:13 AM
Name: Sheila D
E-mail address: sheila@frankcarroll.co.uk
Comments:I lost my wonderful husband on 9th February after a number of serious hospital blunders. Just when we thought he was getting better and was due to be moved to have a pacemaker fitted, he was left and his heart monitor was not heard. After 36 hours in ICU the love of my life died leaving me with a desperate 11 year old son. I miss him so desperately and don't know how to cope without him and feel like I never will.

Sheila
Monday, March 19th 2007 - 03:41:37 PM
Name: Jo Harrison
E-mail address: Joanneharrison77@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my darling mum on March 10th 2007 to lymphoma cancer. She was diagnosed in 1996 but beat it then. She was re diagnosed in November 2006 but caught a hospital bug. I have a 6 month old son and am finding it hard to cope with the loss of my best friend in the world. I keep wishing she could come back but know this is impossible. It doesnt feel like it is happening. I hope she knows how much I love her.
Tuesday, March 13th 2007 - 10:42:42 PM
Name: lucy slater
E-mail address: mbabalucy@aol.com
Comments:My Darling partner paul was taken from me on the 11th february 2007. He was a biker and a woman didnt stop at a junction and killed him. I feel so alone and empty, i was travelling behind him at the time and was with him at the end. I love him so much our life was perfect and we had just bought a new house and were planning children. I keep surronding myself with all his things but just cant rid myself of the hollow dark feeling i have. I dont know how to move on
I dont know what to do
Wednesday, March 7th 2007 - 10:24:09 AM
Name: RosieMc
E-mail address: mcmillanfamily@btinternet.com
Comments:I lost my darling husband on 12th January 2007 to melanoma skin cancer, he was only diagnosed on 13th December after going to the gp thinking he had flu! On 22nd December he had a ct scan and they told us it was in his liver, lungs and head too and that he had 'short months' left! We told our children on 27th December that their daddy was going to die - the single hardest thing we've ever had to do!

He went to the hospice on 8th January as he was so weak and in so much pain, he died holding my hand on Friday 12th January.

So far i've coped reasonably well, but today I completely fell apart. It hurts so much. I'm so lonely and I just want to hug him and talk to him again. I know time will help, but the here and now is so hard.

Thanks for listening

Rosie x

Thursday, March 1st 2007 - 11:55:05 PM
Name: Hannah
E-mail address: weirdosrule@hotmail.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://animeismypassion.piczo.com
Comments:It's ok to feel pain and sadness because it will all be alright in the end.
Friday, February 23rd 2007 - 09:37:07 AM
Name: lisa ball
E-mail address: ballcameron7@aol.com
Comments:I lost my husband on New Years Eve 2006. He was conoeing with my uncle and drowned. I am so angry and so hurt, I feel that my Uncle could/should have done more. WHat also hurts is the fact after 9 years of marriage and numerous attempts at becoming pregnant I was just over three months and were telling my parents that evening, it was to be a wonderful surprise and a great year ahead. He was so looking forward to his 40th birthday this year. I not only lost my husband but also our child due to the shock. If it was not for our son whom has special needs and relies upon me I would have just driven into a brick wall to be with him. Life is unberable without him around, half of me is dead.

Tribute To My Daring Angel Alex

The first time we met was on the 15th January 1997. He was with ‘Rotoract’ handing out leaflets for people to join he chased after my sister and me to hand us a leaflet. If it was not for this leaflet I would not have met Alex.

If it was not for my sister Karen, encouraging me to go along and even holding my hand the first time, we would not have met. So thank you!! . We got on really well from the first time we met, I was besotted & intrigued by him. I could not wait for the next meeting however he somehow got my number and called me. After this we were inseparable and within weeks he asked me to marry him, I said yes instantly without any hesitation whatsoever. We wanted to do things properly, So he went to see my parents and asked my parents for my hand in marriage. They were thrilled but obviously cautious as this was very quick, for the next year we saved like mad and was together as much as we could. When I was in hospital in London he would visit during the week and drive down and stay for the weekend at the hospital. We were dedicated to each other.

On the 4th of April 98 he made me his wife and partner forever. I was the proudest woman on earth. I hope Alex from where you are you will be listening. From the first day we met to the last breath I take I will not stop ever loving you! I loved you from the first moment I saw you. You were my Guardian Angel, my Best Friend, my Husband, & my everything in life, what more could any person ask for.

I am still besotted with you after all this time and could feel my heart racing when I knew you were coming through the door, or when we were talking to each other several times a day. We always thought we could conquer anything together and nearly did.

From the 1st day to the last day together you were my world, you made me who I am now I hope I can make you proud of me. I will try my hardest to carry on what you stared out doing, although you are a tough act to follow.

My darling Alex words are never enough whilst we live but come even harder and confused when we have to put into words after such a tragedy without tears flowing down my face, I cannot believe or what to believe I will not see you my darling again. I came to see you the other day I hope you knew I was there from where you are now. I wanted to wake you up or at least you wake me up and tell me it was all a nightmare, but it wasn’t was it. I hate the thought of you being so alone.

Alex was the kindest person that I have ever met, he made people feel at ease and could offend no-one, their was no pretence. What some people did not appreciate was just how very intelligent you were. You took people at face value; you treated others as you wanted to be treated yourself. You never judged people and were a true gentleman and a fantastic person. With Alex what you saw was what you got he gave over 100% all of the time and not just part of the time.

People say that we all have regrets, but his only regret was not being with us more. He loved the holiday’s where we could be together just being a family, the one thing he was so grateful for. You often joked about having your in-laws next door, but then would say this is what a family is all about. No pretence just pure and simple love & respect for each other. My biggest regret is that I should have tried harder to stop him from going on that morning.

I was privileged and extraordinarily lucky to have known and loved a fantastic guy like you. Yes you were scatty and forgetful and sometimes had bad taste in clothes but that my darling is what made you, you. We had 10 fabulous years together and I loved you with my heart, head , body and soul I knew what you were thinking before you finished and you were the same with me. You used to put a smile on my face. I have been tremendously lucky to have loved and known you rather than never have known you at all.

I worshipped & loved you with every part of me and we were so proud to have our son Cameron, he is so much like you in every way. He misses you so much, and does not have the words to say this, but his actions speak a thousand words. You loved us both more than life itself. You also loved life and said life was too short for housework and live for now, how right you were darling. You made me feel complete, there are no words to describe how much I miss you, apart from I only feel half alive now. Alex if you are listening I LOVE YOU, adore you, now & forever more with all of my heart, body and soul. I will never meet another person in the whole of my natural life who made me feel so complete & loved no-one could meet your standards, nor would I want them to you were unique, and had very high standards and values, my heart is broken in two without you and no-one my angel could fill this. Alex you will remain with me forever more, you were my life and my everything I ever wanted, I love you darling I truly do. My Angel please be at peace and watch over us till time brings us together again.

Please take care and continue to watch and care for us from where you are, never stop loving me and Cameron, I will ensure he will never forget what a wonderful person/daddy he had

Love you always Lisa & Cameron
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xxxxxxxxx one for each year of your life
Wednesday, February 21st 2007 - 10:57:48 AM
Name: Mel
E-mail address: wtsml6@aol.com
Comments:i lost my wonderfull husband of 27 years last may, there was no sign anything was wrong, i woke up to find him lying dead beside me, i just cant get past that sudden shock, and i think not getting the chance to say good buy is making it so much harder,i just dont see the sence with life anymore
Thursday, February 15th 2007 - 05:18:52 PM
Name: carly
E-mail address: courtney.howes@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I lost my wonderful mum on 27 dec 07 when she decided she had had enough of fighting her battle against cancer,she fought so hard,but now she can rest.Although this was expected i find it almost impossible to believe that she is not with us anymore,every minute of everyday is a struggle, i miss her so much the pain is almost unbearable.But i have a heartbroken dad that i must try and be strong for as he has lost an amazing wife of 33 years and i know that mum would not have wanted us to give up hope.
Thursday, February 15th 2007 - 02:37:03 PM
Name: Denise
E-mail address: denise.collins04@gmail.com
Homepage URL: http://www.remembered-forever.org
Comments:This is a wonderful site, thank you for the effort and hardwork that went into making this!

Denise xx
Wednesday, February 14th 2007 - 04:14:50 PM
Name: Rose Wasley
E-mail address: rosewasley@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my husband to Cancer, May 1997. He would have turned 55 years young in August that year. In March 1998, incredibly so - my Dad too, also to Cancer. HE had been a fit and very healthy man for as long as I can recall. During the 10 years since my precious TJ [hubby] passed, 5 more people in our close circle have also passed due to Cancer! It makes it so difficult to heal, to move on. The ghosts, painful reminders of the loss are lingering. I am feeling VERY sad at the moment, cannaot come to grips with having lost my best friend, confidante. We only had 9 1/2 years together, yet it seemed a lifetime! Anyway, for some reason I decided that a keyword search on google might help....... Angels at work! Because - I found this great site! THANKYOU - I am already feeling uplifted.
God bless
Saturday, February 10th 2007 - 09:39:55 PM
Name: pamela hall
E-mail address: pamandlily@googlemail.com
Friday, February 9th 2007 - 06:33:17 PM
Name: lyndsay
E-mail address: l.carpe@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my younger brother Craig 22 to leukemia last year. It hurts like hell still today more than ever it doesnt get easier its like you learn to live with it even though you dont want to.He fought the disease to the bitter end and always stayed positive choosing not to ever talk about mabye not surviving, his positivity and ommph for life goes on in his memory i just wish i felt the same.Its us his sister, mother , brother etc who have died not him.
Tuesday, February 6th 2007 - 12:50:34 PM
Name: micky
E-mail address: micky42@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:Ilost my beloved husband,soulmate,bestest friend,the world could ever give 3rd sept 2005 age 42years he was my love my life.taken suddenly, no time to prepare. life is so cruel, we our cildren, myself miss him so very much our lives will never be the same again. Im saddened to see so many losses on this site. but feel i am not alone in my grieving. I too still ask that question WHY?
Sunday, February 4th 2007 - 01:31:47 AM
Name: angela mcneil
E-mail address: RYAN_@HOTMAIL.COM
Saturday, February 3rd 2007 - 03:16:40 PM
Name: jaci
E-mail address: cypresseed@yaho.com
Comments:I read your guestbook and I felt really sad and I cried, loads.
Iwant to say more but I think there is no point.
There is actually no point in me stating that either.
So I'll just go.
Thursday, January 25th 2007 - 11:36:22 PM
Name: Angie Coleman
E-mail address: angieisme2002@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:My Dad died on January 1st 2007 and even though it has only been 3 weeks it feels like forever. Time seems to be moving so slowly. Of course I am sad that he has gone but I know that he walks with me every day and hears me when I speak to him and I am certain that he is watching over his grandaughter every minute of every day. Please don't ask me how I know these things, all I know is that I know. This knowlege has been a massive comfort to me. I also know that he had to die in order to rid himself of the cancer that consumed him for 2 years. All of that has now gone and he is happy again and he is still my Dad and I am still his Daughter.
Wednesday, January 24th 2007 - 11:49:00 PM
Name: deb hooper
E-mail address: hooper4660@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:my dad passed away 4th dec 2006.came out of nowhere.cant believe hes gone.why oh why did he have 2 go?my heart feels broken and i feel empty inside.we were there by your side love u 4ever my caring dad/grandad.it hurts so much does it ever get any easier?love miss u alwaysxkiss 2 allxx a true gashead supporter til t end.xx great site 2 listen 2 me cryx
Sunday, January 21st 2007 - 06:34:28 PM
Name: Angie from Stevenage
E-mail address: morselady@hotmail.com
Homepage URL: http://www.qsl.net/g0hga/
Comments:IN MEMORIUM to JOHN ARTHUR SITTON, my beloved husband and soulmate who passed away with severe pneumonia and other lung compolications on Sunday morning 3rd December 2006 before I could get to the hospital. It was thought he probably had lung cancer. It would have been our 45th Wedding Anniversary on the 22nd December.

I found this lovely website whilst looking for a Yahoo Support Group to join and have found one. Thank you and God Bless you all and hold you in His Loving arms.

Angie
Wednesday, January 17th 2007 - 01:12:13 AM
Name: jenny
E-mail address: jnny wren@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:this is a great place to talk about your sorrow,dosen't take it away but it helps a lot
thank you jenny
Tuesday, January 16th 2007 - 12:55:46 AM
Name: ruthcampbell
E-mail address: ruth@metro-internet-centre.co.uk
Comments:to my husband, friend and soul mate my love for you will never die you were "simply the best"
Sunday, January 14th 2007 - 11:29:41 PM
Name: Sharon Natalie Hosam
E-mail address: sharon_hosam@yahoo.ca
Comments:In Loving Memory of "KELVIN HOSAM" who departed this world into the Hands Of Our Heavenly Father May 05, 2006


We little knew that morning that God was going to all your name,

In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone,

For part of us went with you, the day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide,

And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same,

But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

From your daughter...forever in my heart
Love Natalie
Saturday, January 13th 2007 - 04:58:31 AM
Name: dave
E-mail address: davidjones007@hotmail.com
Comments:i have lost my wife to brain cancer after 33 years of wonderfull happyness........ i thought i was the only person in the world who felt like this{total emptyness }i am so pleased to have found this site, and now realise that there are others who are feeling the same sorrow, and i wish that i could fill their emptyness so they dont feel as i do .........may your days get lighter.....
Thursday, January 11th 2007 - 01:50:10 AM
Name: jennifer
E-mail address: jyoney@aol.com
Comments:In memory of my Big Sister, Anne died 15th Dec 2002 aged 45 years and of my Beloved Dad, David Harrison Mulligan, Died 19th Dec 2006. Always loved and remembered from Jennifer, Lisa ,Elaine , David and of course, Mum.

You never stop loving your Daddy.
Saturday, January 6th 2007 - 09:25:39 PM
Name: robert harvison
E-mail address: robertharvison@hotmail.com
Comments:an uplifting site
it has helped me no end following the unexpected death of my younger brother.
I will not forget such kindness.
Monday, January 1st 2007 - 11:26:45 AM
Name: Magaret Sutherland
E-mail address: mags010@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I lost my husand, Murdo Sutherland earleir this year and now feel very lost and alone as New Year approaches. I miss him so much and just long for the phone to ring a bit more often and for someone to walk through the door.
Saturday, December 30th 2006 - 05:37:31 PM
Name: derek hazel
E-mail address: derekhazel1483@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:a truly wonderful site
Monday, December 18th 2006 - 08:02:07 PM
Name: debbie shah
E-mail address: deborah.shah@ntlworld.com
Comments:i lost my beautiful husband on the 15th november 2006 he was 29 years old. We have three sons aged 14, 10 and 6 years old, life is so hard without him. He committed suicide which is even harder for us to come to terms with. This website is really helping by reading all the lovely messages on it thank you
Sunday, December 17th 2006 - 08:21:31 PM
Name: debbie shah
E-mail address: deborah.shah@ntlworld.com
Sunday, December 17th 2006 - 08:14:48 PM
Name: minneapolis
E-mail address: ser34hal@yahoo.com
Homepage URL: http://refinancing.allgoogle.pp.ru
Comments:Greetings! The Internet is a rubbish pit of the world! How many mucks I he met! But your site only pleases me. Thanks the founder for his its insight and resource. Good-bye! .You the admirer.
Sunday, December 17th 2006 - 02:31:35 PM
Name: sylvana
E-mail address: sylvanasavvas@hotmail.com
Comments:On 29 August 2006 my fit,happy handsome husband died of a heart attack at the age of 37. Telling our two children age 4 and age 6 was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I've always been the type of person who wants to help everyone but the pain is still so raw for me to help anyone else other than my children and myself. However, after reading people's messages on this site I want to help and I think by helping others it will me too. Email me.
Monday, December 4th 2006 - 12:31:56 AM
Name: yvonne broadbent
E-mail address: ivvy@fsmail.net
Comments:To my brother Gary, who was taken so suddenly from us on 17th August 1993.
You meant the worls to me and I love and miss you so much.
Eternal love

Your sister, Yvonne xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Friday, December 1st 2006 - 09:11:34 AM
Name: christine
E-mail address: cd1789@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my husband eleven weeks ago today[sep 14]he was taken ill 2 days before and died during surgery.It was such a shock.Life is so unfair ,we miss him so much.He was only 44,we still had so many plans for the future.
Thursday, November 30th 2006 - 11:51:01 AM
Name: Angela
Comments:I lost my dad & sons there grandad 1year ago today but only feels like it was yesterday. I also lost my mum almost 5months ago and we are still trying to get our heads round it. I fell across this site tonight and reading peoples hurt, helps you realise that you are not alone with your grief. We have comfort in knowing they are together but still for a selfish moment would have them back.
Sunday, November 26th 2006 - 02:19:32 AM
Name: sally molloy
E-mail address: sallym.roserpink@virgin.net
Comments:I lost my mum,14th august 1995. Today my sister in law's Mother died. It stirred such painful memories, and such sadness as my youngest daughter remebers her only in photos
Thursday, November 23rd 2006 - 10:15:22 PM
Name: Anne Kinder
E-mail address: annekkinder@msn.co.uk
Comments:My husband died peacefully at home very suddently one Sunday morning last year. He had been poorly for a long time but wasn't expected to die. It was an awful shock and I miss him more every day.I speak to him and know that he is always there for me as he has been during our life together
Sunday, November 19th 2006 - 12:19:56 PM
Name: Elizabeth
E-mail address: liz@armcom.co.uk
Comments:Great site
Thursday, November 16th 2006 - 04:36:57 PM
Name: mark holmes
E-mail address: mark.cathy@toucansurf.com
Comments:I lost my handsome son age 20 on September 10th 2006. He was killed when a tractor turned in front of his beloved motorbike. He was more than my son he was my best friend and golfing buddy, and i was to be best man at his wedding. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and thrown away. I feel like life has no meaning anymore and can never see myself even being remotely happy ever again.
REST IN PEACE MY BEAUTIFUL BOY..XXX
Tuesday, November 14th 2006 - 01:28:34 PM
Name: amanda baron
E-mail address: amanda-baron@ntlworld.com
Comments:I lost my dear husband while on holiday,I would like to communicate with like minded people such as myself who have experienced a similar loss.I feel it would help a great deal.
Monday, November 6th 2006 - 08:01:07 PM
Name: kirsty taylor
E-mail address: pinkminxykitty@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:i lost my daddy this march and along with his death i have delt with other really complicated bit and bob, things hurt but they do get easier. daddy i'll never forget you, my best friend now and always.
Monday, October 30th 2006 - 10:47:47 AM
Name: Shelly Ellis
E-mail address: shellyellis20@ntlworld.com
Comments:I lost my beloved mum on 19 September 2006, she was diognosed with lung cancer but died from a stroke. My heart is absolutely broken. Words just don't seem to do justice for what i'm feeling.I just keep hoping the pain will ease but at the minute there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I loved mum more than words can say. GOD BLESS YOU MUM. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
Sunday, October 29th 2006 - 08:12:06 PM
Name: lisa
Comments:i lost my 10yr old nephew aug this year suddenly, shocked and devastated still, missing your big brown eyes and your cheeky smile , you are now safe and at peace, i miss you so very much and think every day , with love to you for always in our thoughts and hearts.
we love you so very much it not the same without you......

love you lisa
Saturday, October 28th 2006 - 09:57:52 PM
Name: lisa
Comments:i lost my 10yr old nephew aug this year. its left a big hole in my heart, i no he is in a happy place safe from harm ,i think about him every day and see his cheeky smile and big brown eyes. i will never forget you, always in our hearts. love you forever
Saturday, October 28th 2006 - 09:47:15 PM
Name: carol Newman
E-mail address: carol.newman@buildbase.co.uk
Comments:I lost my soul mate on the 21 October 2006, and to be honest with you I dont want to wake up in the mornings, it was so sudden, car accident on thursday 19 which he survived, only to go on saturday, never had the chance to say anything, I can hear him in my head, and friends say he's with you, well to be honest I want him back, life is so unfair.
Tuesday, October 24th 2006 - 11:20:05 AM
Name: Emine
E-mail address: yaskel@ukonline.co.uk
Comments:I found your site by chance, I lost my lovely mother on the 21st October 2006 how can life go on!
Monday, October 23rd 2006 - 11:14:19 PM
Name: caroline
E-mail address: vass_caroline@yajoo.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://books.dreambooks.com
Comments:I lost my mum very suddenly 9 weeks after my baby girl was born. She was not only my mum but my best friend to. She spoiled my little girl or her little princess as she called her. Sometimes I think I will never get over the sadness. My little girl keeps me going but I still miss her every day. I think this site is a great idea as people can share experiences and help others.
Friday, October 20th 2006 - 09:41:51 PM
Name: carole goldring
E-mail address: carole.goldring
Comments:Iam feeling very low at the moment,I lost my beautiful sister to breast cancer in 2001 and my mother in april this year .My dad in in a nursing home as a result of catching M.R.S.A.after a routine operation and does not know who i am.I have a wonderful son and husband who are my world but i feel so alone!Its usually me who sorts out everyone elses problems, they say im a good listner but who is there for me this time? I suppose i have put on a brave face always smiling always happy but im slowly dying inside,but nobody knows.
Sunday, October 15th 2006 - 03:45:49 PM
Name: lynn fawcett
E-mail address: lynnsnakekeeper@hotmail.com
Comments:my dad barry douglas wilson died on 28th of july this year 2006.miss you desperateley dad. your daughter lynn
Thursday, October 12th 2006 - 09:28:27 PM
Name: sara thackway
E-mail address: scthackway@fedex.com
Comments:my dearest dad died tues 3rd october 2006, he was 88 and had cancer. i want to celebrate his long life and i am thankful for the years he had. but he is still my dad and i miss him and feel lost and sad.
Saturday, October 7th 2006 - 06:34:56 PM
Name: Zoe
E-mail address: zoe_l_house@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:My boyfriend died nearly 3 weeks ago (13th Septeber 2006), was our 2nd Anniversary Saturday (30th September). He was only 19, how can that be fair?
We didn't know couples our age that had a relationship like we did, we've only been apart 16 days since we met. We like it like that, we never worried about a thing, we were happy and content, we had eachother and that's all. We both have plenty of friends and was never short of good times out with mates, we did honestly have everything.
Then one night after leaving my house he never texted as he ususally would. I had a sick feeling in my stomach - I can honestly say I KNEW.
He had lost control of his car in a rain and thunder storm, his car flipped onto it's side and slid straight into a tree.
Thankfully my Huni hit his head and was unconscious as the car flipped, he had no idea. He was instantatly annouced dead on the scence.
I can say it as much as I like, and I can lay flowers by tree, it's doesn't seem true. Stuff like this doesn't happen to people like us, you read about it or see it on TV, it doesn't happen in real life.
Whenever the door goes I expect him to be on the other side, cheeky grin with a bag full of dirty clothes for me to wash.
Does it get easier? I feel so lonely and lost, I have nothing.
Monday, October 2nd 2006 - 07:38:36 PM
Name: Brian
E-mail address: brian.hall1964@ntlworld.com
Comments:My wife Denise, who was only 42 and was just finding herself, died on my birthday 28th July 2006 during an operation that was supposed to be the start of our new life together. For nine or more years she had suffered from trigeminal neuralgia and didn't complain ( as much as I know she could have done)
She left me and our two sons to build a new life, but she prepared us for the new journey although we never thought the worse would ever happen.
She donated all of her organs and so far has helped at least five other families to enjoy a better life.
All that is good in us has come from her and we're glad to have known her and had her as a large part of our lives.
Untill we meet again...but not too soon... for the boys sake. we love you Peanut xxxx
Monday, October 2nd 2006 - 12:26:23 AM
Name: anne
E-mail address: sandever1974@msn.com
Comments:reading this page has helped me a bit. my b/f died in my arms 26 feb 06 and im so empty without him. i just feel so lost all the time. u will never forget but u will lern 2 live with the pain. if enyone would like 2 talk then just mail me plz. anne.
Tuesday, September 26th 2006 - 02:00:11 PM
Name: hami
E-mail address: hamiallybell@fsmail.net
Comments:i lost my husband five weeks ago, he was so wonderful, kind and caring. we have two children aged 10 months and 7 years. i don,t know how i will be able to carry on. No one seems to understand how we feel. It is so hard,I miss him so much, i can't believe he is not here anymore.
Saturday, September 16th 2006 - 10:27:12 PM
Name: Craig
E-mail address: prescottc@btinternet.com
Comments:My Dad passed away on 1st September 2006. He died from small cell lung and brain cancer. He was admitted to hospital in July and I promised to stay with him until the end as he thought my Mother could not cope. He came home early to mid August and died peacefully in my Mothers arms. I stayed with my father until the Funeral Directors came to collect his body - I was the only member of the family who could stay for this - I watched them remove him from the bed and put him in the body bag and I escorted him out to the hurse. I am having nightmares that feature this image - but I feel it was right to do it - I miss him so very much.
Saturday, September 16th 2006 - 02:02:28 AM
Name: Carole
E-mail address: carole@saltdean.eclipse.co.uk
Comments:I lost my husband on 12th February 2006. We were laughing and joking, talking about our future, deciding whether to buy a caravan and where to go. We both wanted to see a bit of the world.
The next second, he was gone. I tried to revive him, and the paramedics tried for half an hour.
I was told by the coroner, he had a blood clot on the brain which ruptured, he died instantly. He said he was gone before he hit the floor.
I can't come to terms with what happened, I lock myself away, afraid to face people. I cry all the time.
He was only 50, we had our lives together, both our sons had left home, and we were like two young married people again.
There are so many unanswered questions.
I miss him so much, we were soul mates, how do I go on without him.
Tuesday, September 12th 2006 - 11:10:05 AM
Name: laura wright
E-mail address: laurawright84@fsmail.net
Comments:My dad passed away on july 30th 2006 of lung cancer. when he was going through his illness my mum and sister were the main people to care for him. i feel guilty that i wasnt there for him more, that i didnt try and visit or look after him more to take the load of my family. we were at the hospital at his bedside when the time finally came, in a way im glad i was there and in a way i wish i wasnt because of the way we had to watch him suffer. the images will probably stay in my mind for as long as i can remember. at least he knew that the people that loved him the most were there with him to the very end.
Monday, September 11th 2006 - 08:27:23 PM
Name: Lori Burgstahler
E-mail address: azsummer2003@aol.com
Homepage URL: http://taylorburgstahler.memory-of.com/
Comments:I lost my faith when my son died. I'm sorry, I did. I was SO SURE that everyone has a soul and that the soul lives on forever. I taught my children to not fear death and to embrace life everlasting. Then my son died in a freak accident. He slipped, hit his head, fell into the water and drowned! It took two days to find his body.
I feel numb. Empty and angry. Taylor was a really good kid - no, the BEST kid. I can't remember ever punishing him. He just didn't make trouble, he was kind, compassionate, funny, intelligent, and just about every other positive verb you an think of.
Now that he is dead, I just don't feel my soul anymore. I just don't believe that we go on. I think this is it, this is all there is now. I was so sure before, so content knowing that life goes on. Now life has just stopped.
Thanks for listening.
Thursday, September 7th 2006 - 06:25:41 PM
Name: Tracey
E-mail address: tracejb@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:My Mum died on 5th August 2006 aged 65 from Brain Cancer, she also suffered from breast cancer and tumors on he spine and lung and I know she's not in pain anymore, but I miss her so much, I feel so lonely. The last two weeks were so hard because she just sat in a chair with her eyes closed dhe couldn't communicate with us. I was an only child and for a lot of my life it was just me and my mum I miss her terribly.
Wednesday, August 23rd 2006 - 07:20:47 AM
Name: Helen
E-mail address: d.j.brown1@btinternet.com
Comments:My dad passed away 27th May 1981 when I was 13yrs old. He was very poorly and I looked after him with my mum towards the end. I resented the fact that I had to stay in to look after him at 13 I wanted to be out with my friends and I regret that now so much. Losing someone is a terrible thing at any time of life but you need to turn this around and make sure you make the most out of the people who mean something to you.. If you love someone tell them ... If you care for someone let them know...because someday you wont be able to tell them because life is too short. I still miss my dad so much and still cry today I just make sure that the people I love and care for know about it !!
Saturday, August 19th 2006 - 11:43:27 AM
Name: Debbie
E-mail address: Debben818@aol.com
Comments:I lost my husband, Ben (aged 34yrs) on 22 December 2003 in a helicopter crash after 20 exciting years. He was my whole life, my everything - I miss him terribly and the pain still remains unbearable at times. The emptiness one can feel is overwhelming. On reading this site it gives me comfort that others are on a similar journey and I'm not going totally mad or alone!!
Thursday, August 17th 2006 - 05:30:37 PM
Name: tony lowdell
E-mail address: tonylawley@btinternet.com
Thursday, August 17th 2006 - 05:29:52 PM
Name: Janis
E-mail address: legsjag@aol.com
Comments:My Son died 15/6/06 in a car crash. Aged 22 I miss him so much. Part of me is gone.He had lots of friends who are now raising money for Air Ambulance.This is a great page.
Friday, August 11th 2006 - 07:52:20 PM
Name: Theresa
E-mail address: terrymah@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I lost my husband very suddenly while on holiday in australia i don't understand why? i miss him so much he was a very caring man and would at a drop of a hat do anything for anyone he loved his chldren and grand children and they also loved him we are all finding it so hard to move on
Thursday, August 10th 2006 - 11:44:49 PM
Name: caroline
Comments:I LOST MY BELOVED HUSBAND OF 22 YEARS AFTER A 7 MONTH BATTLE WITH CANCER AND DON,T THINK I CAN COPE MUCH LONGER. I HAVE NO ONE TO TELL HOW HURT, LONELY, ANGRY AND FRIGHTENED I FEEL. LIFE SEEMS SO POINTLESS
Wednesday, August 9th 2006 - 11:40:04 PM
Name: louise
E-mail address: stephen@stephencook7.wanadoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my mam on march 13th 2006,4 weeks & 4days to the day she died after she got told she had lung cancer,devastated is an understatement,i miss her so much,she was a lovely lady & was so kind & loving to everyone she knew & even strangers she would leave a smile on there faces so very friendly,i found this website and i have to say its the most beautiful thing i've seen its truly helped me,and has made me realise about other peoples very sad loss's (((hugs))) louise x x x
Wednesday, August 9th 2006 - 12:11:16 PM
Name: laura
Comments:hi was just readin your dreambook very good idea.i lost my son almost 2years ago was very premature but doing great was told we would get him home in bout 4 weeks.suddenly he became ill.god took him to the angels sept 04 aged 6 weeks. our worlds fell apart never thought i would ever get this far.everyday i miss him wish that he was here but il make the most of my life for him [ethan} hopefully to make him as proud of me as i was of him.so to eveyone else who has lost a child always remember the precious memories cos thats wat keeps you going.although never will our lives ever be the same.to those who have never lost a child i pray u never do_ enjoy ever minute with them- xx
Sunday, August 6th 2006 - 11:33:42 PM
Name: mandy moore
E-mail address: mandymoore@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I came onto the this web page for some inspiring words, as I watched my nan slowly pass away on the morning of the 13th July 2006. I wanted some guidence of what I should put on my card and realised that, it is so hard to write what you reallly feel on such as small piece of card about someone who you really loved and found saying goodbye to really painfull, the flowers we have bought for her are beautifull and I know she would love them as much as I loved her, thank you for this web site
Thursday, July 20th 2006 - 10:04:09 PM
Name: Christine Ruddick
E-mail address: chris2452@btinternet.com
Comments:My Dad passed away on Thursday 13th July 2006, i was with him as was my husband and daughter, his Wife missed his passing by 30 minutes. I stayed with my Dad for 3 days and nights before his passing but I still feel it was not enough time. He died of Lung Cancer aged 81, but I also lost my Brother in October 2005 with Lung Cancer, I miss them both so very much.
Saturday, July 15th 2006 - 06:43:44 PM
Name: john
E-mail address: gosaljohnnyg@aol.com
Comments:My Dear beloved mother Ranjit Kaur Gosal passed away 11th June 2006 after she had a hysterectomy for ovarian cancer.I was her carer.She contracted Clostridium Difficle a bug 7 times deadlier than MRSA. I Miss my mum so much the pain is eating me inside.She was so caring and loving and always forgave me. I will miss her forever. I was at Darenth Valley hospital in Dartford with her the night she slipped away. Im so shocked and feel i cant go on. Love you mum.Always will.
Saturday, July 15th 2006 - 02:17:25 AM
Name: charliegal
E-mail address: s.mackie3@ntlworld.com
Comments:I lost my son aged8, nearly 8 years ago to cancer. I now feel ready to talk about it. If anybody would like to e-mail me please feel free to. He was the sunshine of my live and always will be.
Thursday, July 13th 2006 - 10:37:07 AM
Name: claire jenkins
Comments:in memory of kelseigh an angel lent but not given taken so cruley aged 7 weeks your memory lives in x
Wednesday, July 12th 2006 - 06:30:00 PM
Name: PAIGE MUNRO AGED 10
Comments:IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY BABY BROTHER ALISTAIR LOVE N MISS U SO MUCH TILL WE MEET AGAIN X X X X X PAIGE KARA BRITTANY CHLOE WILLIAM AND LOGAN X X X X X
Wednesday, July 12th 2006 - 06:26:46 PM
Name: claire
Comments:in loving memory of a dearly loved nanna and grandad gone but not forgotten x x x x x x
Wednesday, July 12th 2006 - 06:23:23 PM
Name: anji munro
Comments:i had my beautiful baby boy alistair ali on the 24 11 03 he was very poorly and very premature he underwent a few operations and was visabily on the mend until the med team let him down and my beautiful brave little man died at 8 months its a sad fact of life but we have to go on and i have recently given birth to another beautiful baby boy the hurt however and the loss doesnt lesson and the hurt doesnt go away im still angry hurt i feel cheated the only comfort i have is knowing that ali is no longer in pain its nearly 2 years since his death and every day i remember him gods garden must be beautiful cause he clearly only takes the best x x x x x x
Wednesday, July 12th 2006 - 12:39:43 PM
Name: jonathan Rees
E-mail address: forgot
Comments:My sister in law just died yesterday. I'm just feeling confused and worried about my brother and his two daughters. We've had a lot of illness and death in our family. Both our grannies had Alzheimers and died, and my dad was severely schizophrenic. I've been more mildly crazy and depressed. My mum died of cancer a few years ago too, and then six months later my dad died too. Me and my brother have had a lot of rows a few years ago about political and religious differences between us.
Wednesday, July 12th 2006 - 11:34:45 AM
Name: Adrian
Comments:I lost my wife Lorraine(LU)to cancer on 9th May 2006. She was my soulmate, best friend, and the nicest person I have ever met. Words cannot express the feeling of emptiness in my life. We were married 30 years and together 34 years. We have 3 children and 3 grand-children. Lu I love you...... always
Wednesday, June 21st 2006 - 04:36:22 PM
Name: Kathryn Tench
Comments:I lost my mum suddenly, almost a year ago, and I just can't feel any better at all. I never got the chance to say goodbye or to thank her for my wonderful life. She was such a lovely, kind lady and I just wanted to be with her at the end to hold her hand and to tell her how much I love her. I just can't get over it.
Thursday, June 15th 2006 - 09:56:48 PM
Name: Em
E-mail address: F1R3_fly69@boltblue.co.uk
Comments:I lost my wonderful Godmother yeserday. She was so amazing, always there and always knew what to do. I had avoided her for 6 months because I had made a decision she didn't agree with and was scared of what she'd say. I have learnt a big lesson from this, I just hope someone else learns before it's too late. The death was very sudden. I know I'm in shock but I also feel unbearable guilt, it's killing me inside.
Friday, June 9th 2006 - 10:25:57 AM
Name: sharon huggins
E-mail address: sharnhuggins@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:I was feeling pretty low missing my mum, and some how I ended up on your website. I truly think this is a wondderful idea because we can all share our sadness together.
Friday, May 26th 2006 - 11:32:49 PM
Name: Neda
E-mail address: ned_yav@yahoo.com
Comments:My mum Marie passed away on Wednesday 24th August 2005, and for all this time people have been saying how strong I have been, and I have been surprised myself how well I have coped. My mum was one of my best friends and was loved my everyone who knew her in her 48 years. I feel as if it has just hit me now, and I am so sad and anxious and seem to be looking for other things to blame for how i'm feeling. I miss her so much! My mum had been ill for what seems like forever with Lupus and Polycythaemia but had always fought through her illness, so although we were told to expect the end we thought she would bounce back like all the other times we had been told it was the end. Lupus is such a horrible disease the way it takes hold of a persons body and won't let go but no-one has ever heard of it, and it is rare to meet people who have lost people through this. I am very angry that my mum, who was so young at heart, was turned into a defenceless weak person. I'm glad we looked after her but I'm missing that too now, I feel like my purpose- worrying about her and caring for her- has gone!
Sorry this is so long! Thanks.
Thursday, May 25th 2006 - 11:11:56 AM
Name: Sharaon
E-mail address: sharon.pratt@btinternet.com
Comments:I lost my husband to cancer 7 weeks ago on 30/03/06. Billy was my whole world and I now feel that my life has ended as well. There is no reason to carry on
Saturday, May 20th 2006 - 01:09:01 PM
Name: Julie
E-mail address: cattoo64@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my husband in September, we were married just over a year. He was my best friend and soulmate. The pain i feel is sometimes unbearable. I am told that time is a healer, but i can t see that somehow. If anyone is in same position it would be nice to chat. I like some of the others here am a great believer in the afterlife but it doesnt take away the pain.
Sunday, May 14th 2006 - 07:26:56 PM
Name: John Edward Gower
E-mail address: john.gower6@btinternet.com
Comments:We lost our son aged 33 because he could not cope with life anymore. This wes in August last year. We loved him so much as did his sisters. It seems so unfair that someone who had so much to live for was forced to take his life.
Monday, May 8th 2006 - 04:49:40 PM
Name: Anglea
E-mail address: bluebell545@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my mum on November 26th 05 after watching her struggle with Alzheimers Disease from the age of 49 years.My wonderful dad passed away also on the 12th March 06.I'm finding it really hard to accept.
Sometimes the feeling of intense sadness is so hard to bear it scares me.I feel totally lost and alone.Dad was by best friend.I have no idea how I manage to get through the days.It seems so pointless.
Thankyou for letting me add my thoughts.It does help.
Thursday, May 4th 2006 - 11:26:03 PM
Name: Lynn
E-mail address: lynda.davies5@virgin.net
Comments:I lost my dear husband 18 months ago,we had been married for 26 years,he was my soul mate.
He left three wonderful kids behind too,they are now 16,18 & 24. Many tears have been shed since he left us,life can never be the same.
Wednesday, May 3rd 2006 - 10:41:37 PM
Name: sam
E-mail address: slinkyjones@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:really good idea to have an E-memorial. thankyou for letting your site jump out at me. havent cried so much in a long time!
Wednesday, May 3rd 2006 - 09:45:04 PM
Name: Debbie Jones
E-mail address: chaneygirlj4@yahoo.com
Comments:Just wanted to check the site out
Wednesday, May 3rd 2006 - 04:53:21 PM
Name: Lisa
Comments:i lost my best friend emma to lukemia 18/3/2000 - it was 6 years ago but it still hurts. I was only 12 at the time, and it was so hard to cope with. She was 11 years old..nearly 12!! so young!! A class mate of mine called Lisa also comitted suicide in 2001.
Lost my woderful grandad 3/3/3 - think about you everyday!!! and now it looks like my nan will be with you soon - she is very ill.
A very good friend of mine lost his brother Ben to meningitis in 2004 too, he was only 16!!.....life seems so cruel!!! keeps taking away all the good people - and leaving people who deserve to die!!! it just aint fair!!!
Monday, April 24th 2006 - 09:06:00 AM
Name: Helen
E-mail address: disalvohelen@hotmail.com
Comments:My mam died in hospital 25th October 2005. She was a kind and gentle talented person who led a very active life until she was diagnosed with Frontal Temporal Dementia just the summer of 2004. Her rapid deterioration happened so quickly, to see someone who had been so vibrant with life become so unable to do things and even communicate in the end is so cruel. It also turned out mam had Motor Neurones Disease but we never found out till the week before she died after the hospital did more tests. I miss mam loads and feel at a loss as to what to do with myself,it was 5 months yesterday and today is Mothers Day.I take comfort that i was able to spend many precious moments with her and cuddle her and tell her i loved her, unlike when i lost my dad suddenly nearly 7 years ago, dad died on 8th April 1999 with a sudden stroke after having just had his 74th birthday on 5th April and i never got chance to say goodbye properly. My mam would have been 74 3 weeks after she died. I know mam and dad are both reunited again but sometimes i just wish i could 'connect' in some way with them again. They were both cremated and i miss having a grave to visit and lay flowers.
Mam and Dad, you are always in my heart and only ever a thought away. Miss you. Your loving daughter, Helen xxxxxx
Sunday, March 26th 2006 - 11:45:13 AM
Name: Steve Wood
E-mail address: stevewood137@btinternet.com
Comments:I lost my wife, Elaine, only days ago, to breast cancer. We have two young children, Charlotte and Thomas, and now all I can think of is the Elvis song, Don't Cry Daddy, because that's all I seem to be doing.
Monday, March 20th 2006 - 02:28:41 AM
Name: Susan Lee
E-mail address: sueaupair@btinternet.com
Comments:I have just lost my only son Adam aged 23 from an inoperable brain tumour - I have no more family left and I would like to be put in touch with any parents who have had such a loss
Saturday, March 11th 2006 - 10:11:51 AM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: ceejay20@msn.com
Comments:My grandmother was murdered on the 19th August 2003 in Seychelles. I last saw her in June 2003 when I went for my fathers funneral, he died of a heart-attack. I think i have learnt to deal with his death, but i really can not cope with the death of my grandmother, I can not sleep, I feel constantly depressed and i just dont know what to do!
Thursday, March 2nd 2006 - 08:24:26 PM
Name: JULIE-ANN
E-mail address: PEMBLE88@HOTMAIL.COM
Comments:I LOST MY MUM VERY SUDDENLY ON THE 28TH JULY 2005 SHE BECAME ILL ,TOLD SHE CANCER AND DIED WITHIN 17 DAYS.

I FEEL NUMB MOST DAYS I CANT BELIEVE SHE HAS GONE, I FEEL VEY ALONE AND DETACHED FROM THE REAL WORLD, I APPEAR FROM THE OUTSIDE TO BE VERY STRONG AND UNSHAKEABLE, BUT INSIDE IM BROKEN AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
Thursday, March 2nd 2006 - 10:56:30 AM
Name: andrea davidson
E-mail address: andi@andielliot.wanadoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my mum very suddenly. She was my best friend and i miss her so so much.

Norma Barclay 7/3/50 - 7/5/04

Like an angel, you will always be my guide.
Always with me, always by my side xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Tuesday, February 28th 2006 - 01:33:36 PM
Name: Danielle Ireland
Comments:I lost my nan on the 25th jan. She was my soul mate May peace be with her now. I'm alone.
Protect her Grandad and guide her in Gods heaven.

Alice (Lally) Taylor 13th June 1919 - 25th January 2006
James (Jim)Taylor 4th January 1917 - 6th August 1992
Love you both forever.x
Monday, February 27th 2006 - 03:47:07 PM
Name: mark marlow
E-mail address: karren.marlow@ntlworld.com
Comments:I have been lost for nearly 10 yrs now in those 10yrs i have lost my brother paul,my mother joyce,my father derek. I am hurting so bad i am drinking heavy it is makeing me feel bitter & angry with GOD i know poeple are thinking get on with it but those three poeple are very speical to me & i do need to move on with out it hurting to much. Not for my sake but my lovely wife & my other brother & little sister.So what is the answer can anyone help me i know am not alone out there.
Monday, February 27th 2006 - 11:28:06 AM
Name: Denise
E-mail address: deniseclose@msn.com
Comments:I lost my husband 22-12-2005 he had a heart attack I feel so lost and alone.
Sunday, February 26th 2006 - 02:14:32 PM
Name: nicola wells
E-mail address: nicolawells34@hotmail.com
Comments:i miss my mum dearly but i know she's safe now and god will look after her. rest in peast mum all my love nicola wells
Monday, February 20th 2006 - 09:19:05 PM
Name: Margretta Young-Jones
E-mail address: grettapenbont@aol.com
Comments:I am feeling very low and alone today after the sudden death of my husband in the early hours of the 23 November 2005 .The phone has stopped ringing nobody visits anymore and I dont know why I have cried and cried today.
Sunday, February 19th 2006 - 02:20:56 PM
Name: Majella
Comments:Its comforting to read the memorials of others in grief. Our Dad Peter, and husband to Bridget, (our mum) died (aged 80) on 23rd January 2006. He was very ill, and fortunately my sister and I were able to sit beside him for his last 3 days in the hospice, holding his hand and talking to him. We miss him so very much, even though we are all grown up now. Mum couldn't be there because she is in a nursing home with Alzheimers. He will remain in our hearts for always. Thankyou for hosting this site.
Sunday, January 29th 2006 - 05:13:08 PM
Name: margaret landtwing-yeo
E-mail address: my26@hispeed.ch
Comments:Hello, I lost my husband 1 Oct 2004 of a sudden heart-attack. One minute he was there the next he was gone. It still hurts very much, it seems like it all happens only yesterday. I really do understand how one suffers the kind of pain which will always lingers on in our heart. Thank you for your page.
Friday, January 20th 2006 - 10:54:19 AM
Name: Jax
Comments:I lost mu husband of 22 years to cancer three months ago aged just 42.I miss him so desperately and dont know what to do any more. I keep going for the sake of our 10 year old son but its so so hard and i just want to be with him so much.
Thursday, January 19th 2006 - 11:58:38 PM
Name: kitty
E-mail address: kitty@heardman.com
Comments:This is a really nice idea.
Wednesday, January 18th 2006 - 05:26:05 PM
Name: Daisy
Comments:This site is a beautiful idea and allows people to share their pain without having to pay. My grief will probably never end but I hope it gets better for others. Real soon. xxxxxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, January 18th 2006 - 05:15:53 PM
Name: Caitlin
E-mail address: dudesws1@yahoo.com
Comments:Hi, I'm Caitlin. It might sound daft but years ago, my beautiful dog,Jade, got ill with heart problems. She began to get better so my mum left her with a neighbour to go shopping. When she came back, Jade had passed away.When my brothers and I got back from college, she told us. I have never gotten over not being there for Jade and worry she resents me. I guess I hope letting people know how lovely she was would help, even now.
Wednesday, January 18th 2006 - 04:57:15 PM
Name: lynn cassidy
E-mail address: lynncassidy@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I came across this site whilst looking for appropriate sites for my young clients - I'm a bereavement counsellor for Macmillan. In particular, some clients have, for one reason or another, been unable to say a normal goodbye and need a memorial of some kind. This site is truly beautiful and I have no doubt it can help enormously when people need to share their grief. As long as it remaisn free and there's no chance of my clients being emailed with any kind of marketing, I will be happy to pass on this site's details.
Wednesday, January 18th 2006 - 03:56:50 PM
Name: ben rose
E-mail address: benrose@freenet.co.uk
Comments:dreambook is a great idea and makes you realise you
are not the only one to have suffered loss...my heart goes out to all who have gone through the same emotions and helplessness as ive felt...it is extremely helpful
Monday, January 16th 2006 - 06:00:27 PM
Name: Molly
Comments:I lost my triplet sister on the 14th December 2005 aged 47, after she suffered Brain damage due to an Asthma attack and then a Heart attack. She left six wonderful children, which i am now proud to care for, but i'm finding this very hard, Christmas was spent buying funeral clothes, New year was horiffic, why why why, they have asked this and many other questions over and over again, and i can't find the answers for them. We willed her to wake up then when we were given the news that she coul'nt we sat by her bed and watched her die, the youngest are twins and are only 15 but they stayed by her bed with us all till the end, i am angry very angry and it hurts, Please somebody tell me its going to be alright
Sunday, January 15th 2006 - 07:14:48 PM
Name: Hayley Scott
E-mail address: www.jadespalace.btinternet.com
Comments:my name is Hayley, I lost my little boy Scotty (boss Man) when he was 2 years old. Without him it feels like I died too, but I'm determined to get stronger, as many people on here seem to be. I also write poetry, so if any one would like a poem written just for their loved ones, as a little thank you for everyones support, then please get in touch and I'll gladly do it for you. Thank you to all of you have spoken tome and offered help. With Love Hayley
Saturday, January 14th 2006 - 12:44:38 PM
Name: Pam
E-mail address: cowling8@msn.com
Comments:I lost my wonderful Dad on 18 May 2005 - i am finding it hard to come to terms with it - and to top it all my Mum is in residential care with Alzheimers Disease - i cry constantly, and not interested in anything anymore - i have so much to look forward to as well, getting married in June - all i want is my Dad back
Monday, January 9th 2006 - 04:59:23 PM
Name: Helen
E-mail address: steve.barnes@wight365.net
Comments:My Nan passed away on 20 December 05.It was sudden although she had had many things wrong with her health for several years but we all thought she was invincible. On the day she died we had a lovely family meal and she joined in & looked beautiful. The last thing I said to her was I love you Nan. She was my best friend, we shared so much together, feelings, thoughts, happy times & holidays -I cam honestly say we never had a cross word or argued in nearly 38 years. I often used to say to Nan that if I could I'd take away her pain & make her better I would, now at least she is no longer in pain.I find it really hard to know that I can't hold her & give her a cuddle anymore but I'm still talking lots to her.. I've dreaded Nan going for years & I so miss her.I have to say thank you to my husband & family & friends who are helping me through this, without them I know it would be even harder.
Sunday, January 8th 2006 - 05:22:20 PM
Name: Michelle
E-mail address: mbowdi@aol.com
Comments:On October 12th 2005 my most beautiful Angel of a mother was stabbed to death by a burglar.
How on earth am i ever supposed to come to terms with such a horrendous evil act.
My mum was an amazing person who was always helping others, she always put herself last and would never harm a thing.
She loved the countryside, the birds and the animals and had so much love to give. She had such a beautiful heart and soul.
I am so grateful to have had my mum for 36 years, i feel truly honoured, but i also feel robbed and i think i always will.
A huge great hole has been left in my life, my heart left in tatters, i miss my mum so very much and i will until we meet again.
Life is very hard without my mum and i just ache so badly. Not a moment goes by when i don't think of her and want her back so badly.
Luckily for me i am a very spiritual person and have strong spiritual beliefs.
Mum i love you forever and hold out my hand to still feel your warm and encouraging touch.
Michelle xxx
Cornwall.
Saturday, January 7th 2006 - 06:23:12 PM
Name: DIANE BUTTERWORTH
E-mail address: dianebutterworth@btinternet.com
Comments:Ilost my wondeful Mum Sunday 11th Dec, Mum was 82, up until she was over eighty Mum was never ill, the day she had her first stroke I thought my life was over, to be without my Mum.
Mum managed to come home but she was not happy she had lost the life she loved, she did her best. Things changed for ever in May Mum did not recover she had to go into a nursing home.
I love my Mum she was the best strong and independant, I won't to be like you Mum.
Friday, January 6th 2006 - 07:27:53 PM
Name: Philip
E-mail address: philmacc@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:My mother (81) died in our local Hospice on Tuesday 27th December 2005 after a long and courageous battle against cancer. She survived a lot longer than the medics expected her to, but sank into a coma on Christmas Eve. Amazingly she retained a degree of perkiness almost to the end, and her main concern was never her impending death, but always how I would cope without her.
I'm still trying to work out how a grumpy old man of 53 with disabilities is going to cope without his best friend.
Friday, December 30th 2005 - 11:20:20 PM
Name: n.manning
E-mail address: n.manning@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:i lost my husband 6 months ago suddenly he was only 40, we have 2 children who miss him badly, right now it seems to be getting harder not easier.
Friday, December 30th 2005 - 10:17:35 PM
Name: rachael
E-mail address: reynoldschelsea@hotmail.com
Comments:this site has made me realise that i'm not alone in the world. Others know what its like too. i lost my husband of 10 years in jan 2004 to heart failure, he left behind 3 precious children too. I have moved on but its still very raw at times like christmas and new year.
Thursday, December 29th 2005 - 12:47:34 PM
Name: June
E-mail address: june91@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my loving Mother a week ago she passed away on the 8th of December. My mum went into hospitial for an operation on her leg, she then suffered a heart attack! Doing further tests the doctors discovered that my mums two main arterys to the heart were blocked and the other was 90 percent blocked! I was then told my mum was dying!! I was with my mum when she passed. I miss my mum so much.... I feel lost and empty without my mum in my life.
Thursday, December 15th 2005 - 07:42:45 PM
Name: abigail legate
E-mail address: bubbly_angels@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:thank you for helping me through all of this
Tuesday, December 6th 2005 - 01:23:11 PM
Name: Kelly Grabham
E-mail address: prettyinpinkkel@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:Hi im kelly and i had twins boy ad girl a year ago and its taken me this long to talk about it. I was 25 weeks pregnant when i gave birth to my beautiful boy and girl, due to them being so young i lost them both. My little girl was 23 hours old and my little boy was 3 days and 5 hours old when they past away. im now starting to find things very hard as i am now starting to greive. im filling very low and would like anyone to help me with advise or just to talk if they are in the same situation.
Thank you for taking the time to read this .
Monday, December 5th 2005 - 05:21:40 PM
Name: Melisa
E-mail address: melisaleogle@yahoo.com
Homepage URL: http://www.mail.net
Comments:I like this page. Nice work !
Friday, November 25th 2005 - 11:21:38 PM
Name: amy
E-mail address: amyeabbott@yahoo.com
Comments:my mum died on 10th september 2005. she has cancer. she had an operation and was clear of cancer, but she didnt receive the care she needed and deteriorated until she died. we are all shocked and devasted.i miss her so much.i'm 26 and sad that she will never see me get married or start my own family.
i want to talk to her so much, i want to just have a "gab" about everyday things.
i cant believe she is dead. i find it hard to accept she that such a wonderful, warm wacky woman no longer exists.
mum please please come back to me.
Friday, November 18th 2005 - 01:25:41 AM
Name: alan Shepherd
E-mail address: alan.shepherd11@btinternet.com
Comments:My wife Jennifer died on the 24th of October 2005, aged 51, we had been married for 35 years, it was quite sudden and the worst day of my life. I don't know how I will get over this loss, maybe time is a healer, maybe I will never heal, the future now is not so important. Life is just the blink of an eye, our love will last forever. God bless you all.
Thursday, November 17th 2005 - 07:21:19 PM
Name: Jennifer Long
E-mail address: supajenn77@yahoo.com
Thursday, November 17th 2005 - 05:36:27 AM
Name: Carol Duffy
E-mail address: cbabe3163@yahoo.com
Comments:I lost my beautiful brave son on the 12th August this year he was just 17. He had a brain tumour removed when he was 9 years old and was treated with Radiotherophy and was clear of cancer for 6 years it returned Christmas '03 and he fought a long hard battle for 12 months with chemotherophy then he had a scan to show it had gone again. March of this year it returned and again he fought so hard but this time lost his fight. I have been by his side throughout and watched my baby suffer why couldn't it have been me?
Sunday, November 13th 2005 - 04:53:04 PM
Name: marianne
E-mail address: mariannelewis1@aol.com
Comments:I lost my lovely glamerous mum 10 days ago on the 30 Oct 05. She had melanoma cancer - she had fought it 28 years ago but it came back with a vengeance this year. In July we were told there was no significant spread - it was on her lungs we knew that and then on 23rd July she was rushed into hospital and found she had 2 tumours in her abdomen. How? Why ? Were they not seen on previous scans???? Mum helped me thro breast cancer 8 years ago - i wish i could have done more for her. I miss her so very much - we all do. My sis is due to have a baby soon and we thought she would be there - but its not to be. Life can be so cruel. I just wish she was here now. xxx
Wednesday, November 9th 2005 - 11:29:40 PM
Name: Deb Sutherland
E-mail address: debsutherland@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my wonderful Dad just 3 days ago, on Nov 6th 2005. He suffered a heart attack and died at 59 years of age. Today has been very difficult as making his funeral arrangements is so very painful. It's very comforting to read other people's messages & reassuring to know (from what other people write) that the grief of losing someone who was such an integral part of my life will eventually get easier to cope with. Right now, it hurts like nothing I've ever known & I miss him so bad there are no words to describe it. I love and miss you so much Dad. God Bless You. X x X x X x X
Wednesday, November 9th 2005 - 04:29:21 PM
Name: julie
E-mail address: jha9303971@aol.com
Comments:excellent
Tuesday, November 1st 2005 - 06:39:14 PM
Name: Glennis
E-mail address: glenmc2@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:I lost my darling husband John 6 months ago to cancer. He was only 47 and I cannot put into words how much I love him and miss him. As each day goes by it seems harder and harder to go on without him. I miss him not only as a lover but as my friend and soulmate. People are very kind but nothing seems worthwhile anymore I feel as though I am just waiting for the day I will be with him again.
Thursday, October 27th 2005 - 05:01:44 PM
Name: sharon
E-mail address: sharon.johnson20@btinternet.com
Comments:i found it a great comfort after visiting your site knowing others are suffering the pain that i am, and i am not alone.
Monday, October 24th 2005 - 10:44:29 PM
Name: Rebecca
E-mail address: r_a_cole@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I thought that at 29 I was to young to lose my Dad. I realise now that I was blessed to have known him for that long and with all my heart I will cherish what we had as long as I live. Thank you, the memories I read on this page help me to understand a little bit at a time what I thought unable to ever accept!
Monday, October 24th 2005 - 03:58:24 PM
Name: Verena
E-mail address: Firebelle_uk@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my dad on April 1st this year. At first I kept thinking he was going to jump up laughing and say he had us all fooled. How I wish he had. He was my crutch,companion, confidant, hero friend and so much more... I guess he was an ordinary guy to the rest of the world.
There is some query over his death because it may have been due to asbestos exposure, this is proving hard to bear and delaying the inquest etc. Thankfully through this site I have found comfort.
Sunday, October 16th 2005 - 09:00:21 PM
Name: Wendy
E-mail address: wendy.lady@btopenworld.com
Comments:I lost my darling husband Harry to mesothelioma on April 7th 2004. We had been together for over 30 years.He was so brave, but now he has gone, the hurt in me gets worse instead of better. I try not to show it, but it gets harder. But it has helped to read some of the wonderful memories in this Dreambook
Friday, October 14th 2005 - 09:46:42 AM
Name: Cathy Roberts
E-mail address: cathyroberts2005@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I lost my beautiful and courageous mum on 7th May 2005 to breast cancer aged 58. My life has changed dramatically since then, I gave birth to my first child the week before and I wish mum was here to help me. I miss her so much and cry every day and night. Life is so unfair. I love you mum look after us. God Bless.
Thursday, October 13th 2005 - 04:43:44 PM
Name: karen
E-mail address: karen_mclaughlan@msn.com
Comments:I lost my darling dad on the 12th April 2005. I miss him sooo much and loved him with all my heart. My poor mum is so lost without him. I know he's ok now as he's in peace talking with all the other angels in the sky. I love and miss you dad. Untill we meet again. Sleep well dad.
xxxxxxx
Tuesday, October 11th 2005 - 11:02:04 AM
Name: abby
E-mail address: supanet@supaday.comyahoo
Homepage URL: http://yahoo.com
Comments:I Lost my dear darling Husband on 12April 2005. I miss him so terribly much. I just cannot seem to move on without him. I loved him more than life itself. He was my complete soulmate.
Friday, October 7th 2005 - 11:34:25 AM
Name: George
E-mail address: gumba66@webtv.net
Homepage URL: http://www.georgiestevensonmemorial.com
Comments:Hi; I enjoyed my visit to your wonderful web site and will come back. Come visit my humble site and see my MEMORIAL ANGEL'. God Bless George
Wednesday, October 5th 2005 - 03:32:30 AM
Name: Michelle
E-mail address: snookes@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:Hello everyone, I lost my precious loving Mother on the 2nd of July 2005 one day before her 65th birthday. I thought she was in a deep sleep catching up as she had not been a sleep properly for almost 6 days due to ill health. I tried waking her up & I called Nhs direct, she was in a coma (I had no idea) when they arrived and was taken in to hospital & she never regained consciousness, I watched her deteriorate over 6 days then sadly pass away. I do feel I never really got the chance to say goodbye, as I do not know whether she could hear me or not. Guess one day I will know when we are reunited. I still can not beleive she has gone. Until it happened to me I never really appreciated what other people were going through. It is true you never know what's it like until it happens to you! I miss her so much she was my world! This is an excellent site, glad I found it. Good to know I am not alone, my heart goes out to YOU all xxx
Wednesday, September 28th 2005 - 12:03:55 AM
Name: Shirley
E-mail address: Raymax@aol.com
Wednesday, September 21st 2005 - 01:21:56 AM
Name: Donna
E-mail address: donna.mayes1@ntlworld.com
Comments:my wonderful husband died 11th november 2004, the pain is still so hard to bear.Guess as he was not only my husband he was also my best friend,my soul mate my whole life it will never go away.each day that passes makes me miss him more.
Tuesday, September 6th 2005 - 10:03:54 PM
Name: julie
E-mail address: snuzzybug@hotmail. uk
Comments:i so feel for anyone loosing a loved one it is 10 years since i lost my partner at only 27 my heart goes out to you all
Monday, September 5th 2005 - 10:37:20 PM
Name: groston909
E-mail address: groston909@hotmail.com
Comments:Hello
Sunday, September 4th 2005 - 06:50:19 PM
Name: Elizabeth Bradley
E-mail address: jacksonslimited@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:I lost my beloved husband Ty after 38 years of happy marriage, I am lost without him and miss him every waking moment. You site has let me see that I am not in fact as alone as I had thought.
Friday, September 2nd 2005 - 10:20:10 AM
Name: jimmy
E-mail address: jimmy.garber@newhampct.nhs.uk
Comments:Dear friends,
I have just lost a close relative and felt so lost today..i stumbled upon this site and the tears flow down my cheeks as i read the testimonies..god protect and guide us all and may we rejoice and celebrate the lives of those who have left us..my heart reaches out to you all as i feel you reaching out to me..
Thursday, September 1st 2005 - 12:57:40 PM
Name: Ted
Comments:Having found and looked at your site, it seems to me that no one has lost a wife. I lost mine a month ago. We were together for 46 years minus 21 days. I never knew what grief was untill I lost my Wife. My grief is something that no one should suffer. I loved her so so much. A Palliative Nurse saw one of our wedding photos when Barbara had gone into a coma and said "She has a wonderful soul". Not True she has a beautiful and wonderful soul and I miss her so much. I know life will never be the same without her.
Tuesday, August 30th 2005 - 11:21:24 PM
Name: Nicola Lynch
E-mail address: neenaw1@hotmail.co.uk
Comments:hi i have lost my son Damian aged 2yrs june 2005
Sunday, August 28th 2005 - 10:51:11 PM
Name: lillie
E-mail address: lillie_wilson@hotmail.com
Comments:wow, thankyou everyone for sharing, and showing me i'm not alone on this overwhelming emotional rollercoaster.
There were so many words jumbled up in my head that have now been put into sentences.
its a real comfort to know that someone truly understands.
Now...Live Life, Love and Laugh
Sunday, August 28th 2005 - 05:18:25 PM
Name: dender378
E-mail address: dender378@hotmail.com
Comments:Hello
Thursday, August 25th 2005 - 12:51:31 AM
Name: hilda
E-mail address: hildaholmes@msn.com
Comments:i lost my mum and dad first in 1990/91, then my husband. then my sisters three husbands, and last year a sister and six months later another sister so i know what it's like. only for loosing my husband first did did i have the strenth to help others in the family. i use to cry all the time now i am cried out. put a picture in your head that makes you laugh when you think of them and that gets you by in your hour of need. the night time is worse and all we do is think of them. it does not get better over night but it does get better. god bless you all. im so glad i found this book. it's helped me to talk about my loved ones
Monday, August 22nd 2005 - 11:30:49 PM
Name: Sandy
E-mail address: nikitakia@aol.com
Comments:what a brilliant idea, you've made me feel less alone already
Tuesday, August 9th 2005 - 04:01:55 PM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: mummyseaton@msn.com
Comments:I have found you quite by chance, looking maybe for some answers, trying to find out if I am alone, or if there are other people who understand how it feels to lose someone very special, my precoius husband passed away in june 2004, very suddenly, and totally unexpectedly, and I still can't beleive he has gone, he was 48, and should still be here with our children and I. I am lost without him. Why is it that people say the first year is the worst, when they have'nt gone through this, I know they are trying to help, and I am grateful for thier support, I just feel no-one understands, all I really want is to be with my husband, then I won't hurt any more, and the pain will go away, but thats easier said than done when I have other people to think about. I'm sorry for going on, but thats how I feel.
Friday, August 5th 2005 - 03:06:55 PM
Name: Lin
E-mail address: linda@mortgagescentral.co.uk
Comments:I recently lost my wonderful, precious mum who passed away in June this year. Mum was such an important part of my life, she was my anchor. I love her so much the pain of her not being here with me anymore, not being able to hug her or hold her hand has left me heartbroken.

I nursed mum for the last 60 days/nights of her life at home,as her wish was to be at with her family. I promised mum that I would get on with my life, but I'm finding this so hard, because I feel so lost and broken inside.

I want so much to keep my promise to mum, but the pain is unbearable, I hope that by talking to others who have lost loved ones it will help me keep my promise.
Wednesday, August 3rd 2005 - 03:58:14 PM
Name: cheri hoffman
E-mail address: cheri.hoffmn@manchesterit.com
Comments:I lost my wondeful mum in Jan 2005 - it gets harder each day - she was my inspirantion, my backbone, she was so many things, my mu, my dads wife, my childrens nana and my husbands mum in law. I hear her voice , her laugh, her common Sense advice all the time. ParT of all of us died with her, she was the rock of our FAMILY
Gwen O'Reilly - a star
Sunday, July 31st 2005 - 12:57:27 AM
Name: mike
E-mail address: mrprice@supanet.com
Wednesday, July 27th 2005 - 06:48:44 PM
Name: Lisa Kaye
E-mail address: lickylee23@hotmail.com
Comments:To my doting dad who I lost on 26th January 2005. I love and miss you so very much, life has changed so much now your not here. The whole familys a mess falling out with each other. I know it would've never have been like this if you was still here. I will never be able to find the words to describe my loss of you dad. You were my world and I know I have to find the strength to carry on for my mums sake. I will never let her down dad, I know how much you worshipped her. Life will never be the same again without you dad. I love you more than I ever have and I miss you more than I thought I would.
Until we meet again dad, I love you.
Love from your babygirl, Lisa Marie x x x x x x
Monday, July 18th 2005 - 05:22:28 PM
Name: Claudette Madison
E-mail address: msclyde@hotmail.com
Comments:Thank you for being there. May God bless you and give you peace.
Wednesday, July 6th 2005 - 03:35:09 AM
Name: webshop
E-mail address: dwio@yahoo.com
Comments:nice site!thank you
Monday, July 4th 2005 - 10:54:57 AM
Name: Simone
E-mail address: SimoneCharlesworth@hotmail.com
Monday, July 4th 2005 - 10:52:51 AM
Name: kate
E-mail address: katejackso3@hotmail.com
Comments:My darling Wal died 4th June 2002 not a day goes by that I don't think of you, always in my heart I will never forget you, love you forever
Sunday, June 5th 2005 - 06:20:21 PM
Name: Dave (Site Owner)
E-mail address: dav.boy@btinternet.com
Comments:Hello Heidi..I no longer have your Email address. But I did take a look and it is the first stone on the left at the top. Hope you find it and I will pray you are granted the strength and courage to get you through your operation.

Warmest regards dear lady.

Dave.
Thursday, May 26th 2005 - 11:43:26 AM
Name: Heidi Downey
E-mail address: heididowney
Comments:Dear Lyn,
I visited Lynx on his stone. But I could not find me beloved mother's stone?!
Please pray for me Lyn, I have to go into heart surgery in June......

Hope you and family are well.
Love
Heidi
Thursday, May 26th 2005 - 06:05:55 AM
Name: Karen
Comments:I lost my 20 yr old brother Phil in a road accident on 8th November 2003. I am 24 now and I miss my brother sooooo much. We were very colse and I think about him every day. He should not have been taken away at that age. It was WAY too young. My family and I are extremely proud of what he achieved in his short life time. I still have one brother left (Matt, age 20) and we are very close too.
"I miss you tons bruv and I wish you were still here making me laugh. love you forever. Big hugs from ya big sis xx"
Thursday, May 19th 2005 - 09:28:58 PM
Name: KAREN
E-mail address: KAZ5681@HOTMAIL.COM
Comments:This site is very sweet. I am 24 and I lost my 20 year old brother Phil on 8th November 2003 in a road accident. We were very close and I miss him soooooooo much. He should not have been taken away at his age. He was way to young. He had a very happy life and me and my family are so proud of him and what he achieved in his short life time. I still have one brother left (Matt, age 20) and we are very close too.
"We miss you tons bruv and will always love you. Love and hugs from ya big sis xxx"
Thursday, May 19th 2005 - 09:21:58 PM
Name: shirley
E-mail address: shirlyspr@aol.com
Comments:I have just lost my husband of 34 years, at the age of 53.
He was my whole life. A kind loving and caring man.
Everything is so empty without him.
Thursday, May 19th 2005 - 10:56:58 AM
Name: Andrea
E-mail address: andreagotham@btinternet.com
Comments:I lost my dad after a brave and terrible fight against lung cancer on 25th April 2005. If it wasnt enough to NOT be a smoker and get lung cancer he also developed secondary bone cancer within months. I have never witnessed any living thing on this earth suffer like my dad did. He had nine months from diagnosis of sheer hell. Chemo did not work and radio only delayed things. He died at home and had all the family around him. We all miss him so much and have a more serious outlook on life. My Dad was taken at the tender age of 53, and to me that is very unfair. He touched so many people, friends and medical professionals in the area. He really was such an amazing man, a wonderful husband to my mum and an inspiring dad. We love you dad.
Tuesday, May 17th 2005 - 08:00:56 PM
Name: julie
E-mail address: jjmawdsley@aol.com
Comments:Reading everyone`s words have made the tears fall yet again. I lost my darling momma in january 2005, she has been in hospital for a while but we thought she would come back home, the greatest pain is that my dad and I were not with her when she died and it hurts so much thinking she was alone without the two people who loved her the most. As lots of you have said there was so much more I wanted to say and now never will.I know the pain will ease as will the anger and one day soon I will be able to laugh again.
Goodnight my darling momma you are in my heart forever.
Thursday, May 12th 2005 - 10:22:48 PM
Name: Debi
E-mail address: Pimms2003@hotmail.com
Comments:What a lovely site for people who have lost someone. I lost my mother nearly 3 years ago, on her birthday, she died very suddenly and unexpectedly, it was such a shock. As the day gets nearer, i thought after 3 years I would be ok, but all the memories of that night come flooding back. It is so hard. Nice to know others feel the same.
Wednesday, May 11th 2005 - 05:36:36 PM
Name: Shaun Nelson
E-mail address: shaun.nelson1@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:A very good site.
Wednesday, May 11th 2005 - 09:37:58 AM
Name: Deborah
E-mail address: djgwebmail-1@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I lost my dear Mum to cancer on 30th March 2005. She was a great Mum and a good friend to me, and I miss her so much. It is still hard to get used to the idea she is not there any more, that I can't pick up the phone to speak to her. She was diagnosed with secondary cancer in the liver on 28th Feb and five weeks later she was gone. Dealing with the practical issues has swept me along but now the reality and finality of the loss is beginning to hit me.
Saturday, May 7th 2005 - 11:08:23 PM
Name: Stacey
E-mail address: bmorgan10@hotmail.com
Homepage URL: http://Stacey
Comments:I lost my mother on Jan 7, 2005. She was 53. Diabetes killed her after a very long hard fight. She lived here and I took care of her for the last couple months of her life, (thank GOD for that). We had a lot of hope,and when she died it was like one of the most important parts of me died too.I miss her so much, life is never going to be the same agian, its almost like you have to start over with a new life.There is so much I feel like I took for granted, I wish I could do so many things over, and different and I would make sure everyday I had with her was filled with love.I was never a bad daughter, but I feel like sometimes I wasnt completely there,I WANT A DO OVER! Its not fair when someone tries so hard at life and is taken away from the people who need them. Im 29 and have a whole lifetime ahead of me - without her.Am I going to make it?
Thursday, May 5th 2005 - 06:17:31 PM
Name: Denise Willett
E-mail address: denise.willett@virgin.net
Comments:I lost my dad on 2nd April 2005 and I am finding hard to come to terms with the fact that I am not going to see or speck to him again. I spoke to him evry day. I just don't understand why he had to go he was not ready to go he had such a lot to live for. All I can think is that he must have been badly needed in the next world.
Wednesday, May 4th 2005 - 01:19:05 PM
Name: 838van
E-mail address: 838van@hotmail.com
Homepage URL: http://lamictal.rx4.org/
Comments:That's a pretty cool site! I love it.
Thursday, April 28th 2005 - 04:53:37 AM
Name: diane campbell
E-mail address: dc2002uk@hotmail.com
Friday, April 22nd 2005 - 07:58:19 PM
Name: sharon
E-mail address: sharonbird1@msn.com
Comments:i lost my dad my great friend at the age of 60 on 1st april 2005 of mesothelioma we laid him to rest yesterday 16th april 2005 even though i know he has passed over i cant believe he wont be around i just cant seem to accept this even though my mind knows its true i feel anger and bitterness at the appalling way he was treated by the medical proffession but your site helps me realise i am not alone in my feelings and emotions thank you
Sunday, April 17th 2005 - 11:58:00 PM
Name: linda
Comments:I wrote in february about how my husband died in september 2004,He suffered a ruptured abdominal aortic anerysm.you know one thing ive learnt is the pain dosnt go,you just learn how to fool people that your fine doing ok,carrying on .you dont live you exist.you get up in a morning and you go to bed at night ,you dont sleep and all you do is go over and over what happend .well it`s been7 mths and we should be hearing from the coroner very soon about the inquest,the date , i dont want it to happen ,why because it will be finished with, over ,the end ,as if he never lived, thats how i feel.while its still to happen he exists.i dont want them to close the book on him.i dont want to have to face the doctors and nurses again.but i also want to ask why ,how can it have happend,you know it is it`s just an existance theres no meaning to life anymore,i want my husband back and i say those words and i know never again will i hear or see or have his arms wrapped around me keeping me safe .and when you lose some one close why is the time you need a cuddle people are afraid to reach out and hold you.how do you go on in the darkness.you have to especialy when you have children.its so hard isnt it,7 mths and im still angry with doctors nurses and locum doctors,they let you down
Thursday, April 14th 2005 - 11:48:05 PM
Name: belinda clay
E-mail address: belclay@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my lovely funny clever dad on the 2nd mar 05 to ruthless lung cancer, but to realise that there are so many people out there in as much grief as myself opens my selfish eyes to the day to day that has to go on. Time, i believe is no healer but the emotions will weaken and confidence to go on will gain. My heart goes ot to you all, we all have a duty to those we lost to go on and make them proud. Always remember, never forget.
Monday, March 28th 2005 - 10:24:12 PM
Name: MARGARET DAWES
E-mail address: m.dawes1@ntlworld.com
Comments:I lost my husband very unexpectly on the 28th february 2oo5 and I am devastated as I loved him more than anything in this world and although my family have been very very caring I miss the love of my husband and feel so alone without him as we shared everything and did everything together.
Sunday, March 20th 2005 - 09:24:16 AM
Name: Jennifer Williams
E-mail address: jennywilliams29@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Its helped to release some emotions which I sometimes bury so that I am not continuously crying. Hearing Abide with me and reading Footprints allows you to acknowledge other thoughts or begin the thought process regarding your feelings. Which can be anger one minute and deep pain the next.
Missing my Dad, who passed away at 6:15am Friday 2nd October 2004

Thank you for this opportunity

Jenny Williams
Saturday, March 5th 2005 - 02:12:22 PM
Name: Ingrid
E-mail address: ingrid@hotmail.com
Comments:Thank you !
Thursday, March 3rd 2005 - 06:00:40 PM
Name: Dave
E-mail address: davewindser@aol.com
Comments:I'm glad I found this site, It's great. I haven't got the time to write my message, so I will come back another day & do that.
Wednesday, March 2nd 2005 - 10:25:35 PM
Name: Lynne
E-mail address: Flyer6570:aol.com
Saturday, February 19th 2005 - 08:59:44 PM
Name: steve
E-mail address: stephen.kelsey@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:i lost my nan 1 yr ago today they say that time heals i hope so i miss her so much god bless please look in from time to time

love always and forever
steve & tracy
Saturday, February 19th 2005 - 12:30:14 AM
Name: linda
Comments:i lost my husband of 27 years in sept 04.he had an abdominal aortic aneurysm. the doc`s operated and sucsesfully mended it .but it seems no one noticed a wound dehision , he had to be operated on again 2 weeks later.three weeks after his first opp ,my husband died of general sepsis,in the three weeks he spent in hospital he suffered badly,how can these things happen,why is it your lives are ruined by the people who should be helping,we havent even got a death certificate yet. not till the inquest is over
Saturday, February 5th 2005 - 05:51:53 PM
Name: Scott
E-mail address: scottstrang@hotmail.com
Comments:I have just lost my big brother. He passed suddenly in bed on 27 August 2004. He was aged 32. I want him back so much. So many things never said. I know I will never accept it. Life will only become harder the longer I dont see him. Its a scary thought all the years I have ahead of me without him, missing him.

I think the only thing to keep me going is the most intense hope that I will be with him again some day.

Garry, I love you. You are in my thoughts every moment of every day.
Wednesday, January 26th 2005 - 10:52:52 AM
Name: michelle Surrell
E-mail address: michelle_surrell@hotmail.com
Comments:Thank you for this wonderful site. I lost My Dad on 10/12/04
suddenly and I miss him so much.
People say time heals but it is still early days.
Friday, January 21st 2005 - 05:09:11 PM
Name: TARA
E-mail address: bensam@sympatico.ca
Comments:Great Website.I lost my mom September 21,2004 and can't believe she is gone.She was my best friend and the only one I could really talk too and "let my hair down".I sent her on vacation and she died peacefully on vacation.I am truly lost inside.She was a great mom and very cool for 83.I don't have any other family that I can rely on for support and my friends think that I should be "over it" by now - they just don't get it.I think about her 24/7.I am trying to get back to the same but I am really out of sorts.I would love to correspond with someone.Thanks.
Tuesday, January 18th 2005 - 10:22:43 PM
Name: Ergin Mehmet
E-mail address: ed@shortlands.com
Comments:My brother had brutal diabetes from the age of 9 he sadly
died at 30 it was the worst death you can think of
30th december 2 yaers ago his life ended they had to amputate his leg becouse of gangrene in this operation he sufferd 3 heart attacks and his brain was starved of oxygen
he then remained in a coma for 7 day he did not move or open his eyes complete still. The doctors said there was no hope
and switched of all machines except for 1 his heart rate
machine standing there at his last hours i watched this machine go to zero then my great freind bother opened his eyes and looked at me this is what i see everyday a very painfull feeling in my heart this has effected my hole life
please help me someone
Friday, January 14th 2005 - 01:16:02 AM
Name: Christine
E-mail address: Trimerch3@aol.com
Comments: I lost my mother three and a half years ago at the age of 51. I am fortunate to have a loving husband and family. I get on with life and try to live it to the full but think about my mother everyday.
Wednesday, January 12th 2005 - 11:48:42 PM
Name: carol
E-mail address: lorac177038@aol.com
Comments:i was just looking for somewhere that i can visit and try to sort my head out..i hope this web site can help me
Wednesday, January 12th 2005 - 09:33:59 AM
Name: jackie
E-mail address: jackie@hayes1987.fsnet.co.uk@fs
Comments:I lost my husband Martin in may 2004 I'm really finding it hard living without him.He had a brain haemorrhage january 2001 had operation and recovered well back to normal,but in september 2001 he had another one which left him disabled.He could'nt walk eat or drink,he had to be tube fed.He was'nt brain damaged he could talk and knew what was going on.He was in hospital 6 months when I took him home he was very confused and could'nt sit up,but with our determination his recovery was remarkable.He could dress himself wash and shave and also we used to go to bingo together and he used to play 6 books,he used to love it so we did live life to the full.We went on holiday together and I always took him out,I was his fulltime carer.so now I feel so empty.I do go to work now I work 12 hour shifts and do lots of overtime as while I'm there I feel I'm in another world,then when I finished and returning home thats when the reallity hits. Jackie
Tuesday, January 4th 2005 - 09:26:36 AM
Name: Ola McMillian
E-mail address: olamcanthony@wmconnect.com
Comments: This is a wonderful site.i lost my daughter nov,7,04
at 3:15 pm on sunday afternoon, she was 34 yrs old. she was not just my daughter she had become my friend, ilove and miss her very much. sometimes it feels as tho i am not going to make it, but then i began to thank God for the time we had together. some time my tears are tears of joy and sometime tears of sadness, i know that she is in a better place and i thank God that i have a chance and a choice to be with her one day.
Friday, December 17th 2004 - 02:46:03 AM
Name: Kath Henness
E-mail address: KathHenness@MSN.com
Homepage URL: http://yahoo
Comments:I am writing this because I miss my baby daughter. Emily was born on 18.5.04 full term, all was well we thought. How wrong could we be - for nine months it had gone unnoticed how seriously poorly she was. She died three days after her birth. I am lost. I don't know what to do. Her room is still ready for her - but it is empty like me
Monday, December 13th 2004 - 02:42:02 PM
Name: susan willis
E-mail address: willysue64@msn.com
Comments:looking for help after my boyfriend has died but there is also a perhaps is it true
Sunday, December 12th 2004 - 12:04:36 PM
Name: Allison
E-mail address: cormie40@hotmail.com
Comments:I found this site after many hours of looking. I really hope it is offering the help that I need. Life just seems so hard at the moment and sleeping all the time seems to me to be the best thing to do. I just feel that it's too hard to stay awake most of the time.
Saturday, December 11th 2004 - 01:31:07 AM
Name: taffy
E-mail address: saffronsnowden@hotmail.com
Comments:Hi, I lost my lovely mum of 54 in september, life will neve be the same again, she died suddenly of an unexpected heart attack, she never drunk or smoked, it does'nt seem fair. she was such a wonderful mum and she leaves a husband of 38 years, and 5 kids that are struggling so much with the loss. I'm on another planet half of the time, it seems we are stuck in a selfish ratrace as it's so hard coping each day. If anyone wants to email me then feel free, I sometimes feel like I need a friend that understands what I'm going through, it's a comfort to know that I'm not the only one.
Rest in peace mum, I wish you were still here and I could still see your beautiful face, love you forever and will never stop, proud to be a part of you, will cherish every memory of you deep inside my heart,
Taffy
Friday, December 10th 2004 - 10:44:42 AM
Name: Becky (Emilys mum)
E-mail address: rebeccamcdowell_41@hotmail.com
Homepage URL: http:// http:// www.thetalkshop.org
Comments:your site is lovely thankyou for sharing it with us all,i lost my 12yr old twin daughter in march 02.i was just wondering if anyone has ever visited http://www.talkshop.org
it is a wonderful site for bereaved parents its a wonderful community......please take a look and have a chat..thankyou xxx
Wednesday, December 8th 2004 - 12:18:28 AM
Name: Mialu645
E-mail address: Mialu645@hotmail.com
Homepage URL: http://bprt1.org/extreme.html
Comments:such a nice site!
Sunday, December 5th 2004 - 06:51:13 PM
Name: Alex James
E-mail address: alex@alexjamesbereavement.com
Homepage URL: http://www.alexjamesbereavement.com
Comments:Hello all visitors I am inviting you to visit my website and msn group where I offer bereavement support. I visit frequently and reply to all mails and post within 24 hours.
You can read more about me and my work at www.alexjamesbereavement.com
from here you can access my support group
GriefLine
all services from this website and group are free of charge.
Thankyou for reading take care Alex
Saturday, November 27th 2004 - 09:06:44 AM
Name: Laura
Comments:I lost my Mam on Oct. 21st 2004. I am finding it so hard to cope with, I still think that she's going to walk back through the door again. But she won't. We done everything together, she was my rock. I'm only 16 but I feel so much older at the moment, doing everything for my Dad. I miss my Mam more than words can explain, but I know that she's watching over me everyday.
Love You Mam,

Laura xxx
Saturday, November 20th 2004 - 09:06:04 PM
Name: Dawn
E-mail address: dtbarr@hotmail.com
Comments:Firstly I want to send understanding thoughts to everyone who has left messages, life is so cruel.

I lost my husband 14 years ago he was only 29 and I had two young sons (4 and 1) and was expecting our third. He died suddenly with no chance for goodbye, not that it would have made any difference I was not ready to say farewell. We had been together since we were 11, he was my world, my soul mate and when he went he took part of me with him.

Still to this day I cannot "accept" that he will never return and put a genuine smile on my face instead of the false mask that I wear for social acceptance, unfortunately people who have not experience such sorrow do not understand that the feel of loss never goes you just learn to hide it.

Many things happened when he died which I do not understand and family members decided to abandone me and my children which deepened the grief, i have a new partner who I care about deeply but it will never be the same and to be honest I JUST WANT MARTIN BACK
Wednesday, November 17th 2004 - 03:11:24 PM
Name: frankkk
E-mail address: reese@pagewise.com
Comments:Hello, nice site!
Sunday, November 14th 2004 - 04:55:55 PM
Name: John Belcher
E-mail address: erato2@onetel,com
Saturday, November 13th 2004 - 08:36:09 PM
Name: Julie
E-mail address: Nekta@aol.com
Comments:I lost my 19yr old son on the 9th of September 2004. He was on a training exercise in the Czech Republic. We don't know what happened to the helicopter so we can guess at what happened. Not a moment goes by when I think of him. The pain is real, it cuts deep in me. I picture him smiling at me with a can of beer in his hand, his normal 'happy' pose. Then the realization hits home like a smack in the face.I don't know how to feel? I'm angry,sad,tearfuland then I think about what he'd be saying to me if he saw me like this, then the 'face' comes on. I have a 'face' for everything I have to do. People are braver now and approaching me more so I have to appear to be coping, when inside I'm screaming - 'WHY?' I have a husband and 2 younger children so I have to appear strong for them, but when they go to work and school, I sit and cry at his photo's. I miss him so much. It's my birthday next week and it would have been Brad's 20th, 4 days later, I won't be celebrating this year or evermore. I just want to see him, laughing and joking, playing his music loud.
Wednesday, November 10th 2004 - 11:10:27 AM
Name: edie
E-mail address: edie@denmark2003.freeserve.co.uk
Comments:this is a very good idea best wishes with it. i found it looking for help for my 2 little grandaughters who lost their daddy this morning.kep up the good work
Monday, November 8th 2004 - 10:52:31 PM
Name: JO
E-mail address: jobeeuk2004@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:i lost my brother on easter sunday this year, he was 24 and it was accidental death. I will never get over losing him and would love to hear from anyone in the same position, if just to know what i am feeling is normal.
I wish someone could invent a cure for losing my little brother.. I miss you Barry xx
hugs to you all xxx
Tuesday, October 26th 2004 - 02:59:32 PM
Name: cathy
E-mail address: under1taker@yahoo.o.uk
Comments:im trying to find someone to talkto thats been through an eptopi pregnany that resulted in a life thretaning opperation please an you help me
Friday, October 22nd 2004 - 08:41:03 PM
Name: Alex
Homepage URL: http://www.alexjamesbereavement.com
Comments:New book ' Living With Bereavement'
Friday, October 15th 2004 - 05:35:55 PM
Name: Angie Crimmins
E-mail address: angy.crimmins@btopenworld.com
Comments:I lost my dearest husband Jim 2 years and 3 months ago. He died suddenly after no illness - I never got the chance to say goodbye, and to let him know how much I loved him... My heart aches, but I am trying to rebuild my life, I have three wonderful children that keep me going. So many questions, but not really any answers - I know love never dies and that our love will always be, but sometimes its tough. I have moved forward slowly and I just want to be happy again like the old me. I think your site is wonderful, I have been looking for something like this for months. Thank you
Thursday, October 14th 2004 - 11:31:45 PM
Name: Carole Bridge
E-mail address: carole.bridge59@btopenworld.com
Comments:Lost my mum on 25 September 2005, and am missing her so much. She was an 81 year old what some people would call a 'groovy gran'. How many 80 year olds can use a mobile phone, including the texting with all the abbreviations! She had a fabulous sense of humour, but also a foul temper and Lord help anyone who got on the wrong side of her. She was great, and our loss is Heaven's gain!
Wednesday, October 13th 2004 - 07:22:21 PM
Name: mel
E-mail address: mel349@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my nan (who was like a mum to me) a few months ago and it feels like my heart will break i love her so much and miss her loads at the moment it dosent feel like it will get any better but people keep saying it will that time is a great healer i hope so
bye for now mel x x
Friday, October 8th 2004 - 02:26:54 PM
Name: lynsey mackay
E-mail address: lamackay20@hotmail.com
Friday, October 8th 2004 - 01:52:15 PM
Name: Ebintel038
E-mail address: Ebintel038@hotmail.com
Homepage URL: http://ebintel.com/
Comments:that's pretty good site
Thursday, October 7th 2004 - 10:29:35 PM
Name: Geoff
E-mail address: immaculate.conceptions@virgin.net
Comments:10 years ago I lost my lovely wife to cancer. She had been so terribly ill for three years and, believe it or not, in all that time I never thought hat she would die. It was and still is the greatest shock to me that she has gone. She just loved life and life loved her. Everyone whom she touched was touched by her and even after so long a time all her friends and contacts remember her with love and deep affection and tell me what a wonderul person she was and how much she meant to them.

I still feel so very sad whenever I think of her; which is most of the time. Life does go on but it is all so empty compared to how it was when we were together. She was my 'everything'. I know I have to find a way to deal with this but it is so difficult and all I want is for someone to help point me in the right direction. Ten years is a long time and even though I continue to find pleasure in life I somehow need help to come to terms with the way things are now. Maybe this is impossible. Maybe my feelings of deep sadness will last for the rest of my life. Wow! I hope not. I would just love to convert all this sadness into something more positive. Does anyone have any ideas?

Geoff
Wednesday, October 6th 2004 - 07:26:41 PM
Name: Christina McCarthy
E-mail address: chrisanddel2003@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:My beloved husband died on the 17th August 2004 after a long battle with Mesothelioma (asbestos related lung cancer). After six weeks I still cannot believe that he will never return home to me. He was in a hospice for two weeks but we never thought that he would not come out of there. After being with him since I was 14 years old - how does one cope with the complete loss. I have such pain in my heart. I would like to hear from others who have had the same loss.
Sunday, October 3rd 2004 - 05:36:01 PM
Name: Kate
E-mail address: katejackson3@hotmail.com
Comments:Yesterday I finally was able to scatter my Wal's ashes I lost him 2years 4months ago but today I feel as if it's happened again, I had to let him go as he was always a free spirit Thank God for this site and the Garden of Tranquillity Thank You Lyn for keeping his stone there for me I visit it often.
Sunday, October 3rd 2004 - 01:32:28 PM
Name: Ronalee
E-mail address: ronalee61484@aol.com
Homepage URL: http://music.zared.com/Styles/Dance/Clubbing/
Comments:I really like your site!
Monday, September 20th 2004 - 10:03:50 PM
Name: Fiona
E-mail address: SunFireWolf@aol.com
Comments:Three years ago, I lost my dad to lung cancer. I wasn't there when he died as he lived in the US and I live in Scotland. My son and I visited just two weeks before hand, so we got to say our goodbyes at least. I couldn't get back out for his funeral as it was September 2001 and the airports were all still closed after the terrorist attacks. In July this year, I lost my mum. It was very sudden. She had a massive heart attack and the doctor's say it would have been instant. I 'found her' the day after it happened when I went to drop the dog off on Monday morning as she used to watch him while I worked. She was 68 years old.

Two weeks later, my cat went out one night and never came home again. That was six weeks ago, and I know he's passed over also. To most he was only an animal, but I'd had him since he was a tiny kitten, hours old, and loved him dearly.

Two days ago, my teenage son moved out of home for the first time to go away to University. I am grateful every day that he is healthy and well. I'm an only child so really miss having someone to share my grief with. I'm being monitored right now for cervical cancer, and wish my mother was here to talk to. This has been the worst Summer of my life, but reading everyone's posts, I feel a little less isolated now. Peace and hope to everyone.
Saturday, September 4th 2004 - 08:03:17 PM
Name: georg
Homepage URL: http://www.race.at
Comments:your site is definately awesome and well done ...

greetz from vienna/austria
and stay creative !!
Monday, August 30th 2004 - 10:48:37 AM
Name: Gemma Clark
E-mail address: gingem123@hotmail.com
Comments:My beautiful Mum Christina died nearly 3 weeks ago on Aug 6th 2004. It was a complete shock. She had not been eating really since January this year and had several tests. They finally admintted her to hospital in May 2004 where 2 weeks later we were advised that she had stomach cancer. We were totally deavstated but were told that it was treatable. She came home on 19th July but was still receiveing chemotherapy. She was diue to finish her chemo on the 23/8 and then they could have operated.
On the 6th August I got a call at work from my Dad who told me that Mum had collapsed and died at home. We have since found out that a massive blood clot had moved on to her lungs and she died instantly. She was only 54 and I am only 27. I feel so robbed, she was my best friend and the loveliest Mum in the world. My sister is 6 months pregnant with her 1st child and is devastated not to have my mum around. My mum didnt see either of us get married or see any grandchildren and my dad is completely lost. I never thought the this would be so physically painful. It has made me cry again reading all the stories but it does help to know that one day it might feel a bit better even though at the moment i feel that I will never have any happy christmas's or times or ever get married without my mum there.
Wednesday, August 25th 2004 - 06:04:40 PM
Name: aku chi nwata
E-mail address: maga@work.com
Homepage URL: http://www.magas.mugu
Comments:my condolence to the brown's family.
and to all magas i dey here.
Tuesday, August 24th 2004 - 12:03:49 PM
Name: Drug Detox
E-mail address: drug@test.com
Homepage URL: http://www.docself.com/detox/
Comments:Very nice site.
Monday, August 23rd 2004 - 04:36:17 AM
Name: debbie
E-mail address: debbie2337@hotmail.com
Comments:hi i am 34 and i have 2 girls and a husband i lost the only next best person apart from my immediate family and thats my mum she died last april suddenly my life ended when she died i never got to say goodbye and that i loved her and that has creased me inside she went in hospital with non-hodgkins lymphoma and died off septicemia but a few days before she died she got brain damage so she could not talk to me but she knew i was there. she had tears in the corners off her eyes that broke my heart i keep hoping i will see her or come to visit me but no such luck but i will see her agin one day hope i havent bored you silly thanks for listening
Thursday, August 5th 2004 - 07:56:16 PM
Name: pauline smith
E-mail address: pauline.smith39@btinternet.com
Comments:i lost my husband on 18 august 2003 your site has made a great differenc to me bless you
Monday, July 26th 2004 - 07:37:03 PM
Name: mary jo moore
E-mail address: lftbhind@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my husband to suicide two years ago. Your site is very comforting, thanks!
MJ Moore
Wednesday, July 21st 2004 - 01:30:40 AM
Name: Karen
Comments:My mam has been gone for 10 years now and I am just having a moment of memories and thoughts. Life for me has not and will never be the same, it is only different. A life without my mother seeing me get married, without my mother seeing her grandchildren,without my mother simply 'being there'. However, I now no longer cry for the life that she is not living I now feel grateful for the life that she did. I do not need the photographs anymore all the comfort I need is now within me. I send hopes for you all that your journey will lead you to the same place.
Saturday, July 10th 2004 - 09:18:28 PM
Name: Dennis
E-mail address: caernarfon@blueyonder.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://bethden.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I'm sitting here still full of tears reading of the loss of so many loved ones. My darling wife of fifty years died at home on the 22nd. June as I kissed her and told her how much I loved her.She lost her valient fight of 7.5 years with cancer.
She left me a piece of prose to help me which can be found under poetry on our site.
Lost from sight but never from memory.
Friday, July 9th 2004 - 10:24:27 AM
Name: silas brent
Comments:i can reccomend www.ashesinternational.com to anyone who wants to scatter ashes abroad.
they helped me organise a service to india recently.
Sunday, July 4th 2004 - 08:18:22 PM
Name: sherilee peaty
Comments:I lost my Mum 14 years ago. I cant beleive it. At the time I was expecting my first child and no one was happier than me to be spending time with my beloved mum. Then mum passed away suddenly and i gave birth and have never felt so alone in my life. I coped and pretended everything was a dream (or nightmare). Today though I feel totally and utterly worthless and dont want to live any longer without mum.
Sunday, July 4th 2004 - 01:37:53 PM
Name: sherilee peaty
Comments:I lost my Mum 14 years ago. I cant beleive it. At the time I was expecting my first child and no one was happier than me to be spending time with my beloved mum. Then mum passed away suddenly and i gave birth and have never felt so alone in my life. I coped and pretended everything was a dream (or nightmare). Today though I feel totally and utterly worthless and dont want to live any longer without mum.
Sunday, July 4th 2004 - 01:37:51 PM
Name: Dot
E-mail address: dorothy.jessop@ntlworld.com
Comments:My wonderful husband, Rayner, died on 21st June 2004 after battling bravely with cancer for two and a half years. We had been together for 37 years and the prospect of carrying on without him is unbearable.
Thursday, July 1st 2004 - 01:34:09 AM
Name: Ellen Marston
E-mail address: ellene@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:I am 28 and I lost my dad 3 weeks ago to Cancer. He went into hospital on a Thursday and we were told on Saturday that he could pass away at anytime. He eventally gave up his fight and went to sleep in the early hours of Monday morning. I do not know how I should be feeling right now, I just want to do the simple things like pick the phone up and tell him how much I love him, I can't seem to take in the fact I will never see him again.
I have read all the messages on this site and have realised that I am not the only one going through this major heartache. If anyone wants to talk or give me some advice then please do so, it would be welcome.
Thanks for this site being here, it has helped me alot.
Ellen
Tuesday, June 29th 2004 - 10:09:38 PM
Name: Sheila
E-mail address: sheilawinter2003@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Just looking for some kind of answer when I know there isn't one! My mum died on Christmas Day last year and I'm finding it very difficult to "get my act together". She was aged 87 and had dementia so I couldn't talk to her for the last 3 years of her life. My Dad died 20 years ago and I still miss him. Feels like all my "links" have gone now I'm the only one left. Sheila
Monday, June 21st 2004 - 07:18:03 PM
Name: Sheila
E-mail address: sheilawinter2003@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Just looking for some kind of answer when I know there isn't one! My mum died on Christmas Day last year and I'm finding it very difficult to "get my act together". She was aged 87 and had dementia so I couldn't talk to her for the last 3 years of her life. My Dad died 20 years ago and I still miss him. Feels like all my "links" have gone now I'm the only one left. Sheila
Monday, June 21st 2004 - 07:15:41 PM
Name: Kate
Comments:Friday 4th June was 2years since my Wal died I still miss him so much and think of him every day my life is empty without him.
Monday, June 7th 2004 - 05:56:20 PM
Name: becomingbird
E-mail address: becomingbird@aol.com
Comments:hi i lost my only brother on the 3 may 2004,craig my brother was only going to get fuel he had a fatle moterbike accident we have been told he died sudden,he would be 29 on the 6 june,,,we will be parting with his ashes on that day ,,i miss him so much i keep thinking its not happing to me am just watchinh is night mear unfold,,i miss his smile,his smell, i feel so nume,,good night god bless u craig,,,your forever loving sister tina
Sunday, May 30th 2004 - 01:51:56 AM
Name: John Mosley
E-mail address: john.mosley@wanadoo.fr
Comments:Thanks for being here. Still feel hopelessly lost since Pat died on the 2nd April 2004. A most marvelous wife for 45yrs. At only 64 she was still my girl friend & companion.
Pehaps having read the guest book, the realization that I am not alone will help, and hope that you all will gain comradeship and comfort from these pages.
Friday, May 28th 2004 - 04:37:51 PM
Name: Chris Whelan
E-mail address: chriswhelan2000@hotmail.com
Comments:Hi everyone
I am so sad today my brother Cliff was killed in a car accident on 6th April 2004 I miss him so much. Also on 6th May 2004 my daughter Amy who was pregnant went happily for her scan to learn that there was a problem her baby could not survive and needed to be terminated. Joshua George was born on 9th may 2004. He was so tiny he fitted on my hand and was so perfectly formed he looked lovely. Amy cannot cope with her grief and I am arranging his funeral for her. It is so wrong I should not be arranging a funeral for my grandson I should be watching him live his life.

I hope in heaven Joshua will be loved and cherished as much as he is here. Maybe Cliff went first to look after him there.

You are all in my heart and thoughts as we grieve together for our loved ones.
Wednesday, May 12th 2004 - 07:47:56 AM
Name: Jo
Comments:I lost my gramp 11 years ago this week, my nan and gramp in the last few years and today my mother in law. I have also had a miscarriage. I have shouldered all the responsibilities and grief of my husband,sister in law and my children. I have arranged everything for everyone for the past eight weeks as well as holding down a full time job. The last two days have been very hard. Sitting and waiting for my M.I.L to pass on as she was in a great deal of pain. It was a happy release.
Saturday, May 8th 2004 - 10:57:30 PM
Name: Site
Homepage URL: http://site-visitor.org.uk/
Comments:It is a great comfort to know such well intentioned people as you are there for when people need them
Sunday, May 2nd 2004 - 02:16:40 PM
Name: allison
Comments:Marklyn Paxton 2nd May 1939 - 13th Sept 2001

Today 2nd May 2004 would have been my mams 65th birthday, and without adoubt there would have been a huge party for my mam Marklyn Paxton and her twin brother,but no cards no party, no gifts..god may have taken our mam..but he hasnt taken the memory of such a beautiful woman and our best friend..

happy birthday mam...love you always from
your loving husband Ray
and your children Andrea,Alan,Beverly,Allison,Mandy
love you always xx
Sunday, May 2nd 2004 - 01:06:51 PM
Name: Sinead
Comments:I feel angry, lonely and like my heart will break in two. I watched my husband die and couldn't do anything to stop it he was only 33. We'd been married just 8 and a half years with a 6 month old daughter and he wasn't just my husband he was my best friend. I miss him so much and can't bear to think of life without him. I will never ever forget him.
Sunday, May 2nd 2004 - 12:14:20 AM
Name: Michelle
E-mail address: nessynel@tinyworld.co.uk
Comments:My husband, Andy died on 27th February 2004 from a blood clot on the lung, which was released from a tumour on his kidney. He was only 42. It was very sudden and we only found out a bout the tumour one week earlier. The doctors told us he would be fine after an operation which was booked for 11th March.

Two weeks earlier we found out I was carrying his child. I was 7 weeks pregnant when my lovely husband was taken from me.

On 26th April we would have celebrated our first wedding anniversary.

Life is so cruel.
Saturday, May 1st 2004 - 09:01:44 AM
Name: lynne
E-mail address: lynneseven@tiscali.co.uk
Wednesday, April 14th 2004 - 05:20:32 PM
Name: lynne monaghan
E-mail address: lynneseven@tiscali.co.uk
Tuesday, April 13th 2004 - 10:33:46 AM
Name: nicola
E-mail address: chamone25@hotmail.com
Comments:hi, im 25 with a 4 year old son. my granda was taken from me in 2000 aged 71 he suffered a stroke and was in hospital 4 a while suffering before he went he was taken away from me on the 16th august, my granda was like a second dad 2 me and 4 year on im still numb. my granda's wife, my nana, was taken cruelly from me on the 24th febuary 2003, she was dianosed with lung cancer on the thursday and left me the following sunday, it was that quick it still hasnt sunk in partly because i refuse 2 let it sink in, dont think about it keep busy. on the last saturday of my nanas life all my family were at her house (my nana is my mams mam and my mam has 4 sisters and they have kids) and when it was time 2 go everyone went upstairs one by one 2 say gudbye not knowing it wud b the last time they did say gudbye, after my nana died i realized i was the only person not 2 say gudbye 2 my nana, i never got 2 say gudbye, that absolutly kills me. i surprised myself at how calm i was being but sumhow i felt i had 2 keep it 2gether and bring sum light on it, so with a smile i plodded on. i threw myself in2 helpin with the arrangements and had the opportunity 2 pick 2 songs that were played at the funeral and when my nana's ashes were in the urn i got 2 place the urn in2 a hole dug above my grandas grave, that gives me sum sense of..........i dunno. i didnt mean 2 write as much i just like 2 talk write about it rather than speak ov it.
thanx 4 bein patient xxx
Sunday, April 11th 2004 - 11:52:14 PM
Name: louise
E-mail address: pearson1974@aol.com
Comments:I have just lost my dad 11 days ago,he took his own life.it hurts me so much as he never left a note or said good bye. My dad died on 18 march 2004.
Monday, March 29th 2004 - 06:55:49 PM
Name: sian lane
E-mail address: sian_lane
Homepage URL: http://hotmail.com
Comments:My 16 year old daughter died very suddenly 3 years ago.
Tuesday, March 23rd 2004 - 10:38:45 PM
Name: sian lane
E-mail address: sian_lane
Homepage URL: http://hotmail.com
Comments:My 16 year old daughter died very suddenly 3 years ago.
Tuesday, March 23rd 2004 - 10:38:39 PM
Name: tommy roberts
E-mail address: tommyeverton@blueyonder.co.uk
Comments:My darling wife Margaret was taken from me in the blink of an eye.. pancreatic cancer within 3 weeks of diagnosis.. she died on 2nd Feb 04 and I'm devastated but now join you all on this site in your prayers that we all meet up again one sunny day..
Friday, March 19th 2004 - 04:30:15 PM
Name: Leasa
E-mail address: weejimmy02@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:Hi ive just read everyones storys an im in tears!! i feel so silly because the first time i came on here and typed my message, immediatlely i wanted to erase it coz i felt so stupid, but reading other peoples messages makes me feel, Im not alone and there are other people out there that are suffering to and if i could give you all a big hug i would!!! I just feel when people read what i have written, they will think i am selfish! BUT I really am not, i just havent had the chance to grieve, and feel i cant! This site is good but i wish i could talk to someone!! I feel so lonely sometimes and wanna have a good cry but i keep it all in coz my dad not well!! Oh well, nevermind, ANYWAY, Big hugs to you all who need it and chin up, it will get better!! Well, thats what i tell myself anyway!!

Thanks for reading this! Even if you didnt, thanks anyway!!
Friday, March 19th 2004 - 12:51:16 AM
Name: Mary Mann Mother of Michael
E-mail address: paulshotshot58@aol.com
Comments:Easter sunday of last year, My son went to live with Jesus.
He was 21 years old and one of Gods children. I had the joy to birth and watch him grow. I miss him dearly. I love this web page you got here. I read where some lost more then one child. I could have lost all my family that day the baby safty seat you can not tell that is what it was. The van rolled six times. The baby was with me and I did not take the trip. All the family was fine but my son took the van to live with Jesus he died on impact. His son was not born yet but was in his mom in the van that day. Born Sept. 18, 03 Looked just like his dad's baby picture. God gave me a gift, Michael's son. Hard yes and I have my days, use to have my moments,, birthdays Mothers day, christmas and songs make me sad. When I see and hold David Michael in my arms I feel My son's love. Mary Mann Michael's Mother
Friday, March 12th 2004 - 02:05:35 AM
Name: Jo Tomes
E-mail address: Jo_tomes@hotmail.com
Comments:Iv had a long line of family deaths i lost my younger brother when he was 18 to suiside then my mom 7 years later when i was just 28 my nan last year feb 2003 and my best friend suddenly to a brain tumor last august recently i have also had amiscarriage which is another form of loss people often ask me how i carry on and the truth is i dont know all i know is that each day is a struggle and sometimes life is unbearabley sad and hopeless and time for me isnt a great healer, but i have a wonderful husband and 2 beautifull children and knowing that im not alone and there is always someone worse of than myself helps me and knowing that i will have good days
Thursday, February 26th 2004 - 04:54:37 PM
Name: peter brennan
E-mail address: pedro_red7@hotmail.com
Comments:Lost my Dad in October 2003,we had fallen out quite badly and I hadn't seen him since May.I'm an only child and he brought me up alone,then he died alone.
The memories just keep on coming,I find it very difficult sometimes.But I will come through and make him proud,someday
Thursday, February 26th 2004 - 02:13:43 PM
Name: Amanda
E-mail address: Amanda.naylor1@ntlworld.com
Comments:I lost my nan 30th November, 2003 after a very short illness. My nan was everything to me, I saw her every week and I could talk to her about everything. I have just started as a student nurse and she was so interested in what I was doing and learning and I keep forgetting she is not here sometimes, I often think oh I must tell Nan what I learned today. I know she is proud of what I am doing and looks over me everyday, but I know she is with Grandad now and is no longer suffering.

You will always be in my heart nan
Monday, February 23rd 2004 - 03:47:46 PM
Name: steve
E-mail address: stephen.kelsey@tiscali.co.uk
Comments:IVE' JUST COME FROM THE HOSPITAL WHERE I HAVE JUST LOST MY NAN I KNOW SHE IS AT PEACE AND GOING TO JOIN MY GRAMPS I HADE A FANTASTIC CHILDHOOD AND A TREMENDUS AMOUNT OF GUIDEANCE FROM THEM BOTH MAY GOD BLESS THEM BOTH I KNOW THEY WILL BOTH WATCH OVER ME AND MY WIFE

WILL MISS YOU ALWAYS NAN LOVE STEVE
Wednesday, February 18th 2004 - 11:55:20 PM
Name: Elisha TAYLOR
E-mail address: JLO33127@AOL.COM
Comments:Thankyou for creating this sight it has helped knowing that people are going through what i am going through
Friday, February 13th 2004 - 09:35:47 AM
Name: Rosemary Huyser
E-mail address: janrose@ntlworld.com
Comments:I lost my middle son in 1997 in a RTA,he was 23yrs old,it was a terrible shock and ours lives changed forever,then in 2001 my eldest son was killed in a motorbike accident he was 29yrs old,they were both killed in South Africa where we were living.We came here in 2002 to be near our daughter,as she is all we have.I miss my sons terribly.
My thoughts to all who have losted a loved one.
Rosemary Huyser.
Thursday, February 5th 2004 - 08:27:55 PM
Name: Mandi
E-mail address: mandi@alternature.co.uk
Comments:I lost my Nan on the 16th January after a very short illness. I stayed with her in the intensive care unit until she died and with her she took a little piece of my heart. She was like a mum to me and what ever I did, it was always okay with her. I will miss her every day and on even the most dark, rainy days I know that she is with me because she is the brightest rainbow in the sky! Goodnight nan - sleep tight and I'll see you later. Your forever loving grand-daughter - Mandi XXXX
Thursday, February 5th 2004 - 11:48:07 AM
Name: Sam
E-mail address: samatha@fraser5510.freeserve.co.uk
Comments:I lost the love of my life Neil on 2nd December 2003 when he was involved in a car accident. I miss him so much i cant think of anything else. We had been together since May 2002 and had been living together. We had recently been having silly arguements and both agreed it was best if he moved out for a while. Now i will never be given the chance to put things right and i feel so bad about that. It seems so unfair - he was only 20. I want to tell him how sorry i am for the way i acted and that i would do anything to go back and try again. I hope that he is out there somewhere and that i can be with him again. I feel like i will never get over this. I came to this site looking for something - not sure what, and i want to thank you for listening to me.

Neil, I love you with all my heart and always will
Sam XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Thursday, January 29th 2004 - 12:56:36 PM
Name: Sam
E-mail address: samatha@fraser5510.freeserve.co.uk
Comments:I lost the love of my life Neil on 2nd December 2003 when he was involved in a car accident. I miss him so much i cant think of anything else. We had been together since May 2002 and had been living together. We had recently been having silly arguements and both agreed it was best if he moved out for a while. Now i will never be given the chance to put things right and i feel so bad about that. It seems so unfair - he was only 20. I want to tell him how sorry i am for the way i acted and that i would do anything to go back and try again. I hope that he is out there somewhere and that i can be with him again. I feel like i will never get over this. I came to this site looking for something - not sure what, and i want to thank you for listening to me.

Neil, I love you with all my heart and always will
Sam XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Thursday, January 29th 2004 - 12:54:39 PM
Name: Vicky
E-mail address: toomuchbeer2003@aol.com
Comments:My daughter died suddenly on the 7th Dec 2003 she was 15 years old, she had a massive brain hemorrhage and her friends left her for at least two hours before they rang an ambulence, I feel so angry they were supposed to be her friends, but I feel angry with myself I am her mother and I didnot protect her.

for my baby Chloe
Sorry baby
Saturday, January 24th 2004 - 10:52:57 PM
Name: Leasa
E-mail address: weejimmy02@yahoo.co.uk
Comments:I feel a bit silly writing in this when there are so many people whose loved ones have just died! I lost my cousin on 31st january 2001, aged 23! He was tragically taken from us by a drunk driver, who might i add is still swaning about like nothing was his fault! I just hate this month, it makes me so sad, angry, etc... I dont think i will ever get over this! We all grew up together and he was like my little brother, we went clubbing together and even though he was younger than me he always looked out for me! The last time i saw him was my wedding and i never got a chance to speak to him much or even dance with him, i feel soo guilty! I cant even watch my wedding video!! I miss him so much! There isnt a day that goes by when i dont cry or think of him! I just wish....... well what we all probably do that we could turn the clock back!

JAMES, I WANT YOU TO KNOW I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND EVEN THO YOU MOVED AWAY I STILL MISSED YOU ALL EVERYDAY AND THOUGHT ABOUT YOU ALL!! I WISH YOU HAD NEVER MOVED AND MAYBE THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT TODAY!! I WILL MISS YOU FOR ETERNITY AND NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS!! YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND MY MIND EVERYDAY AND I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS! SLEEP WELL BRAVEHEART!!

Your loving cousin, Leasa.xxxx
Wednesday, January 21st 2004 - 03:49:50 PM
Name: stacey
E-mail address: stacey132@msn.com
Saturday, January 17th 2004 - 01:17:48 PM
Name: wayne sargeant
E-mail address: midnightcaller22@hotmail.com
Thursday, January 15th 2004 - 09:59:55 PM
Name: linda
Monday, January 12th 2004 - 11:52:21 PM
Name: Michael
E-mail address: mdpilter@aol.com
Comments:My wife, Stella, was working this time last year. She went for various tests and on 31 March 2003, we, my wife, my 15 year old daughter and myself went to see the oncologist. He said "if we can get you well enough for some treatment" . That was the first indication that things were terminal. Stella died on 30 April. One month later. It`s now just over 8 months and I haven`t even begun to come to terms with it. I feel so let down by the system. I really want to grieve but I can`t at present. Have just found this site and I hope it can help me find the means to open the flood-gates. Thanks for being here. Michael
Sunday, January 11th 2004 - 10:13:35 PM
Name: Geraldine
E-mail address: gezmoss@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my Dad Christmas 2001 due to cancer and Mum died three months ago also due to cancer. I was extremely close to them both and was their carer. Life now just seems a rollercoaster ride of emotions. To everyone out there, you are not alone! Thankyou for this wonderful site.
Thursday, January 8th 2004 - 06:07:21 PM
Name: heidi downey
E-mail address: missysilvershadow1@gbronline.com
Comments: Hello,
what a wonderful, moving web-site.
Thank you, God bless
Heidi
Tuesday, December 30th 2003 - 11:07:44 PM
Name: John
E-mail address: FlossieAwol@aol.com
Comments:This is my first christmas alone since I lost Rachel in August this year, I've found this site really good and it helps me a lot when I have a 'bad day' still can't understand why she was taken from me, she was only 20. we had been together five years. and the only Girlfriend I have ever had. at least looking at this site makes me realise I'm not alone. thank you

I love you Rachel
Thursday, December 25th 2003 - 10:42:01 PM
Name: Kate
E-mail address: katejackson3@hotmail.com
Comments:Christmas is so hard especially when you have lost someone close, this is my second Christmas without Wal, I have been walking round the shops thinking whatI would buy him
December was his favourite month with his B/day, Christmas and New Year he loved it. He has gone from this earth but never from my heart.
Saturday, December 20th 2003 - 07:05:44 PM
Name: Barbara Coombes
E-mail address: Barbara@Thegrove.freewire.co.uk
Comments:I have only just found your site, after looking for quite a while.
Friday, December 19th 2003 - 11:06:29 PM
Name: Denis
E-mail address: aa@yorkshirepuddings.net
Comments:I've lost so many family and friends during my 52 years that I thought I knew all there was to know about death and grief.

That was until my wife Janet died suddenly in Aug 03, then I realised I knew nothing at all, I didn't have a clue.

I feel so guilty now about the people I knew who lost someone close, only now do I truly understand what they went through, if you've got relatives/friends who don't seem to care, think on, don't blame them for their ignorance.
Monday, December 1st 2003 - 04:07:34 PM
Name: Kim
E-mail address: kimbob81@hotmail.com
Comments:I lost my partner in June 03, he was 24 and died suddenly from a blod clot on the brain. It is only just hitting me what has actually happened and what I have lost. But your site is helping me through it.
Sunday, November 30th 2003 - 10:15:56 PM
Name: beccie
E-mail address: rebecca@antcliffe1864.fsnet.co.uk
Comments:hi i recently lost my grandad 3 weeks ago. i miss him really bad, this is the first person i have lost in my family so im findin it really hard
Thursday, November 27th 2003 - 07:10:05 PM
Name: kurt
Comments: hi what is this website about
Tuesday, November 25th 2003 - 01:40:31 PM
Name: kerry
E-mail address: doods937@aol.com
Comments:I recently lost my gran 10mths ago i realy miss her and she will always will be in my heart
Sunday, November 23rd 2003 - 12:44:08 AM
Name: Karin
E-mail address: KtrLynch@aol.com
Comments:I lost my best friend last year after an operation, she had the super bug. I miss her so much, we were friend for 10 years, but I felt I had known her all my life. We spoke nearly every day. She was my soul mate. I cannot accept her death.
Saturday, November 22nd 2003 - 08:33:17 PM
Name: Derek
E-mail address: tankman32b@lineone.net
Comments:I have just lost my darling wife Jacky, and I came here looking for something!
Friday, November 21st 2003 - 09:44:24 PM
Name: jenifer
E-mail address: jenifer@cwctv.net
Comments:the time came when the pain it took to stay,was greater than the pain it took to go. matthew's mum.12/08/75 to 29/09/01
Wednesday, November 19th 2003 - 08:14:22 PM
Name: joanna eugen
E-mail address: joannaeugn@aol.com
Monday, November 17th 2003 - 06:21:06 PM
Name: Tony
E-mail address: tcourse@v21mail.co.uk
Comments:I found your site on the 4th anniversary of my wife's sudden demise to cancer just 6 weeks before we were due to retire; what a devastating blow.

You provide a wonderful service and I shall visit rgularly
Monday, November 17th 2003 - 05:25:40 PM
Name: Kate
E-mail address: katejackson3@hotmail.com
Comments:This site is a great comfort especially my headstone I visit it regularly. Thank You
Monday, November 3rd 2003 - 06:38:15 PM
Name: Denis
E-mail address: aa@yorkshirepuddings.net
Comments:Your site has given me great comfort since my wife Janet died 3 months ago, thank you for being there when people like me need you.
Sunday, October 26th 2003 - 06:44:17 PM
Name: Dave (Site Creator)
E-mail address: davlyn@blueyonder.co.uk
Homepage URL: http://www.bereavementuk.co.uk
Comments:May I wish all who sign this book, a peace and inner strength, there hearts so desire.
Friday, October 24th 2003 - 08:47:50 PM
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