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Offline MarieSpud

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Saying Hello
« on: May 18, 2020, 11:05:44 AM »
Hi, I suddenly thought how nice it would be to talk to people who were feeling the same, so here I am. My husband died 5 months ago. It was very sudden. Scarily quick.  Healthy and strong in September, feeling a bit rubbish in October, diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer at the end of October, dead in December.
He was only 55. This man that I lost was amazing, he was my life. It is now a vacuum.
I am staying physically healthy and going through the motions of daily life, but every day is the same as the last. I suppose lockdown doesn't help. I should be selling the house and starting a new life somewhere else, but that's on hold.  Someone pressed the pause button, like I'm in some strange waiting room.
Most of the time I don't feel too bad, mainly bored with the odd meltdown, like about a week ago when it was our wedding anniversary. I live on my own, don't have any children. I try and chat to neighbours from a social distance and do video quizzes with family - which is keeping me going.   But I do wonder sometimes if I may start bouncing off the walls of this house that I am rattling around in. It is way too big without him.
Love to everyone else on the forum

Offline Emz2014

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Re: Saying Hello
« Reply #1 on: May 18, 2020, 08:37:49 PM »
Sending you a welcome hug  :hug:   it definitely helped me to talk to others who understood, hope you find it helps too  :hearts:
Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise. 
Hold on in there xx

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Re: Saying Hello
« Reply #2 on: May 19, 2020, 09:33:06 AM »
Hello Marie, I hope you will have a "better" day today,am so very sorry for your loss.Sending a hug if you need one,and I hope to be able to chat more on here as time goes on.