yesterday, I heard a song that just flooded my eyes with tears for not reason - just a phrase from the song (translated - oh reader of the bible, pray to my parents, they are in heaven) and I just wanted to sob there and then, but had to hold it in, but the tears were just falling down my cheeks.
it's not like it was my father's favorite song or singer, it was just some of the lyrics.
I just hope no one noticed as I am sure everyone is just busy on their phones
the frustration is that I still lots of crying to let out, but I can no longer release it and don't know how.
I must be weird ;(
God help me at the funeral on Monday