Hi Kerry,
Replies can be slow here.
Wow, Thats really harsh of your people.If your bf leaves because to snapped at him a few times, then he will not be any use to you my dear. Although I am lucky enough to have friends that will let me be me. I had to sit down with some and explain (In a moment of turmoil no less) some of what to expect from me emotionally. I'm less than two months in and I've dis-owned a few people fr exactly the reason you said. If they cant handle me at my worst, why would I let them be with me when times are good. This has taught me ho my real friend are. These ones become family. Do you have anyone in a different social circle for instance. My wife lost her mum 6 months before she herself passed and one thing I have learned is you will have all sorts of emotional outbursts and not always when you would expect it. Try to surround yourself with people that will just sit with you and let you cry or just let you sit and talk about the one(s) you have lost. Most find it helps to talk about the loved on I do. I'm happy to talk/listen to you if your lot aren't receptive. As I'm sure a few others would be on here
I'm still a relative noob to grief myself, but I have learned a ridiculous amount in the last few months., my late wife was Psychologist and teacher.
Let me know if you want a 121 chat. x Jason