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Bereavement Support Posts => Please Post In This Bereavement Support Posting Room => Topic started by: missfrier on April 07, 2016, 07:56:05 AM
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you grew your angle wings i rember it it well it had been had hard week and i had planned to travel from deveon to to london see ou as i knew you didnt have long only my land lady had other ideas as she wanted us out by 1st of april it was snowing to i wanted come see you as i knew i wouldnt get to see you again . at 9 am on the 7th april i rang mum when mum asnswwerd she said she ring me back i knew then that you had grown ur wings i miss you so much and nan wish icould have cuddle with you right now it been hard lots going on mentally just t hear your laugh nan telling you slow down in ur car s ur doing 30 mph in a 30 speed limit and hanging on for dear life nan was funny bless her you telling nan that it ok as ur in speed limit want th happy times back wish you were still here . i know everoen wishes ther e loved one was s still here it does get easier know that to but it just feels a alot harder today i dont no if it becuase of the way i been feeling this week and things keep happening or that on saturday bradley best friend stopped and he brad were talking his friend said he was uncle and had niece to which bradley said mummy has lots nieces and one of them died she was baby then he asked me said you had niece called niayah didnt u then i had explain to brad hat i did and dr couldnt make her better to which bradley replied that shewas baby i said she was thought i wouldnt have to have chat just now as i tried t hide i know think i should of told him mayb i should but i dont know he was only 7 it was only 18 months be fore we my other grandad died things running through my head questions but i will never now im sorry.
sorry i didnt meant to ramble type all that
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No need to say sorry missfrier. You type whatever you feel you need to. You loved and missed your grandad and recent events have brought his loss back to your mind.
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Lisa one thing i do know is that Brad always comes first with you and everything you decide around him is because you are a fantastic mum. :hug:
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Ty bradley is my world , thank you hubby niayah was just baby sje was my brave beauitful niece with grandads anniversry today feels. Like.it hardest anniversry i know it gets easier today im hurting i have no motivation just want shut myself away
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There are bound to be days like this Lisa,just before Xmas I had the radio on and they played a carol my mum learned at home for her infant classes nativity,I was astounded to find myself crying it is 11 years since she died.Once you start feeling down you start feeling down on yourself and questioning your decisions but I know you did what you felt was best for Brad and it seems he was quite calm in the car when he mentioned it.
Your grandad would be so proud of you and everything you have achieved.
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thank you karena he was really calm and he seemed to accept it and carried talking to his friend when we we in london half term he mentioned somthing on train but he never mentioned anythi he may picked up as my dad has the lovley photo of blues sky and wings with niayah i dont no if i can get it come here i will tyr and post it
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(http://i424.photobucket.com/albums/pp323/bradmum/10898026_879991855364619_627674748867123537_n_zps377af859.jpg) (http://s424.photobucket.com/user/bradmum/media/10898026_879991855364619_627674748867123537_n_zps377af859.jpg.html) it not one i meant
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its a beautiful picture though Lisa
Hope you have a better day today.
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thank you i slept better ty and feelogn positive again goign to some course work bradley at nannys i will g pick him up atr 5
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Children can often surprise us with how much they pick up, and how much they understand sometimes (in their own terms) I am sure you are doing a fantastic job with Brad and are a wonderfully caring mother :hearts: xx
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thank you emz
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That is a beautiful picture misfriar. Niayah looks every bit a princess. :hug:
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Thank u she was,just bravest mist beauitful little.girl i know niss her soooooooooioo much shebwas just baby
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I am sure your grandad will be looking after her. :hug:
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Thank you xxxx