It is nearly two weeks since we lost my sister and the funeral is booked. I had to go back to work because if I don't work I don't get paid. My job is very busy, so good in one way as no time to dwell. But at times it is a struggle to hold it all together, I would really like to stay in bed.
Seemingly life goes on - (honestly some numpty said this to me just after my Mum died) - I just keep plodding on. And that is really all you can do, hang on in there.
I know that it will get better in time but it doesn't feel like it today. I miss Sue so much, she was my big sister for almost sixty years and I feel like part of me has gone with her.