This morning I received a message from my sister as I had tried to reach out to her last night, it said, and I quote " it's time to stop this now. You have family that love and care for you, stop with the self punishment, Mum wouldn't want this, and I am certain your Dad wouldn't, so shape up" am I going mad? Is the whole world thinking I am being pathetic that it's taking me so long to deal with it? It becomes so you dare not mention what you are feeling, I don't want to feel like this, I just want my parents but I can't have that...