Hi, thanks to all for the kind welcoming words. Partner died of chest infection secondary to lung cancer. He was 69, retired but very active, annoyingly so at times. I was still working, I work for the NHS, shifts were horrendous but I made up my mind I would take early retirement this year. I am 61, getting on a bit but definately not elderly in body or outlook. I don't know what to do now, everythings changed and nothing makes sense.
I have two grown up sons who had a reasonably relationship with my partner, he had two grown up children with whom I have a similar relationship. They have each other and partners to support them and understand their grief. My sons have been good but they cannot fully understand the sense of loss. I have good friends thankfully and being psychiatric nurses most of them know how to say the right things. I still feel so alone though even with people around me.
Sorry thats got to be it for now as I am struggling to see through the tears. Peace and tranquility to everyone on this forum.