Hi Dorothy.
It isn't selfish to rant nor is it feeling sorry for yourself.Grief is a journey no one wants to go on,and one which many of those who think you are ,havnt been on.When you lose one parent the foundations under you crumble,when you lose the second they slide into a black hole.Its not why I came here that's another loss,but I was 22 when my dad died and 40 when my mum died,but I don't think age is a factor only loss.
Coming here and writing stuff down helps I found so I hope it will for you too.