Hi I'm new to the group. On the 23rd of March 2017 my dad, aged 86, died of secondary liver cancer. We had 2 months after diagnosis and used that time to say everything we wanted to each other. My young brother, 44, was dad's main carer and my rock. He was incredible and between us we managed to help dad fulfill his dying wish, to die at home. On 11th April I found my dear brother lying dead on his bedroom floor. He was a recovering alcoholic and had been doing so well, but losing dad was just too much to be strong bear and he started drinking heavily again. I was making good progress in dealing with dad's death, but my brother's death is unbearable. I have a lead Weight in the pit of my stomach and I cry at the most awkward times. I have put my dad's death aside and focussing on grieving my brother's death. I am sad, shocked and angry. X