Hello Redeemed and welcome.
No one can ever understand the true pain of bereavement like you said until it happens to yourself. It's lovely you shared each others pain and knew how much each of you were hurting, plus could talk openly and not have to hold back which doesn't help the healing process.
That's the good thing about this forum you can release all those pent up emotions and know it is listened to by those who understand.
May I offer you my sincere condolences for the loss of your Mum, boy do I know how much that hurts.