I'm struggling so much more the past couple of weeks which took me by surprise, it's 8 months on for me & I have found myself crying more than ever, being upset by the slightest thing. I hardly did any crying after the first couple of weeks & funeral were over, so don't know why I'm like this now.
I've just started a new job & am moving house in 4 weeks so don't suppose that helps having to pack up & moving without Terry - first time in 30 years. Terry was a plumber all his working life & I came across all his tools whilst sorting out the garage, have given them to the local college, they seemed grateful, I hope they can make use of them, he would've liked that.
Getting back to the point, the thought crossed my mind that the anniversary will be creeping up soon. I really don't want the 12th January to be "marked" in any way in our family, our life together was so much more than the day his body just couldn't carry on anymore. I hope I can achieve that for the children's sake.