Thanks for the replies.
This holiday period has been a lot harder than I imagined. The tears and loneliness just come from nowhere and it's not little sobs either. Even when I'm not crying my eyes out I am constantly thinking about Margaret and longing for her.
I said I felt like hibernating and today I practically did. I couldn't be bothered getting up and stayed in bed till tea time. I've already had a fair few cries since getting up. Reminders are everywhere, decorations, programs on telly, food, music ... it seems everything has a memory attached. I guess it's the time of year for reflecting on things but, to be honest, I don't want to think about this year. I just wish it were over.