Hello to everyone and sending gentle thoughts your way x it's been a long while since I have posted and I feel guilty
Turning here when I do x my life is in a really difficult place right now x I feel I don't know where to begin or how to explain x I feel in turmoil which makes my loneliness without mum even more painful if that's possible . I visit my dad and I wish he could visit my world . He can for a moment and he knows when I am by his side but mostly he is in his own world of dementia x. I am still trying to get to my turmoil... things are clashing. My awareness that my relationship is not so healthy and that I have not been treated kindly over the years . My partners father is not very well and this is a terrible time for him . Yet my self journey feels very very strong and I can't hide my feelings and my truth any more . I desperately want my piano it is part of me and would help me in life x my partner gets angry about it and refuses to even consider x this post is very jumbled and I have other difficulties too. Need to charge tablet now but I will post again if that's OK x