Life without my brother is no life at all. There's three things that I can say that keep me here, otherwise there'd be no purpose in my life. Life changed FOREVER when I lost my brother. I'd never think in a million years my brother would be gone, I assumed we'd be together forever. I've failed my brother, you wouldn't understand what I mean by that unless you've felt it too. Maybe one day I can forgive myself, I don't know. Has my brother forgiven me, I don't know. He's gone now and I hope there is this beautiful Heaven like people say so I can see him again. Tell him how much I love and miss him,hug him, kiss him and never let him go. And ask for forgiveness;