Good morning,
Just wanted to introduce myself, I have been a widow for nearly 7 weeks and I hate it!!
I know that grief will take a long time to process and that I will have times when it will not be sitting so close to me and then I will have the days of pure rage and anxiety. My huband had been in hosptial since Oct last year so he had not been in the home for a while, but to know that he is never coming home still does not seem real.
I look at the photos of him and it does not compute that they are all we have of him, and the memories which I am trying hard to access. We have 3 children albeit varying ages and not wholly dependent on me, but the need me for emotional support which i can give them, but who is there for me?
I feel alone with this, my family and friend can empthaise but in reality it is me that has to do this the house, the bills etc.
Sorry if this post is long and angry sounding, i just need a space to rant.
Star9236