My Husband passed at home in an induced coma Feb 2018 due to cancer. My world fell apart that day. It's hard I know you have so many emotions up one minute down the next it does start to feel easier after a while ,I talk to my husband and it helps although I often look around for the men in white coats. A bit of advice don't let anybody tell you to snap out of it it's your greif you take a life time if you need to. My husband was only 51 when he died and I was widowed at 49. You will get through this, I didn't think I would , But I am learning to live with it. He's always in my heart and that's where the memory's lay. 💖