Hi Sandra I am trying to do what I think he would want me to do.
I'm ok with people most of the time, it's just when I close the door back home and I'm on my own.
I do still get angry that he went. He was such a lovely man and a brilliant grandad. He worked hard all his life and we had everything set up for i a well deserved retirement.
Then I realise I have a lot to be thankful for.
We had a lovely happy marriage and were best friends .
Many people dont get anywhere near as long as we had together.
I am thankful for that.
I know I well never recover from this but I am trying to move forward one step at a time. Although sometimes it's one step forward two steps back.
Sandra