Five months isn't actually very long, Jamie. I'm afraid grief is a long and difficult process and you do often feel like you're stuck in a hole, trying to get out. I think you just have to be patient with yourself and don't expect too much. Little things can help, walking in the park, doing something at least once a week that takes you out of yourself and makes you think about something else, visiting places you went together to bring back happier memories of the person you have lost. It will very slowly get better, but that will take a long time, years probably. I don't think you ever really get over loss, you just build up a new life around it and that is difficult, but for your own sake, you have to try to find a way to do it. I am sure your girlfriend would want that for you. Just take it a day at a time and try to find some solace in little things. It will get very slowly easier as acceptance comes, but you will never forget her, so things will never be as they were and nor should they be. You can't live through an experience like this and remain unaffected, but you can survive it. You just need to find little ways that will help you do that. Sending hugs..xx