also sending you a warm welcome -I lost a friend to suicide so i get some of the emotions around it - losing a BF that way is even more difficult i would think.
Its a lot of years ago, and not his first attempt - all his friends tried every way we could to prevent it, but in the end he deliberately left a false trail.
I have found peace with that now but still think of his loss with sadness because he was some-one who had such a beautiful soul, -but perhaps one just too gentle to cope with what the world throws at us sometimes.