I do hope this helps some one, I’ve posted here over the last five years about a life after a death. We were married for forty five years, inseparable, worked together and he was my best friend. However it wasn’t , like most marriages all sweetness and light, and some of the issues didn’t die with him.....but five years down the road I’m a stronger woman, very independent, like myself (which l think is very important) spoil myself, allow myself to do and have what l want, basically l look and care and love myself. The one thing l have felt over the last five years, apart from the loss, was the loss of inner contentment. I still have my moments, but Jack is never coming back, do l want whatever is left of this extremely brief life, to be unhappy, no l don’t.
I looked for this desire to give me inner peace both in drink, men anything l could find. I know I’m an extremely lucky woman, very aware of that, but l needed to be content with me, and my blonde four legged friend. I dont look back as I’m not going that way,l don’t think l look too far forward either, day to day,for me.
And for those lovely people who knew, l have been offered the job, have applied for numerous places and have finally found one which suits, twelve hours per week, not a lot but helps put some structure in my week.
I know it may sound easy, it’s not, l suppose what I’m hoping is that whatever is left of MY life will be as fulfilled as l can make it, because ultimately only l can acheive that.
Much love to all on this hard road. 💋💋