Hallo!
I said hi in the forum above, but happy to do so again; I’m Phil, 59 and my wife Jill died 8 years ago of bowel cancer when she was 54. It was a 2 year period of our lives, bookmarked at the beginning by the death of my mother, and a while after Jill died by the death of my father. So it was a rough old time.
So difficult in fact that it’s taken me this long to really start to process my feelings about Jill’s death, and it’s only in the last two weeks I’ve been able to look it straight in the face. I have been, and still am, suffering from complex grief disorder. I don’t know if it’s something people are familiar with or not. I did a quick search and couldn’t see anything about it, so I’m happy to go into detail if people want to know more. Suffice to say it has totally wrecked my life and sanity for the last 8 years!
Meanwhile it’s me and my Labrador Mr Rustypants, and we spend a lot of time walking, thinking and considering. I’m looking forward to getting a little more involved in the future here, but feel free to ask anything you’d like, and if I can help, I will.
Phil.