Hi,
Quick summary... I lost my mum in October 2016 kind of unexpectedly, she took a health decline that escalated pretty quickly resulting in her death 3 weeks later.
At the time of her death I was only 16 and we had a rocky relationship but I loved her a lot. After her death I took 3 days off school and was back at it like nothing ever happened, close friends and teachers knew but I didn’t really talk about it.
Since then my life hasn’t really changed, I didn’t live with her previously so it’s not like my life was completely flipped on it’s head, but surely I should feel something. Spending time at her death bed hasn’t haunted every waking moment and I don’t suddenly burst into tears when people ask me about her.
Is this normal or is it because I don’t really talk about it. Part of me wants to grieve her as I know that I can’t keep this up forever and some day it’s got to get to me. Do I reach out and try and start the grieving process or just leave it to happen naturally? Will it ever happen? I feel like I shouldn’t worry about this but it’s preoccuping more of my time than it should...
Thanks in advance :)